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Wednesday Weigh In: Know Yourself

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I decided to hop on the scale this morning after a pretty high weigh in at yesterday’s doctors appointment.

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 According to my GYN’s scale I’m 159 pounds.

Just another reminder that scales are stupid.

Anyway, that’s not what I really want to blog about today. What I need is a shot of motivation to break out of the current funk cycle I’m in.

Ugh. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel like I’m waking up every day and just going through the motions. I’m distracted. Unmotivated. Overwhelmed. I try to keep my food journal only to abandon it by dinner. I say I’m going to go to bed early and then find myself snacking at midnight watching mindless TV. My house is a mess. I haven’t made the 8-year-old’s lunches in over a week. I’m just feeling blah.

I’m in tread water mode until I find my groove again. And I will. I always do.

I’ve learned to cut myself some slack in times like these. In a way I go on autopilot. I do what I can when I can (#wycwyc HA!) and just keep swimming.

OK, enough being Debbie Downer, how was your week! Updates, please! I want to live vicariously through you. :) 



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    LisaM

    October 23, 2013

    Isn’t it amazing how a few clothes and some food and liquid in your system can really swing the scale? That feeling of “crap, maybe I’ve been fooling myself” is the worst! That’s when your home scale becomes your sanity agent, and worth having around even if you don’t use it often. I’m so glad you are able to put yourself on autopilot when the funk sets in. So maybe you aren’t climbing up the mountain right now, but thank goodness you aren’t sliding down it either. My fight lately is not so much the number on the scale, but the dreaded “menopause middle”. All I can say is, keep working out because your future self will thank you for it…

    T in Texas

    October 23, 2013

    I’m in a similar funk and am also just going through the motions ~ your words are my words. I’m having a terrible time getting out of bed in the a.m., I hit the snooze button at least 5 times and then I just draaaaaggggg myself out of bed. I’m chalking it up to the season change and hope that the time change this weekend will break me out of my funk. (since it will be lighter outside in the a.m.) I have exercised each day this week, but yesterday I had the wimpiest workout ever! :-) No vicarious living through me!!!! T in Texas

    Martha Glantz

    October 23, 2013

    You’ve had so much going on in your life lately that it isn’t surprising that you are in a bit of a funk. I don’t know how you do all you do with two children, a husband, a job, all that exercise (another tough mudder last weekend!)…seriously the list goes on! and on!
    I’ve only been reading your blog for a while and I can see that you will pull out of this funk.

    This Wednesday weigh in has been great for me. Still maintaining my weight and feel great. Maybe tell yourself some of the 10 things you tell your friends? I love that list!

    Janice

    October 23, 2013

    I have been in a funk for three weeks. I hit 53 lbs down a few weeks ago and then abandon all sense when it comes to eating well. I think I am panicking because I am the lowest weight I have been in 18 years and I am about 20 lbs from my goal weight. Then my mind starts thinking about maintenance and totally FREAKS out!!! So I eat! I have been getting my workouts in though and just need to get a grip on the binging!!! But I have my plan going strong at least for today and my workouts scheduled for the week. Sometimes autopilot and treading water is what you need to get through. It all starts with the next choice/decision!

    Michelle Dachille Harris

    October 23, 2013

    I feel like I am finally getting working at home into a grove. But now I need to fit in the me time. I need to start tracking food and getting that in order. I have a plan to do some freezer cooking over the next month. I am hoping that if dinner just needs to be popped in the oven, the husband can do it while I go work out, or it will keep me from just ordering take out.

    nancyabc

    October 23, 2013

    Sorry to hear about your week.
    I just had 8 of them and I can say there is light at the end of the tunnel.
    It is 8 weeks after surgery and I survived. Had my second radiation treatment and I survived. I am back to school and I survived–although I am really greatful for Friday–LOL. I went up last week from 275 to 304 but by Saturday weigh-in at WW I was back to 277. This week the lymphademia fluid is way down and I may even show a lose this week but in the end if I keep up good habits I have learned here and other places—–a year from now I will be better off then letting it all go. So I am in a whaahoo mood today! Working on my fifth year and not giving up.
    P.S.—–also looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas break–LOL.

    Michelle in Canada

    October 23, 2013

    Long time reader here so I know with certainty that this too shall pass:) Went on holidays in September for 10 days….did absolutely wonderful…ran or walked by the ocean everyday and ate quite well….come home to a bad cold, no running and too much eating. Now I have 2 whole good days under my belt and am feeling like maybe I can win this battle again! Still not running yet due to my cold but the eating is WAYYYY better:) Chin up, your mojo will be back!

    Brenda

    October 23, 2013

    Hi Roni
    I tried to do what we had discussed last week. I did better with my tracking and sticking to a lower calorie budget but not too low. I kept up with my workouts and I can start to see a difference. In 4 weeks I feel smaller and trimmer. I weighed on mon and I was down just .4 but also I tried on a pair of dress pants that I keep track with weekly and they are fitting better! I chose not to weigh in today because its that time and I didn’t want to get discouraged.

    I think you are having a tough week because there has been so much going on, life is busy and you are human. Its also a hard job to care for tiny humans especially when they are sick. Be kind to your self. Take care of your self and you will be out of this funk in no time.

    Kimberly Anne

    October 23, 2013

    Ugh, weight wise, all is well but I can totally relate to the blah feeling. I just can’t start to motivate myself to do much of anything lately…but like you said, it’s a phase. Next week we can go back to taking over the world. :)

    Sammy D.

    October 23, 2013

    I was feeling the same way. Just stuck and not satisfied with the scale despite other non-scale victories. Yesterday I decided to start what I called the 37 day challenge and got a few of my friends to join. The challenge is between now and Thanksgiving to have no snacks-nothing after dinner. I figure after having a healthy satisifying dinner there is no reason to have anything else. the only reason is habit. I want to break this habit that cost anywhere from 100-? extra calories per night. I made myself a little calendar and this morning I put a star on for yesteday’s date for a successful first day. It is so goofy how something so child like and simple can shake the funk. Today I feel like I accomplished something, when yesteday morning I felt stuck. My “reward” is not that when I get to Thanksgiving I can “pig out”. My “reward” will be that feeling of being strong and in control, which hopefully will carry be through the holidays. Feel free to join. If you started today it would be the 36 day challenge. :-)

    Dawn

    October 23, 2013

    Roni
    You are so inspirational every day for me. I look for you and am so excited to see you’ve posted. I know SO many women who agree with me. Let us hold you this week. Just think of us, cheering you on, and then don’t do it–whatever “it” is–if possible. Don’t do the extra work. Just do the extra relaxing. And thank you for your honesty. We all have weeks like yours!

    Liz

    October 23, 2013

    This is my first week back at WW’s and so far it’s been pretty successful. Now that I’m tracking, I realized how much crap I was eating before this and it’s a bit of a wake up call. I think I save way too many points for the evening so I need to figure out how to balance eating at work. My job gets very stressful around the holidays so I need to get some good plans in action now so when in late November and December, I have some good habits formed!

    Dukebdc

    October 23, 2013

    Feeling better this week. I have been in a long funk too Roni, and am (finally) making the connection that in my case, it’s garbage in, garbage out. When I eat too much junk food, I enjoy the moment. But all the other moments when I am tired and lethargic are directly related to the junk with which I am fueling my body. Maybe I could get away with it when I was younger, but I can’t anymore.

    Again, no public weigh-in for me this week, but I am down 1.8 pounds since last week.

    Imacrazymomof4

    October 23, 2013

    Doesn’t it take a funk to make life interesting? It can’t all be beautiful when we get on the scale because life isn’t like that. Life has ups and downs…it has octoberfest, Halloween candy and fun times that just aren’t about veggies. At least that’s what I tell myself.

    HW: 200+ when pg
    CW: 134.6 (-.6)
    GW: 129
    Age: 44
    Ht: 5’6

    So I’m working off that overage I’ve had for the past few weeks, months? But as I said it keeps me going. Why can’t we just look at maintaining as a way to stay in a healthy range? Why does it have to be goal where a specific number exists? I know that I’ve been having fun and now I need to buckle down and focus a bit. So I’ll continue to do mfp and exercise and live and eventually it will go away because I will be relentless and prevail. Life is good and I’m going to enjoy myself dammit.

    Tiffany Walker

    October 23, 2013

    Well, I’m actually kind of on a roll here myself! I feel like I’ve finally found my weight loss groove after floundering around since mid-August. Finally starting to see the scale move! I will credit the web site DietBet for helping me focus…you place a bet that you can lose 4% of your weight in 4 weeks, and if you succeed you split the pot with everyone else who meets the goal. I REALLY don’t want to lose my $, and I REALLY want to win $…so it helps me say no to mindless munchies. Not that this is helpful to someone who is already at goal!

    But I also found another site today called AchieveMint that pays you $25 once you reach 25,000 points. You earn points by using various apps…MapMyFitness, Facebook, Monitor Your Weight, Foursquare, MyFitnessPal, and a bunch more. Basically, it rewards you for healthy behaviors. As I said, just found it today so I’m still figuring the whole thing out…but it could be useful to someone at goal as well as those trying to lose.

    Maybe you need a new goal to get excited about? A new event to train for, perhaps?

    Cindy

    October 23, 2013

    Well, this has nothing to do with the WWI since I don’t participate. But I wanted to comment on your post event blues. I’ve been reading a long time and this seems to happen to you after every big event. I wonder if there is any way to stave off some of that week long funk. Maybe have some other things planned (not big events, of course!) each day so that you still have something to look forward to and are not going through sort of withdrawal. Although I don’t know if I’d schedule in ‘cleaning the house’ for one of those days! ;) Anyway, I’m sure it will be over soon! Happy Hump Day!

    christine

    October 23, 2013

    I am going to refuse to get weighed in at the docs, especially for routine visits. I mean really. I have my own scale at home. I can relay the info to them. It is one of the many reasons that I do not really go to the docs. I can’t stand the difference between mine and theirs. Wish me luck!

      Martha Glantz

      October 23, 2013

      Stand your ground. For years I refused to get weighed at my annual physical. My doc could see I was overweight. And if you need to be weighed for surgery, they don’t have to tell you. I hate the difference in doctors’ scales!

    SS

    October 23, 2013

    You are in Recovery and Rebuild mode. Use it!

    Sammy @ Peace Love & Ice Cream

    October 23, 2013

    Not every week has to be a hole-in-one, knock-it-out-of-the-park kinda week…sad but true! Just keep swimming is right!! This too shall pass :)
    -Sammy @ www.peaceandloveandicecream.com

    ItsMeVsMe

    October 23, 2013

    Treading water. That is the perfect visual of where I am. Not making horrible choices, but not really making great ones either. I’ve got a mean case of the “I should really…”s

    Verhanika

    October 23, 2013

    Mercury is in retrograde. Plus other cosmic things. Lots of people are in funks right now. Brains are shedding old synapses and creating new ones. Or something like that. Either way you’re mot alone.

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      It’s the pre-holiday blues. :)

    Wendy Loubser

    October 24, 2013

    Awww – you need a big hug!

    I think everyone goes through this and women more often than men because we have such insane hormonal changes. Be kind to you!

    I rejoined Weigh-Less (I live in SA) on Wednesday and have been faithful with my gym appointments. Tomorrow I’m have an official assessment as the gym I got to so we’ll see how that goes. At least I’m getting off my behind and doing something.

    Have a great day – hope you get back on track soon.

    Wendy
    Sassy Style
    Weigh~Less~Wendy

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      Good for you!

    Autumn

    October 24, 2013

    I can relate. I’ve been in a similar state of treading water. I realized the other day that (for me) it means I need to set a new fitness goal… something to work towards because I suck at goal-less maintenance.

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      Yup. It’s time to shake things up!

    Joy

    October 24, 2013

    Roni, I think it’s ok. These phases may be signs that we need to slow down and do less. The body and mind are wise that way. Just relax into it, go slow and be patient with yourself. You are doing SO well.

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      Thanks. :)

    Suzie

    October 24, 2013

    I’m a little late posting but I did weigh in, I usually read on my phone or tablet and it’s nearly impossible to comment from there. Anyway, I had a great week food and activity wise. The weather has finally cooled down and so I have been walking or biking to work (only about 3/4 of a mile). When I walk I take the baby with me and she really enjoys being in the stroller. I feel like I’m the opposite of you, Roni, I am finally in a groove and haven’t had a funk in a bit. I think the weekly weigh in is helping me with that. Anyway, here are the numbers.

    HW: 255
    Last Weigh in: 216.6
    CW: 214.4
    GW: 199ish

    I’m down 2.2 pounds in 2 weeks. I’m averaging about a pound a week and am finally fitting into my prepregnancy dress pants and will be packing up the rest of the maternity clothes over the weekend to pass along to my newly pregnant friend!

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      YAY! I’m happy for you. Nothing beats that “in groove” feeling!

    Christy

    October 25, 2013

    Posting late because I was traveling yesterday:

    Starting weight: 220
    Last week: 213.8
    This week: 212
    Goal weight: 150

    I’m feeling pretty good since I’m losing a few pounds every week. I feel like I could do better if I increased my activities which is another important goal of mine. Not just for weight but also because I’m trying NOT to have knee replacement surgery for my chronic arthritis.
    Roni, I agree with others here, we all hit that funky place and you just need to give yourself some down time. What I liked about your share was that you said you always find your groove again and that’s important. Thanks!

      RoniNoone

      October 25, 2013

      Thank you! And nice job on the loss. You are doing great!

    Lynne

    October 25, 2013

    I don’t weigh myself, BUT – 2 new pairs of jeans and they are both size 6! The last time I bought jeans in this size was when I was in 10th grade and had a pretty unhealthy relationship with food. Last year at this time I was 190 and a size 14… I know APATHY. It is a phase. Fake it until you make it…