Friday afternoon was beautiful! Warm, sunny, just gorgeous.
Around 4:30 I embarked to pick up the 3-Year-Old from day care. I do this on foot as much as possible since his center is only about a mile away. You may remember our walk a few weeks ago, that’s our route and on Friday we had lots of extra time to play on our way home since The Husband was taking the 8-Year-Old to his soccer game and we planned to eat dinner afterwards.
A few days before we had some thunderstorms and the rain left a few puddles in the drainage area surrounding the parks parking lot. If you have or even know a 3-Year-Old then you are keenly aware where this is going.
Toddlers LOVE puddles. They must be polarized or something because I’ve yet to pass a puddle either of my kids weren’t attracted to.
Since we weren’t in a hurry we decided to stop at the park puddles and lucky us, there happened to be a nice pile of rocks nearby.
After about 5 minutes of watching Little Bean completely entertained by finding “big rocks” and throwing them into the shallow body of water I started (in true #wycwyc form) stretching my hamstrings and doing a few yoga poses.
I set the phone on the ground, leaning it against a rock and found a fun angle. The lighting was perfect. The sky gorgeous. It was going to be a great shot!
I walked to my spot and attempted to get into tree pose (my favorite) real quick for the photo.
It was perfect!
The gorgeous sky, the fun angle, me smiling at Little Bean, I couldn’t believe it. First try and I got it!
Is that my stomach hanging out?
OMG it is.
I didn’t even realize my shirt was up.
I can’t share this. I look horrible.
But the photo, it’s so fun and happy and exactly what I wanted to share.
I love it.
Damn it, why did my shirt have to ride up? Now I have to take another one. I can’t share that. It’s gross.
So that’s what I did.
And even though I didn’t like second shot as much, I shared it. Why?
Because my slightly round, pudgy, stretch-marked stomach was safely hidden under my black tank top.
I’m still mad at myself for making that decision. Here I am trying to be confident. Trying to spread a message of self-acceptance and healthy body image but I still struggle.
Yesterday I saw a video that gave me the courage to share this story.
I watched, then cried, then donated to Embrace – The documentary that will create global change. I want to see this project come to fruition.
We need this documentary.
Taryn (the woman in the video and behind this project) said it best,
The day I learned to unconditionally love my body was the day I became unstoppable.
I’m almost there.