Last week I wrote about my post-work dinner pity party and Jaime commented:
Don’t you feel like you’re on a hamster wheel sometimes? …
I saw it days ago but I’ve been busy spinning my wheel to respond!
My answer is a resounding… YES!
OMG yes, and I think it’s getting worse the older I get.
Or maybe it’s the older the kids get??
I really don’t know.
I think my hour at the gym used to help me stay sane, but now that I work there that feels like it’s been taken away from me too, which kind of sucks.
There are days (a lot of days) where everything I do seems to be for someone else. I feel constantly in the service of others. I don’t normally mind, but day after day it does start to weigh on me and that’s when I lose energy to take care of myself.
It’s also when I start to lose patience with the kids, withdraw from The Husband and ignore my friends. I simply get to a place where I can’t deal anymore.
I can only describe it as oversaturation.
I know I’m not alone in this and that somehow makes me feel better. I just keep trucking along doing what I can when I can and riding the waves of motivation when they come.