I don’t know WHAT’S up with me lately but I’ve been feeling funkalicious and not in a good way. Yesterday was the worst. I got home from the gym, got the kids ready and off for school and then nothing.
I was done.
The small amount of energy I could muster was wasted on scanning social media.
When I’m in a bad mood I need to stay away from things like Facebook because everything annoys the crap out of me. Normally I couldn’t care less about the stupid political post my friend shared or the insensitive joke a relative posted, but yesterday everything was bugging me.
Let’s just say don’t engage in heated debates when you’re feeling moody.
Just don’t do it.
I finally decided I had enough so…
I tried to focus on a few projects but I couldn’t do.
I tried to reach out to a few friends but I felt like a bother.
And it just got worse and worse throughout the day.
I didn’t even eat dinner with the family. I just pulled out leftovers and told them I needed a break. Afterwards the Husband took the 10-year-Old to soccer while I walked with the 4-Year-Old to the park.
Thankfully he made a friend there and even though I didn’t feel like talking I reached out to the other mom and we chatted for a little while. It was nice.
Once I got him home and put him to bed the only thing I could muster for my #loving39 project on IG was this.
Today I decided I couldn’t do it again. I forced myself to hit the ground running and once I accomplished a few things I started to feel better but I’m still not 100 percent.
Thankfully the Husband and I scheduled a babysitter tonight. We need to spend some time together, too. The older the kids get the harder it is just to have a conversation in their presence. Has anyone else noticed that?
I have one telling me about school and the other showing me his drawings. It’s like a constant stream of information and sometimes I just can’t sift through all of it. At least 2-3 times I day I have to say, “Wait a minute. Your brother is talking.”
It’s like they don’t hear each other!
Anyway, I don’t want to be a downer I just needed to get that all out of my head. It’s so much better than eating my feelings.