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Rediscovering My Inspiration

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I did it. I took some of your advice from the comments on my last post and stepped back. I removed all (well, most) of my self-imposed pressure. I stepped away from the blogs for a few days, stopped worrying about the gym job, and just spent time with the family.

It was just what I needed.

And I realized something.

I’ve been scared.

It’s kind of hard to explain but the blog has always been a safe zone for me. A creative outlet separate from my “real” life but now that I work at a gym my real life and my blog life are converging in a really weird way and I’ve come to a conclusion: I’ve been afraid of who I want to be.

Who I am.

I’m someone who gets inspired by inspiring.

I’m motivated by motivating.

And I’m lucky enough to not only have this outlet to do that but now it’s my job. My “real” job! And I’ve been afraid to own that. Afraid I don’t deserve it. Afraid I’m not good at it.

But I am.

Man! Why is being confident so hard?

I went out on a limb and asked the gym members if they wanted to join me in a Whole30 Challenge for the New Year and the response was overwhelming. Now I’m hosting this for the gym and helping folks set their goals, planning a recipe exchange and just facilitating the whole thing.

I mentioned it on GreenLiteBites yesterday and I already had people from the blog asking if they can join in and the answer is OF COURSE! So I started a group on MyFitnessPal called Roni’s Whole30 Challenge — click here to join it if you’re interested.

If you don’t know what Whole30 is, check out their site. In a nutshell…

For 30 days say no to…

  • added sugar in any form (syrup, honey, artificial, stevia, xylitol, etc.)
  • alcohol (It’s ONLY 30 DAYS)
  • grains (wheat, rye, barley, oats, rice, millet, bulgar, quinoa, etc.)
  • legumes (beans, peas, peanuts, soy)
  • dairy (milk, cheese, yogurt, cream)
  • the scale!

And say yes to…

  • meat
  • seafood
  • eggs
  • vegetables
  • fruit
  • nuts
  • seeds
  • healthy fats

(Click here for a shopping list that is a fairly comprehensive of approved Whole30 foods.)

You guys know I don’t usually subscribe to diets that make complete food groups off limits but it’s only for 30 days. I like that the goal isn’t massive weight loss or to never eat anything with added sugar ever again. The idea is to take a few weeks to change the way we look at food and fueling our body.

I’m down with that and it’s completely re-inspired me in the kitchen. I thrive on challenge and I love having “a mission,” so to speak.

Yesterday I posted this amazing soup I made that’s Whole30 compliant.

kale-potato-chicken-soup

Today I had a blast grocery shopping.

PRODUCE!

And making an awesome veggie filled chili!

whole30 chili

(I’ll post the recipe asap)

I feel like my old inspired self! This (having a goal, experimenting in the kitchen, sharing tips) is what I love doing.

Officially my gym’s challenge starts Monday the 4th but you guys know me. I’ve thrown away the whole idea of picking an arbitrary start date and binging until I can attempt “perfect.”

Instead, I’m easing my way into it this week. Cooking more and more at home. Getting really familiar with the Whole30 food list, stocking my pantry and beginning to food journal again. By the 1st I’ll be all in. I think it will be good to be a few days ahead of my gym group so I can lead the way and be ready for advice.

So there you have it. A few days off really did allow me to refocus and figure out what really makes me happy. I just need to own it.



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Discussion

There are 14 comments so far.

    Charlie Hills

    December 31, 2015

    I’ve heard (though I have no citations handy) that those who are really good at what they do, who are intelligent, creative, etc., live in a constant state of insecurity and fear that one day they’ll be “found out” and, whelp, that will be that. So if you’re feeling afraid, take that as a sign that you’re likely more on top of things than you realize.

      Mehgann

      December 31, 2015

      It’s called “imposter syndrome”, and it is VERY real. It is really prevalent in academia (where I work), especially among women. You got here because you deserve it! Whether you think so or not, this IS who you are. This is the life you have built. :)

    wo

    December 31, 2015

    Happy New Year.

    Rebecca

    December 31, 2015

    Happy New Year Roni! You still inspire me, always. Good luck on the Whole30 challenge. I look forward to seeing what new recipes you come up with.

    Rebecca

    December 31, 2015

    No beans?! I would totally get on board with this except for the no beans part. Beans have been such a help in weight management for me. And in winter with all the soups and chili. Why no beans?

      Jamie

      December 31, 2015

      http://whole9life.com/2012/09/the-legume-manifesto/
      can give you more information. Basically, in some people, they can be inflammatory. Ultimately, it’s YOUR Whole 30 and if you want to do a Whole 30 with beans, you can. I think there is a vegetarian Whole 30 that includes beans, but don’t quote me.

    Chris

    December 31, 2015

    So happy to hear you’re feeling inspired again! It’s so refreshing and nourishing to take time for yourself away from your JOB – it’s a job!! Take some vacation time to just chill is SO IMPORTANT! Allows you to “stop MUSTurbating” – wait I think I read that in a book somewhere… now where is that…? :-)

    Sana

    December 31, 2015

    You can do this! Fear is so controlling at times and stepping out is the best thing you can do!

    christina

    December 31, 2015

    ok stupid question but I clicked on the link for the myfitnesspal group… how do you actually join the group?

      christina

      December 31, 2015

      nevermind – realized I wasnt signed into mfp.

      Im fully on board minus the grains – l love my steel cut oats and quinoa

    Jessica Smith

    January 1, 2016

    Thanks a lot for sharing this, I also often lack inspiration and this got me motivated again. I myself appear to have been battling with my unwanted weight all my life, even as a teen I was always a little on the chubby side and therefore got picked on frequently. However as an adult woman things changed for even worse as I gained even more pounds especially after my first pregnancy. But lately I have lost almost 30 pounds, after a friend of mine shared a weight loss newsletter from a German diet coach with me, therefore in an effort to give back this is a link to the free newsletter for women: http://bit.ly/1kxNYvM

    Jackie

    January 1, 2016

    Hi. Glad that you’re “feelin’ it” again. Taking time can help with perspective – glad it worked for you. And, from an outsiders point of view – it seems like you’re totally loving the life that you should right now. Doing the jobs that you should and what you love to do. It seems like your gym, and everything that comes with it, is right up your alley. I’m going to do a hybrid version of your January food plan too :-)

    Lindsay Hamilton

    January 4, 2016

    You have inspired me to do the Whole30 challenge. I wanted to make a significant change in my health and lifestyle. I started the challenge today and I am excited to see how I feel in 30 days. I need to lose weight, but my main concern is how my body and mind feels. Wish me luck!

    Paula

    January 9, 2016

    I am looking for my inspiration too. IF you happen to see it, send it to me.