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Feeling blah. I had a few interactions in the past couple of days that have thrown me into a self-conscious tailspin. You know, the self-doubt-inner-mean-girl-no-one-likes-me kind of thoughts. I like to think everyone goes through this now and then. Right?

Blah!

Have you ever been over yourself?  I’m totally over it.

Onward!

I had a few things I wanted to share all week but I simply ran out of time. So here goes a little Friday Randomness…

  • I loved this post on AHealthySliceofLife.com called Sometimes, Small is Better. It has #wycwyc written ALL over.
  • I’ve also fallen in love with the blog Lose50in20. It really reminded me of when I first started this blog in 2005. Listing my goals, posting updates, sharing my food journals, etc. I miss those days. It’s strange. I kind of envy Nancy in a weird way. It makes me want to challenge myself with a new goal and blog my progress. I mean that’s kind of still what I do here but after 9 years it gets a little cloudy.
  • My new #RunStreak is in full force! I’ve run every day this month so far and have been keeping track with RunKeeper. I love a good streak. It reminds me there really isn’t any reason not to get out there for at least 10 minutes or so a day.
  • Tomorrow…. oh tomorrow… Tomorrow I’m competing in the scaled division of the ATLAS games, a local CrossFit competition. Remember all those self-doubting thoughts I mentioned before, well, yeah. I’m excited but I also know a few other women competing and I don’t stand a chance. I don’t know why it’s bothering me though. I never stood a chance winning a race yet I used to run those all the time. There’s just something different about CrossFit. I WANT to be good at it and for some reason that scares me.
  • Speaking of fear. I love — love, love, LOVE — this piece of advice from Jim Carrey.

  • In other news, FitBloggin’ is full steam ahead! Logistics are all almost figured out and sponsor support has really grown the last few weeks — check it out! It was a little hairy there for a few months so I’m breathing a small sigh of relief.
  • GreenLiteBites  has seen busier times but I did post a fun tuna salad idea yesterday and a cool stuffed pork loin recipe the family wasn’t too impressed with (but I was). I also have a 3 bean salad post planned but I haven’t had time to write it all out yet.
  • This probably warrants its own post but I’m not sure I’ll have time to get to it so I want to mention it here. Check out the Turn it Around movement

    Here’s the scene: You’re standing in line at the check-out counter of your local grocery store. What do you see?  Candy. Gum.  Magazines.  What’s on the cover of many of those magazines? A half-naked, heavily airbrushed, extraordinarily thin female model or celebrity. These images encourage people to see women as objects, valuable only for how they look.And now you’re trapped! Even if it isn’t a magazine you would ever buy, you’re stuck looking at it.

    I love it! And I’ve thought this topic before. I was  going to do a post about how a specific “athletic wear” company only used one type of model in their catalog, like all fit females have the same body shape. It’s infuriating. Anyway, like I said it probably warrants its own post just like…

  • …this quote from an interview with a Victoria’s Secret Model in Self magazine…

    “If I look in the mirror and see cellulite — and I have some, every woman does! — I run the Santa Monica Stairs. They’re really hard. I’ll go up and down the [170] steps four to six times, usually once a week.” —Alessandra Ambrosio in this article.

    Isn’t that depressing on multiple levels?  Ugh.

  • Ok, I feel I need to end on a positive note so here goes…
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    The Soon-To-9-Year-Old-In-Like-2-Days and I found a super cute box turtle this week on one of our walks. We only kept him for a day and let him go hear a pond behind our house. I love that I get to explore nature with my kids. :)

OK, was that random enough for you?  I’m off for a quick run before getting the 3-year-old from preschool and looking forward to 10 minutes of me time.

Have a great weekend. I will try to pop in with a competition update and you can be sure a Sensational Birthday Sunday!



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    Shauna

    June 13, 2014

    RE: The Magazine Cover

    But are we though? Are we trapped? Or can’t we, instead, look at the cover model and say “wow! she’s gorgeous! Good for her – I bet her cardio routine is outrageous!” in stead of “Oh my GOD she’s too thin, overly airbrushed, I’ll never look like that etc etc” I want to celebrate women. Celebrate eachother. Every damn cellulite ridge and hard earned too-big-for-pants-booty. I want us to love our bodies SO MUCH that we also love and congratulate others on loving THEIR bodies, too.
    So no – when I see a cover model I don’t feel like an object. I don’t feel trapped. I see a woman who obviously works hard and has a story just like everyone else.

      RoniNoone

      June 13, 2014

      BUT if we truly want to support woman then ALL woman would be celebrated and that’s just not the case. When was the last time you saw some diversity on the cover of a woman’s health mag? What about the woman who work hard but still don’t look the way the ladies on the cover do. And they are air brushed and they do extreme things to look that way just for cover shoots. I’m not saying we should shame thin woman, I’m saying we should push for more diversity and stop objectifying ourselves. The same image of the female form does not have to be shoved in our faces over and over again.

      You can’t deny we are flooded with basically one image of health and it’s based on the aesthetic the magazines promote. I work my ass off, I’m fit, I’m healthy, I am not cover material and never will be and I’m tired of seeing images all over the place that tell me I’ll look a certain way if I just do X or eat Y or workout like so and so.

      Shauna

      June 16, 2014

      I completely, 100% AGREE that we need some variation in what we see on the magazines. (also note I really dislike those “real women have curves” or “real women have this” signs. Terrible.) I think I’m having trouble articulating that I really just want all women to love and accept eachother as we are. I know I have work to do and I know I’ll never have the same body shape as someone who is a size 2. It’s just not in the cards for me, HA! BUT I can do a bunch of pull ups and run long distances….and that’s pretty cool :)

      RoniNoone

      June 16, 2014

      That’s how I feel too! And I agree… “Real woman have curves” bothers the crap out of me too. I’d just like to see curvy, kick ass athletes on these covers too!

      I’m writing about our conversation in todays post. Thanks so much for leaving your comment!!

    Michele

    June 14, 2014

    I agree with Shauna. It doesn’t make me feel that way at all. I also don’t understand what’s depressing about that model running the stairs? Maybe you can elaborate. I don’t mean this snarky, so please don’t take it that way but you’ve been in/on a few magazines. I even bought the one you were on the cover of. I still have it somewhere! :) I think I remember you being pretty excited about it. Again, don’t take it the wrong way because I’m a huge fan of yours and have been for many years but I don’t get why this bothers you.

      RoniNoone

      June 14, 2014

      I would love to because as I said, it warrants a whole post. I just don’t have the time at the moment to collect all my thoughts enough to write one but I’ll do my best.

      The reason I find it sad or, what did I say? depressing? is because it’s perpetuates the idea that woman need to punish themselves for how they look. These magazines (I’m talking about the “fitness” style ones mostly) constantly bombard us with images that for many of us are impossible or best case scenario improbable even if we ate “perfectly” or worked out intensely. They tell us over and over and over again to do “this” and get “that kind of body.”

      If you aren’t bothered or influenced by it I think that’s great! And I wish more woman can let it roll off their backs but the truth is most can’t. They just keep seeing the same body types shoved in their faces and it wears on them. Especially younger woman who may not have learned their own confidence yet.

      All through my teens and 20s all I wanted was to look like the uber thin, tiny, waifish models of the 90s and I continually “punished myself” because I didn’t which is what started my horrible relationship with food and my lack of activity back then. I realized no matter how much I dieted I’m just no going to look like Kate Moss. And I don’t want to throw Kate Moss under the bus. Her body is awesome, I’m sure she works hard to keep her figure but that “model look” is not representative of all woman.

      And yes, I was ecstatic to be on the cover of a magazine and you know when that happened? When I was at my lowest weight possible for my height. I was super thin. I didn’t workout. I had no muscle and
      I couldn’t run.

      I’m not saying those things are all bad in and of themselves, not everyone wants to run or lift or whatever, but I’m WAY more fit and balanced now even though I’m heavier and a size bigger.

      So I think I’m just fed up of being force fed this idea (and I really do think it imprints on many young woman) that they have to continuously worry about how they look. So much so that if they see a dimple of cellulite they find it necessary to punish themselves by doing things like running stairs. Can’t she just run the stairs because it’s good for her? Because she enjoys it? What does it say to young woman who have no chance of a body like hers? Do they need to run the stairs more and more and more while starving themselves?

      For pete’s sake, my upper thighs and ass are ALL cellulite and the funny thing is I’d love to run the Santa Monica stairs not to change that but to see how fast I can do it because I like to challenge myself physically. And don’t get me wrong, no cellulite would be awesome! I just don’t think it’s in the cards for me and frankly, I don’t want to spend any more of my precious time and energy worrying about.

      I hope that sheds some light on my perspective and I don’t think you were being snarky at all! I left it pretty open ended in the post.

      Mehgann

      June 16, 2014

      I have to comment on the woman running the stairs. I read it differently than you (and maybe I read it wrong). I see her as saying “If I see cellulite (and presumably feel down about it), I run these stairs which are really hard to remind myself that even WITH cellulite (which EVERYONE has), I can do this really hard, yet amazing, thing with the body I have.” If you look at it THAT way, it’s empowering rather than depressing. I didn’t see it as her punishing herself, just reminding herself of all that she is capable of…that her cellulite GENUINELY doesn’t matter. Again, I could be wrong, but that’s what I thought she was saying.

      RoniNoone

      June 16, 2014

      Maybe I misinterpreted her and maybe I’m self projecting but I TOTALLY didn’t see it that way at all.

      Mehgann

      June 16, 2014

      Well, you’re probably right, since if that’s what she meant, it’s probably what she would have said. However, I look at it that way, so I’m not letting her cellulite hate get me down!!! I’m proud of my butt dimples. I worked hard to achieve them. ;)

      RoniNoone

      June 16, 2014

      LOL I agree!

    nancyabc

    June 18, 2014

    OK I don’t know if you will see this but it is important to put turtles back exactly where you got them. I took a science work shop at a local college and was told not to remove a turtle from where you found it. I was one that would stop my car and pick up a turtle on the road to save it–the professor said just pick it up and put it on the side of the road it was headed for.

      RoniNoone

      June 19, 2014

      I never heard that!! I’m totally going to look it up!