I’m finally ready (and excited) to post about FitBloggin‘ but there are a few photos and videos I need to gather first. So it may take another day or two.
However, this post is completely inspired by my experience this past weekend and my subsequent burst of motivation since.
First things first, when I’m hosting FitBloggin’ I’m in constant motion so there’s no time for me to document what I’m eating or little things I want to share throughout the day. Honestly, that’s why I hire a photographer. The first year I was naive enough to bring my camera. Now I just leave it at home. When you are managing 250 people, attempting to keep everything on schedule and interacting as much as possible, there’s just no time.
Not even to eat! Which leads to my confession:
I’m the least healthiest when on site managing my own health conference!
Sad, right? It’s true though! I’m barely sleeping, I eat all day, on the run, and never “good-for-you” stuff. We order pizza for the staff, sandwiches late at night, random drinks, cheese fries, and this year Jen thought it would be a good idea to bring those candy spearmint leaves. You know, the green gummy ones with crystallized sugar on the outside.
Oh, how I love those!
Which is why I never buy them. Ever.
Every time I found myself back at the registration desk, I had another one or two or six.
So basically I eat ALL day, yet I’m never satisfied. My stomach is constantly in that mild growling state but then I don’t know if I should eat because I just shoved 18 samples of trail mix in my pie hole and washed it down with some yummy smoothie concoction one of our sponsors was sharing.
By Sunday I felt like crap.
It was the first time in a long time I let my food choices just completely go and it was eye opening.
On the drive home we stopped for fast food and I ordered a salad.
It was an easy decision.
The next day I waited until I was actually hungry before making a fun Apple and Walnut Yogurt Parfait for breakfast.
For lunch, an entire bag of frozen broccoli and leftover pork loin tossed with a smidge of coconut oil, soy sauce and red pepper flakes.
I don’t have a picture of dinner but I made a big batch of sweet potato hash with ham and broccoli.
Yesterday was more of the same. I ate leftover sweet potatoes with egg for breakfast, had a soup and salad for lunch, and dinner, well, dinner was amazing! I topped my Turkey and Kale Taco Filling — click here for the recipe — with Mango Avocado Salsa!
I cannot WAIT to share that recipe on GreenLiteBites!
My point in sharing all this may not be what you think. I’m proud of myself not only for the awesome food choices or taking an hour or two to stock the fridge with fresh foods or getting right back to my routine when I got home, but also for not getting on the scale, not starting my food journal back up and not FREAKING OUT!
I feel like I have finally, after almost 10 years at this, moved completely on from a diet mentality. Like completely. I know I’ve been flirting with it for some time, but there’s always been a hint of it here or there, lurking around providing just enough fuel for my inner mean girl to latch on to.
Taking the scale away from her was for sure the biggest step for me. I can honestly say I have no idea how much I weigh. I don’t want to know. (I have another post brewing about my body image, so keep an eye out!) I don’t need to know.
I also have no plans to return to food journaling. This probably warrants a whole post because I still am a big proponent of food journals but after 10 years, like the scale, it’s just time to move on. I’m graduating. I’m focusing on better not less. My goals are fitness focused not size or scale-centric.
This is a long time coming and I think I used to fear getting to this place for myriad reasons, but a smart woman recently told me:
“Isn’t change the point of all this?”
Funny how being surrounded by amazing, inspirational, awesome people and eating really crappy food for a few days can put things in perspective for you.
Embrace Change and Adjust <– I wrote that 2 years ago. It’s funny how we have to keep reminding ourselves of these things.