This morning with The Husband standing behind me at the computer I broke down into tears. I was simply trying to show him a technical problem and I couldn’t focus enough to find the link I wanted to click on.
I literally just started crying and that’s not something I do often about myself. Sure, I cry about my kids or while watching sappy commercials, but I’m not a panic-attack-cry-about-my-situation type of person. I’m just not.
I’m going on day 4 of intense neck pain and I lost it. I can’t focus. I’m moody. Angry. And to make matters worse my foot still hurts AND I’ve been battling a hideous allergy attack that’s causing a horrible sore throat and postnasal drip.
I feel like I’m falling apart.
It sucks and I just need to vent about it because honestly, I tried writing the post I wanted to write today and I just can’t.
I’ve been trying so hard to keep a #wycwyc attitude about this but every day it’s getting harder.
I’m basically stuck in a Groundhog Day cycle. I wake up in pain. Push myself to move because if I don’t, I just feel even worse. Throughout the day with some stretching and ice packs and mobility, I start to feel better. I’ve seen a chiropractor 3 times this week and he’s been helping as well.
But then I go to bed and wake up with the same pain all over again.
In addition, I can’t walk without limping so I haven’t run since Saturday. I’m supposed to, and was looking forward to running 15 miles this weekend for my marathon training but there’s just no way. My neck would probably love it but my foot won’t be able to handle it. Plus it’s just not a good idea. I don’t know what’s wrong with it and I’d rather not do any more damage. I made an appointment to see a podiatrist on Tuesday.
Frankly, I’m pissed. I’m mad at my body. I’ve been really enjoying training and felt like I found a nice balance without going crazy overboard. I was already cutting back on my mid-week runs to focus only on distance training on the weekends. I’ve been good about taking rest days. I even cut back a little at the gym.
I’ve been feeling fantastic! The neck thing just sucks. The foot thing is coming out of nowhere and is not something I’m used to. I’ve never, ever had foot pain before so I don’t even know how to deal. And these allergies are crazy. I swear, it’s worse for me in the fall than the spring.
So there you have it. My whiny post for the day. Sorry to be today’s Debbie Downer. I’m going to the doctor this afternoon and I can’t wait until Tuesday so someone can shed some light on my mysterious foot pain. Until then I’m just going to keep taking it easy. There’s really nothing else I can do and I think that’s what bothers me the most. I’m not one to sit around and pout and I hate, HATE, feeling helpless, which is exact how I feel.
Let’s end on some cuteness ’cause I can use a smile.
Ok, they made me smile. I’m off to the docs.