I’m sure some have fallen through the cracks but I make my best effort to read each and every comment, email or social media mention I get. I may not see it right away, it may take me a long time to respond, but if you sent something my way, chances are I’ve seen it. If I haven’t responded, I’m sorry, you may get an email from me a year later. It has happened.
The note I’m about to share was sent at the end of last week but I didn’t get a chance to see it until Monday — I’m trying REALLY hard to unplug a little on the weekends. Anyone with me on that?
Anyway, it brought a tear to my eye. I really wanted to share it with you so I asked the sender and she agreed. We both see the power in sharing our stories in hopes it will positively influence someone else. Here goes:
I just read your post about reaching the impossible and how you’re motivated to try new things. It came at a good time for me and your words make me cry. This week I tried a new weight class at a gym.
I’ve never done any weights.
I don’t go to the gym.
I can’t do push ups.
I was the weakest person in the room by far. I was called out many times to adjust my position. I had no energy left to even lift myself off the mat when I was done. I tried to hide that from the group. (I had no energy left in my arms to wash my hair once I was home). Everyone was friendly enough and we were all chatting about what a tough class that was when class was done. That’s when I blurted out,
“I think I’m a lost cause.”
Everyone heard it and reacted to it immediately saying I shouldn’t talk like that. It was a sentence so deep inside me that I didn’t even realize how awful it was until they played it back to me with the look in their eyes. I came home and turned into a puddle of tears… for feeling weak…. for not being kind to myself.
I still feel embarrassed by how weak I was. One thing I thought to myself to try and cheer up was “what would Roni say to me right now?” And I could imagine you would say…. WAY TO GO … WAY TO PUT YOUR SHOES ON AND HEAD OUT THE FRONT DOOR AND TRY SOMETHING YOU’VE NEVER DONE….. WAY TO TRY!!!!
I’m trying so hard to listen to those words and let them sink in….. instead of that mean girl inside saying…. “you slowed the class down. The instructor probably hopes you never come back and is probably wondering how a woman so young is so completely out of shape…. so pudgy… soft.”
My inner mean girl needs a hug or something, I know.
I just wanted to say thank you for always rooting on your readers just as much as they root you on. We feel it. We do. Looking forward to your next post.
I don’t even know where to begin.
For starters, the fact that she knows me so well makes me smile. That’s exactly what I would have said! I am a firm believer in celebrating every victory, every small step, every minuscule act that brings you the slightest bit closer to your goal. Because the one thing I learned these past 10 years is: EVERYTHING COUNTS!
Second, I can’t explain the feeling I get when someone tells me I’m in their head. Hey, if I help just one other person drown out their inner mean mean girl all this crazy blog stuff is totally worth it. The fact that I can do something that brings me so much joy and help someone else makes me feel like I won the lottery!
Third, I’m not sure what post the sender (I promised I would keep her anonymous) was referring to, but a few pop in my head while I read her note including:
- 10 Things You Tell Friends That You Should Be Telling Yourself
- I May Have Been the Slowest Person at the Gym Today but…
- 10 ‘Impossible’ Things I’ve Accomplished
- Do something different and learn something new about yourself. — Not the title of the post but what I blogged about.
Fourth, I bolded her words above because they really struck a chord with me.
“I think I’m a lost cause.”
No. No. No. NO!
No one is a lost cause if they have the desire to change.
That’s all it takes, desire. If there is something you want to accomplish, something you want to experience, something you want to change in your life then start the process now. Nothing will happen overnight. You have to be in it for the long haul. You have to remind yourself over and over again that small steps can and will add up to big changes over time. I cannot stress that enough.
When I started this journey almost 10 years ago I could have never imagined I’d be where I am today, eating what I eat. Working out the way I work out. Training for my SECOND marathon. Working for myself. Writing a damn book!
All those things happened because I kept making SMALL changes. It started with food journaling, then walking, then trying new vegetables, then joining a gym, etc., etc., etc. I could seriously map out small change after small change. I didn’t just wake up one morning 70 pounds lighter with a desire to wake up at 5 a.m. and lift. I definitely didn’t just automatically enjoy healthy foods or have an urge to put spinach in my smoothies.
I took countless small steps over the course of the past 10 years, and I can tell you without a doubt all those small steps added up to some pretty massive changes in my life.
If you think you are a lost cause, I challenge you to make the smallest of changes today. Do something you never do. Nudge yourself out of your comfort just slightly.
Then do it again.