One Mom’s Journey from Fat to Skinny to Confident

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Home and Out of Control

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I’m home watching the original Conan and listening to The Husband as he reads the history of The Godfather 3 — don’t ask. Anyway, after a long flight we made it home. Our week in California was perfect. Perfect! I’ll be going through the photos and sharing more on the travel blog when I can including our final itinerary using Roadtrippers.

The trip, however, isn’t what I want to blog about. I am feeling really out of control with my eating. Of course a week on the road will do that to you, but this is different. I’m unmotivated and uninspired in the food department and frankly, at this point, I’m just eating to eat.

It doesn’t help that Easter is this weekend and I have a houseful of guests coming. I need to shop, cook and the chocolate…  oh the chocolate will abound.

I also haven’t run or worked out in a week. I’m not beating myself up about it or anything. Everyone needs a break, but now I have an itch to get back into my routine. However, I just don’t see how that’s going to happen anytime soon, and I think that’s stressing me out which, yup, you guessed it… leads to more EATING!

Ugh. It’s a vicious cycle.

It’s going to have to come down to #wycwyc and remind myself that eating crappy food is not a reward.

OK, I have to get some sleep. Big weekend!



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    Ben Edgson

    April 19, 2014

    I lived in California for 4 years, it's a beautiful place!! Just came across your blog as I was searching for weight loss blogs for inspiration and I found this!! I must say I love it and It's helped inspire me to set one uo myself :)! Thank you! Reply

    Paula

    April 19, 2014

    We have all experienced the "I don't give a crap" cycle. You'll pull yourself out of this funk. You always do. Reply

    Mary Ann

    April 19, 2014

    I've been reading back through your archives and just came across this appropriate quote from 2009: Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.--Doug Firebaugh. Reply

    jody

    April 19, 2014

    Just get yourself back to the box, everything else will fall into place. Good luck! Reply

    Chloe@SearchinForAHealthierLif

    April 19, 2014

    I've been feeling the same recently, and at this stage I am just eating for eating's sake. Hope things get back to normal for you soon! Without routine I am out of sorts. Reply

    Karen P

    April 19, 2014

    Just recognizing it is a key first step. One of the best things that ever happened to me was that I got sick the day before Thanksgiving. I told everyone we would eat out for dinner. We started the BEST family tradition EVER. We still talk about it to this day, how good it is to go out to a "fancy pants" dinner. Even better, I got the gift of a break. Put yourself first and call a time out if you need it. Here's to getting back to the new normal instead of the old behaviors. Onward! Start where you are. Reply

    Shauna

    April 20, 2014

    Right there with you. I just went through a whirlwind of days where I didn't think that one bad meal would wreck everything and it lead to another bad meal and yep - you guessed it - almost FIVE pounds of weight gain. And the weight gain doesn't make me want to slow down and get back into routine, just makes me want to eat more because my brain thinks food is comforting :-( Goodness! Reply

    Dr. Call

    April 20, 2014

    I know you've lost weight, but it sounds like you are leaving out the 4th and 5th (final) steps of my weight loss program. I will list my 5 steps and let you decide. 1. Recognize your overweight (you've already been through this, so skip), 2. Realize the Consequences (I'm sure you have already done this, that's why you lost weight), 3. Reduce your weight (You've definitely done this by losing so many pounds, 4. Reconstruct your lifestyle (it sounds like you've done this, at least in part, 5. Remain your new Healthy you (This is the one that 99% of people have a problem with, and it has to do a lot with following through with your new lifestyle, as well as controlling your stress coping mechanisms). -Dr. Call Reply

    carla birnberg

    April 21, 2014

    ahhhh I am so feeling wonky as well. a week away. I leave again this am. I REALLY DID NOT KNOW HOW I LOVED MY ROUTINE SO!! talk soon..xo Reply

    Shannon

    April 21, 2014

    HI Roni- I saw this video clip and it reminded me of the way your blog is a source of help and encouragement. Thanks! http://blog.petflow.com/this-3-minute-video-made-me-cry-and-i-never-cry-must-see-for-everyone/ Reply

      RoniNoone

      April 21, 2014

      crap. Now I'm crying again. lol Loved this.

    Simone Cameron

    May 19, 2014

    It helps to know one doesn't battle with this alone. I am not nearly as far into my journey as you are....have LOTS to lose still, but makes me feel more human knowing people don't just lose the urge to eat when they have these amazing transformations. Thanks for keeping it real:) Reply