One Mom’s Journey from Fat to Skinny to Confident

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Before CrossFit for Sure…

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Being FitBloggin’ week, there is a ton of old photos floating around the interwebs. Especially thanks to Dubyawife who said,

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I was like… no. Please don’t. lol

I’m kidding, totally fun of course! She posted this of me and her from Fitbloggin’12…

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Then Alan joined in.

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Then Steve, even though this was from last year’s CrossFit Comp.

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Emily posted this from FitBloggin’11.

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Susan who is not coming for the first time since the beginning! (sad face)

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Gail and I from last year.

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Then Heather tagged me in this one from the very first FitBloggin’ in 2010!

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To which one of my new friends from my gym commented:

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Despite being completely distracted and busy with packing and preparations, my inner mean girl used this as a way to sneak in.

What does that mean? Is he saying I’m bigger now? Do people look at me and see a big, bulky girl? 

Back then I was really thin. Actually, in that photo I was pregnant but ended up miscarrying. I was maintaining my loss for about 4 years, I’d been running regularly for 2 and just really started really getting more into weight training.

I can’t get over how much time has passed and how much I’ve accomplished since the beginning of this journey. Who would have thought making a commitment to blog weekly after my Weight Watchers meeting would lead to… to… well, whatever this is?

I’m truly committed to accepting my body as a result of my lifestyle. Pursuing a specific look has always been counterproductive to me. Yet there’s still a tinge of wanting to be super thin. Something I am not and something my current lifestyle wouldn’t support anyway.

Of course I had to ask The Husband about the image, who said that SAME EXACT THING: “That was you before CrossFit.”

I was like…

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

To which he said, “Ummm, you look like you work out now.”

I was like, “Well, that’s good because I do.”



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There are 16 comments so far.

    Kimba

    June 23, 2014

    Hi Roni. I’ve followed for a long time, actually ‘found’ you through your Podcast that you used to do. I’m attending Fitbloggin for the first time this year. So I was reading this post, looking at pics, and I was surprised at your 2010 pic. It was almost like “wow, this is Roni?” type of reaction. Your later pics look much more healthy than this one. Yes, like you say, you look thin, but in later years you look far more healthy. No, you do not look big and bulky, not at all! You look far more refreshed and energized and “fit” in later years.

    Kimba

    Tricia Lightfoot Bovell

    June 23, 2014

    I agree with @disqus_7X5MCD1VfJ:disqus . The adjectives I would also add are content & happy. I’ve followed your blog for a long time and can really see the change in you. Congrats!

    dawn

    June 23, 2014

    I hope you don’t mind my honesty, but you look AMAZING now and before cross fit your belly looked a bit loose (at least in this pic)—and you were more girly. So tell your inner mean girl to chew on that!

    Amanda

    June 23, 2014

    Roni, I’m a long-time lurker on your blog (I think I began reading Roni’s Weigh 8 years ago [were you writing then?[ when I started doing WW my first year of college).

    You inspired me then and you REALLY inspire me now. I know that physical looks are only one part of this journey, but I do want to say that you look incredible– so energetic, and so fit– in your “post starting crossfit” photos.

    Also, when I make excuses about working out, I think of you, and how you fit in your exercise along with a family and a busy job. I started going to crossfit about a month ago, and get so excited reading back through your crossfit posts. Keep being our awesome inspiration, Roni. Thank you!

    PerfectImperfect

    June 23, 2014

    Honestly, I would have thought you were thinner in the more recent pictures — you look softer in the pre-Crossfit pic. But you are gorgeous in all of them.

    I look forward to seeing your gorgeousness in person and getting that selfie.

    Carmen Michea

    June 24, 2014

    I’ve been following you for about a year now. I didn’t even recognize that was you in the last pic (might be the hair). Anyhow, you look amazing now and FIT. Don’t let that inner mean girl come out. You look healthy and wonderful right now. High five!

    bella

    June 24, 2014

    That seems like kind of a jerky thing for your friend to say.

    JMGirl

    June 24, 2014

    You are beautiful…period.

    Shauna

    June 24, 2014

    *sigh* Men. I’m telling ya – their brains simply don’t function the way ours do. I see that comment and I’m like “what in the hell is THAT supposed to mean?” When really – it means “her arms are so much more muscular now! She’s obviously been working hard!”
    Don’t take it so severely. They can’t help it – their complements are often clouded. I have a hard time with this. I nearly always go straight for the negative. You look and feel awesome. :)

    Anar

    June 24, 2014

    You look like you can kick some butt now and that’s a good thing:)

    Karen

    June 25, 2014

    Great post Roni!

    Kathy

    June 25, 2014

    Hi Roni! I’ve been a lurker on your blog for YEARS, and I just want to say that I’ve found all renditions of you beautiful. Our bodies are a reflection of what we do, so is it so surprising that you used to look like a runner and now you look like a Crossfitter? Neither is better than the other, and at least for me, both versions have and continue to inspire me :)

    Nicole

    June 25, 2014

    Hey Roni, I think you look great in ALL your photos! The differences now are pretty subtle–your neck is a little more muscled now and your shoulders will fill out a t-shirt more than they did 4 years ago. You certainly don’t look “bulky”! Nor do I believe that you looked “too skinny” before. What I do know is that I love hearing about all the performance gains you’ve made since starting crossfit–if you focus on what your body can DO rather than how it LOOKS then you’ll see how much you’ve changed!

    Vicky

    June 26, 2014

    It is amazing the transformation your mind and body has gone through with even more to come!

    Aimee

    June 26, 2014

    I don’t know what that means, but I think you look healthy, happy and incredibly fit. I’ve been following your blog since shortly before my son was born 7 years ago and you were an inspiration to me then. I have lost 75 pounds over that time and maintained it. Your blog and podcasts provided much needed motivation at times. You remain one of the most genuine bloggers and though you have changed over the years your values have not. I respect that about you. Good luck with Fitbloggin! Maybe one of these years I’ll actually make it there.

    Jennifer

    June 26, 2014

    Hey Roni! I’m a Crossfitter from crossfitwacobox.com! You look gorgeous in all of your photos! I’ve gotten the “That was before you did Crossfit” line before. At first I was put off by his comment, but then I got over it and decided to take it as a compliment. I’ll be coming back to read more of your blog! Enjoy FitBloggin!