I don’t know how else to start this post except to say I’ve been feeling like poo.
This is when I’m glad I do blog because if I didn’t it would be awfully easy to just continue down a path of self loathing, eating my way through my depressed feelings and gaining tons of weight in the process.
But I DO blog, so here I am facing all the crappy feelings before it gets out of hand.
And that’s why I think there’s power in the Weekly Weigh In idea even if you don’t share numbers, which I will not be doing because my scale is MIA on purpose.
Even though I had a rough week I still feel like losing the scale is the right decision for me. Given my current state of mind I think any number would just be depressing and I don’t know why.
I just haven’t been myself lately. I’ve been trying, having bursts of energy here and there but overall I’ve been blah. Battling some neck stiffness, a cracked tooth, and a persistent sore throat.
Oh and I’m also perimenopausal. Did I tell you? YAY, fabulous. I had a nice discussion with my doctor a couple of weeks ago and she shed some light on my symptoms.
- Hot flashes, flushes, night sweats and/or cold flashes, clammy feeling
- Irregular heart beat
- Mood swings, sudden tears
- Trouble sleeping through the night (with or without night sweats)
- Irregular periods; shorter, lighter periods; heavier periods, flooding; phantom periods, shorter cycles, longer cycles
- Loss of libido
- Dry vagina
- Crashing fatigue
- Anxiety, feeling ill at ease
- Feelings of dread, apprehension, doom
- Difficulty concentrating, disorientation, mental confusion
- Disturbing memory lapses
- Incontinence, especially upon sneezing, laughing; urge incontinence
- Itchy, crawly skin
- Aching, sore joints, muscles and tendons
- Increased tension in muscles
- Breast tenderness
- Headache change: increase or decrease
- Gastrointestinal distress, indigestion, flatulence, gas pain, nausea
- Sudden bouts of bloat
- Exacerbation of existing conditions
- Increase in allergies
- Weight gain
- Hair loss or thinning, head, pubic, or whole body; increase in facial hair
- Dizziness, vertigo, light-headedness, episodes of loss of balance
- Changes in body odor
- Electric shock sensation under the skin and in the head
- Tingling in the extremities
- Gum problems, increased bleeding
- Burning tongue, burning roof of mouth, bad taste in mouth, change in breath odor
- Osteoporosis (after several years)
- Changes in fingernails: softer, crack or break easier
- Tinnitus: ringing in ears, bells, ‘whooshing,’ buzzing etc.
And I have 23 of them. TWENTY THREE!
This is the only time you will “hear” me say this:
I’m too young for this crap!
That’s right. TOO YOUNG.
According to my doc the average age is 55.
However the No. 1 predictor of when this will happen to you is genetics, and Mom went through menopause before 40 as well.
So…. FUN! Right?
Yesterday I found myself standing at the pantry dipping a Hershey bar from the 8-year-old’s Halloween bag into a jar of peanut butter.
Umm yeah, that was “old Roni’s” way of dealing.
I’m sorry I highjacked today’s weekly weigh in with my whining but I needed to get out of my head so I can move on.
That’s how “new Roni” deals.
How was your week? Cheer me up with all your wonderful news and losses. Please!