One Mom’s Journey from Fat to Skinny to Confident

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And Sometimes It’s Just a Good Picture

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Four years ago I wrote a post called ‘Sometimes It’s Just a Bad Picture‘ after seeing a race photo that I thought was very unflattering.  Truth be told, most pictures I see of myself I’m not happy with. I immediatly focus in on my “man arms” or thicker waist or flabby butt. Sometimes it’s a double chin because I have my head cocked a certain way or a fat leg when I’m sitting. Regardless, photos seem to magnify what I’m most self-conscious about.

I know I’m not alone. I hear my friends rip themselves apart after seeing photos, too. I read other bloggers who negatively talk about their bodies all the time. Even the fittest people I know at my gym point out parts of their bodies insecurely.

It’s a friggin’ epidemic.

I’ve been getting better at not verbalizing my negative, inner-mean girl thoughts about my body when I see photos. I still hear her whispers (you’re not skinny enough, look how thick you look, etc.) but I’ve grown accustomed to ignoring and moving on.

I can’t remember the last time I saw a photo and didn’t think at least one negative thing.  Until today, that is!

One of The Husband’s co-workers posted this photo on Facebook today.

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It may be one of the first time I’ve seen a candid shot of myself and thought, “humph.. I’m looking pretty good.

(Admitting that, confidently, is hard for me but that’s a whole other post. I just wanted to focus on the photo and how I feel.)

If photos can be bad, they can also be good. Right? But it’s not about photos, is it? It’s about how we feel. And I’m amazed how differently I can feel about my body day-to-day.

Amazed.

Today’s food journal….

  • 5:45 a.m. 2 date-based cookies similar to these.
  • 7:00 a.m. Post-workout shake. I’m giving this one a try at the moment
  • 9:15 a.m. 2 eggs scrambled with spinach and bacon bits with a squirt of sriracha — I make it like this.
  • 12:30 p.m. Leftover beef stew and 3 of the husband’s wings
  • 4:45 p.m. 2 chocolate almond cookies
  • 7:30 p.m. The last of the Chicken and Oat Stew
  • 8:30 p.m. Small bag of Popcorners with salsa and an ounce of cheese


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Discussion

There are 16 comments so far.

    Kim Babcock

    December 16, 2014

    You are looking great and you should be proud of it!

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      Thanks. :)

    Jennifer

    December 16, 2014

    I love the dress. And, you look happy.

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      Thank you! I love that dress too! And I was having a blast. :)

    Courtney R

    December 16, 2014

    You look awesome and the dress is stunning!

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      Thank You!

    Jody

    December 16, 2014

    Looking good, and where did you ever find such a stunning dress? How flattering!!!!

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      Boscovs! Love it there!

    Erin Downing

    December 16, 2014

    Super cute haircut, beautiful dress, and happy you! It is a great picture and you look fabulous!

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      :)

    michele

    December 16, 2014

    you look amazing! thank you, as always, for keeping it real for us all:) Merry Christmas to you and your boys!!

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      Thanks!

    RG

    December 16, 2014

    the party looks fun and you and your husband seem like a great couple, happy and dancing. all of that is more important to me than the size of your arms, abs, or anything else. Your smile, your bright eyes, that’s what I see. and also: does Roni have a tatt?

      RoniNoone

      December 16, 2014

      I have a few. :)

    Julia

    December 17, 2014

    Self-talk is HUGE, it changes everything. Im also working on being kinder to myself. Great post and great pic, obviously! :)

    roma

    January 9, 2015

    OH MY GOODNESS, HOW VERY PRETTY YOU LOOK!!!
    I love looking at what you have accomplished. I am at WW and lost 70 lbs BUT…I have been stuck in a “within 5 lbs” plateau for months :( How does one get unstuck? Did you plateau? any advice you can lend? I have 30 lbs more to go to goal and the anxiety is killing me!
    Happy New Year Roni! I am so glad that I found you