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I Broke My No-Fat-Talk Promise…

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…and my 8-year-old called me out on it.

I was doing great! Two months ago I blogged about 10 ways I would be pushing myself out of my comfort zone in 2014 — Click here to read it. They were my New Year’s resolutions, in a way. I just didn’t want to call them that.

Regardless, I’m kicking butt on them! Here’s a few updates…

10. #wycwyc The Book! Carla and I were bouncing around self publishing but it looks like we may have an interested publisher for our wycwyc.com book idea! I’ll keep you posted as things progress!

9. 26.2 miles baby! I’m registered for the Rock and Roll Vegas Marathon in November 2014. Training will start early July. I’ll post more about it then.

8. Continuing CrossFit competitions. Already competed in the Gemini Games and am registered for the MAAC!

7. Enter CrossFit Open. Registered! Check out my “Athlete Page.

6. Second adventure with Ryan. Flight booked! Posted more about this on the travel blog!

5. Husband adventure! Anniversary trip booked!

4. Rebrand all my sites. In the works! Phase 1 should be completed in the next couple of weeks.

3. Get certified to belay. DONE! Already took the 8-year-old!

2. Up my video production. Have a few ideas but haven’t done a video all year yet.

1. Zippy, as in ZERO, nada, absolutely NO FAT TALK. This is the one I broke yesterday.

I was doing so good! I caught myself a few times and shrugged off the fat thoughts. I actually thought back to that post and my promise to myself and refuse to verbalize them.

It was working.

Then all of a sudden, yesterday right after I got dressed I blurted out,

Ugh! I feel so fat today.” 

I didn’t even think before I said it. I just came out of me.

From the other room I heard the 8-year-old say,

“But Mom, you aren’t even close to being fat.”

Then I cringed.

  1. I felt guilty that my son heard it.
  2. I was mad at myself for feeling it, thinking it and saying it.

Ugh!  Will I ever be cured of these ridiculous mind games! Stupid inner mean girl.

Regardless of my baggage I really need to watch myself around the boys. I’ve been trying hard to be a strong, independent, active role model.

I just needed to confess that. I may have made a No-Fat-Talk Promise to myself but when those thoughts do emerge, talking about them helps to quiet them. It’s like standing up to a bully and that’s exactly what the inner mean girl is.

Anyway, I kept my food journal today and posted on both my food and travel blog…

First up is a dish I made in Cozumel called a sope

Devil-Style Shrimp Sopes

You have to click here to check it out!

Second is all about the my adventure in Grand Cayman with Mom

Grand Cayman Adventure

Click here to read about it and see some photos from the island. We really had a blast last week!

Here’s the journal. I’m trying to get to bed early tonight! Good night!

What Why
Large apple Ate while driving to the gym
Recovery Shake (2% milk, maple syrup, whey protein, cocoa powder) Post-workout drink I drink while stretching
The homemade black bean chili I made yesterday with Brown Rice Popchips Fun lunch. I used the chili as a salsa and ate my lunch with the chips
Popcorn and Raisinettes At the movies with the 8-year-old since he had off school today
Handful of cashews Snack while playing Sorry with the family
Spaghetti squash with homemade sauce, a sausage link, sauteed sugar snap peas and a leftover chicken finger Our pasta nights are always a mish-mash
2 Kashi cookies and a chamomile tea Dessert. Craving something sweet to much on with my tea. I’m a dipper.


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Discussion

There are 14 comments so far.

    Amy Rolniak

    February 18, 2014

    I love my girl for keeping it real for me too. She is the ultimate saboteur :) C’mon Mom, if you REALLY want ice cream you should have some. She is absolutely right.

      RoniNoone

      February 18, 2014

      I do love seeing the world through their eyes!

    Amanda @ Click. The Good News

    February 18, 2014

    Whoot! way to take the marathon plunge- it may be addicting! I did Vegas a few years back & it was a crazy race. At night & on the strip was insane. Love keeping up with all you are doing. Happy training!

      RoniNoone

      February 18, 2014

      I can’t wait!

    Christine

    February 18, 2014

    For me “feeling fat” is a little different than fat talk. When I feel fat, it is usually about bigger things-like being out of my normal routine, that time of the month, I am tired or stressed, no “me” time, etc. I have these funks and I take them out on my body. I try to stay focused on the funk part and not the body, but it is hard. And this is what I am trying to teach my children–that it is not really about fat or my body. To stay focused on feeling. That we all have feelings and sometimes we struggle with just feeling them. I have a girl, so it is a little easier to talk about all this too… It is hard though.
    The other day, my 4 year old son said, that man has a fat belly (right when the man was standing near us), and I just replied, “People come in all shapes and sizes. Mommy has a bigger belly too.” I realized at that moment that my son just sees fat as fat, not as a good or bad thing–I am trying to adopt that attitude, and help him keep the attitude once he learns the societal norm that fat is bad. Again, hard to do…

      RoniNoone

      February 18, 2014

      You’re right.. it is a little different. I want’ berating myself like I used to it was more of an expression to capture my mood than the state of my body.

    LisaM

    February 18, 2014

    Good grief- you just got done with a cruise, of course your body is going to feel and be different for a bit (look at that as a lingering souvenir!) You ate differently and exercised differently, and it’s OK to verbalize that you can tell. Maybe you should search your soul for a different descriptive adjective than “fat” – the one that works for me is “fluffy”. Because you are right to be careful about what your young men hear. Glad you had fun! Has that feeling of still being on the boat gone away by now?

      RoniNoone

      February 18, 2014

      I think my new world will be.. blah. I feel blah. :)

      That being said.. YES! It took about 2 days!

    Mary @ A Merry Life

    February 18, 2014

    I love your kid. I love that he called you out on it though. Kids have an interesting way of seeing reality that we something lose as adults.

    PERFECT WEIGHT

    February 19, 2014

    OMG

    nancyabc

    February 19, 2014

    Smart boy–knows how to tug at his mother’s heart strings!

    Kimberly Louise

    February 24, 2014

    Hi, nice blog Really very interesting post shared above. Awaiting for more
    posts like this.

    Jody R. Goldenfield

    February 24, 2014

    I have a lot of insecurites for sure but when I am with my grandkids, I really work so very hard not to say or show them & let them know they are enough!

    Marilyn

    March 1, 2014

    Kids are so cute.