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Wednesday Weigh In: The Daily Cycle

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I’m actually writing this portion of the Wednesday Weigh in post on Tuesday because I have some thoughts swimming in my head and I know I’ll lose them tomorrow morning when try I to post really quick before the gym.

Normally I’m an “on the fly” blogger so this feels weird.

Anyway, I’ve been struggling a little. I’m getting caught up in that daily cycle of starting each day off awesomely and then just having it all fall apart by bed time.

I’ll use yesterday as an example.

I made my new smoothie for a quick breakfast after the gym, then pulled together a HUGE cabbage taco salad using leftover taco meat and a half a head of cabbage. It was amazing! As a snack I whipped up a fun daily yogurt using my newest obsession.

Dinner was fish sticks, snow peas, and an experimental quinoa dish that I may end up sharing on GreenLiteBites if I can remember how I made it — I know, weird combo, but fish sticks are a family favorite and quinoa is always hit or miss so it’s my compromise.

Anyway, great day overall and I felt fantastic!

I also felt a little hungry, so I had some Laughing Cow, cucumber and dried cranberries — a favorite of mine.

Then Ryan wanted ice cream, so I had some too. Then The Husband came home from tennis and had Doritos and so did I. Then we had chocolate from the 2-year-old’s day-care fund-raiser. Then I finally said, “UGH, I’m GOING TO BED.” Something I should have 2 done hours earlier.

This has been my pattern every day for the last week.

I’m not beating myself up about it, just honestly expressing the state I’m currently in.

After 8 years of maintaining I can honestly tell you this isn’t the first and it won’t be the last time this type of old habit resurfaces.

I think one of the reasons I’ve been able to maintain for as long as I have is my ability to recognize the pattern and change my approach without letting any type of guilty feelings send me into a tailspin.

OK, just wanted to get that out before I saw the number tomorrow morning. I’m expecting a slight gain with my nighttime eating. Especially the chocolate. Ohh there’s been a LOT of chocolate.

Part of me doesn’t want to even bother getting on the scale tomorrow but I want to be accountable. It is what it is. There’s no walking away. I’m in this for the long haul.

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Well good morning everyone! I hopped on the scale and it showed me exactly what I expected.

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I’m pretty numb to it, to be honest. I still feel amazing! CrossFit kicks my butt every morning during the week and I love it. I feel like I’m getting stronger every day. I haven’t been able to get back to my hot yoga class, just too busy, but as soon as my schedule opens up a bit I’ll be sneak a session in.

In the food department I making good decisions overall. Frankly my issue is more with bed time than anything else. I’m like a child who doesn’t want to be told they need their sleep.

My plan for this week is to put ZERO pressure on myself because I think that’s what triggers the daily cycle. I’m not even going to keep a food journal. My goal is to trust my instincts and go to bed early even if it means missing Nashville with The Husband tonight. (Totally our guilty pleasure. That Juliette is a hot mess! lol)

I hope you had a great week. Looking forward to your updates and sorry for the novel!



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There are 26 comments so far.

    mandi

    May 15, 2013

    Oh I can sooooooo relate to the nighttime eating! I am awful! I do great all day…I work out almost daily, I run, I eat healthy…up until about 8pm….then it starts. It starts out with one or two of this, a bite of that, a handful of those….and before I know it, it is 10pm, I am so totally tired and I am still eating bites of this and handfuls of that. It is ridiculous! I go to bed feeling awful…and stuffed. It is a vicious cycle and one that is very hard to break. I am up a few lbs this morning too..and I know exactly why. Wish I could kick the habit…will sure keep trying! I, like you, am in this for the long haul! Happy Wednesday!

    Imacrazymomof4

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 200+ when pg
    CW: 128.6 (no change)
    GW: 120’s
    HT: 5’6
    Age: 43

    This is my last week being 43. It seems very strange to me that I am 40 anything…I still feel like I’m 29 so I got that going for me. Girl I hear you on the night time snacking…there are just those moments where reasoning is impossible. I know myself if I’m going to throw caution to the wind I try and make a compromise somewhere else…and that usually offsets the act. Like eating something nonprocessed…it’s usually because I didn’t eat enough fruits, veggies or water for the day. But there are just those times when you need to eat ice cream! (Just did the other night and its was amazing)

    Have you ever heard of ‘clandestino’ bars? You need to look them up and find where you can get them around you…they are awesome! I eat one every night for my dessert when I need something chocolaty/sinful. It’s a dehydrated banana covered in milk or dark chocolate…like 119 calories…but tastes like heaven. You really feel like you are indulging on something sinful.

    I sometimes just need to revamp my exercise routine to clear out the cobwebs of the same thing day after day. Way to be accountable!

    Dawn Skorczewski

    May 15, 2013

    Have had a very similar week, and was just trying to figure out the “head strategy” to turn this around. I always find one when I read your posts, Roni, and I appreciate them so much. thanks for putting the spin on this that you did. It makes me feel balanced to remember that a 60 pound loss long ago was long ago and I am in a maintaining zone where there are some challenges….

    christine

    May 15, 2013

    I used to have that feeling all the time about wanting to stay up later. Then one day it clicked. I had this overwhelming feeling that I was more important (and my sleep) than any of the stuff I was watching on TV or reading on my Ipad. I just turned it off and went to bed.

    crazylady

    May 15, 2013

    Down half a lb this week which is fine by me. I’m trying my best to concentrate on small changes this week and trying to go easy on myself about the rest. When go too strict it just backfires big time!!! I’m also working on mindfulness more so in relation to depression but I’m finding it has an impact on so many other things too!

    Sleep is something I’m slowly learning is vital for me to feel good and to feel positive. I guess like you often say it’s non-negotiable or at least I do my best to make it so!

    Eva Allen

    May 15, 2013

    I struggle with late night snacking as well. In my getting fat journey I think that’s where most of my calories came from. Since I’ve been losing weight I’ve kept the habit, I like to eat at the end of the day. I like to eat in front of the tv. And stopping that will send me for a derail eventually. So , every day I have a snack at bedtime. Usually a piece of fruit and a snack pack pudding. Once a week we have a cheat night, usually chips and dip and hubby and I will split a chocolate bar. We have been doing this for the past 19 months and I have lost 89 pounds and am just under 5 pounds to goal. Even with weekly pig outs. It gives me something to look forward to and the pudding (or granola bar, baked goods etc..) fulfills the eat in front of the tv need while still being on plan. Maybe you just need to direct your nighttime eating into a healthier direction instead of curbing it all together? Good luck! Thanks for blogging daily! It’s one of the few I really look forward to!

    Eva@phoenixblaise.blogspot.com

    Sarah

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 246
    CW: 239
    GW: 140
    HT: 5’4
    Age: 29

    Still working on the South Beach diet Phase 1 Week 2. Hoping the losing continues.

    Amy H

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 200+ when pg
    CW: 156
    GW: 145
    HT: 5’6
    Age: 33

    Roni, I love you. I have lost 30 lbs over the past 5 months, and credit you with a huge portion of my motivation. Seriously, your blog is bookmarked as Motivate, I pin recipes from Green Lite Bites and joined learned about Diet Bet from somewhere on your blog. I’ve been inspired to join a gym and go daily to boot camps and other group classes. I even signed up for a Sprint Triathlon for the fall- and you have almost sold me on a Tough Mudder.

    I’ve never joined into the weekly weigh in before, but reading todays post, I realized it is time to start. I have the same night time problem. Chocolate. Man, why is it always chocolate? It’s always a weakness… or any baked goods… and for me – at the risk of sounding like an alcoholic – it is also not joining the husband with a glass (or 2) of wine every night.

    So thank you for everything you do. Your honest portrayal of your weight loss journey and its struggles and successes is motivation for so many people. I love that you are not perfect, but at the same time, you really do inspire me.

    Dukebdc

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 148
    CW: 127.2 (no change)
    GW: 120-125
    HT: 5’2″
    Age: 35

    Well, my goal for the week was to stop the 4-week gain cycle. And I did. Honestly, I was expecting/hoping for a small loss too, but you know what–I accomplished my goal and can focus on this week now. I also did not stop at the convenience store this morning to buy junk food – also breaking a 4-week cycle. I packed my lunch, and that’s what I’ll eat. Cooked a great quick dinner last night–sauteed some mushrooms and spinach with cooking spray, then poured in two beaten eggs. Added salsa, and plopped it in a tortilla.

    nancyabc

    May 15, 2013

    Well Roni I have been doing the same thing. Starts when I get home from school. This weekend was bad because I had to wait until Monday to find out if I had a contract to teach for another year (we get one year contracts and I make myself sick and much heavier each year at this time–ugh) yes I got one but I have not stopped eating. It is 10 here and I have had a cupcake and M&M’s already–super ugh!! I know I can do this and will. I really need to up my walking that would be a good next move.
    Everyone have a great week.
    Oooooops–almost forgot gained 3 pds.

    NatMcC

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 184.6
    CW: 157.6 (up 2)
    GW: 145
    H: 5’7″

    Geez I keep sabotaging myself. I don’t have the nighttime snacking issue, I don’t eat horribly throughout the day but since the Mr has moved to London I have indulged in too many nightcap drinks. UGH. I’ll have a max of three drinks of whatever and I do so to help me sleep…isn’t that stupid!? So I decided I needed to stop cause all my effort in working out was shot to hell when I drank. Monday night instead I decided to take a shower to help sleep and it did help. I did sleep wonderfully so I think that is the new routine. Last night I did cook dinner, a recipe I had been wanting to try, Crockpot pizza pasta…HOLY AUNT PAULA DEEN it was AHHH–MAZING!!! I took it over to a friends house to get me out of the house and be with people and I had only one glass of wine and passed on the dessert. But when I got home…I admit…I forked out a few more bites of the pizza pasta. UGH! This morning I was up on the scale and decided to go for a run! Swear! Me and the puppy went for a short one mile run and it started raining…but you know what?!? I feel if I am going to do the damage and eat badly, I must suffer the consequences…i.e. exercise.

    I love how real and relate-able you are Roni. You are always so open and that helps knowing just because you lost the weight doesn’t mean it’s all roses, candy, and unicorns…it’s a lifestyle…

    Vicky Parnell

    May 15, 2013

    Thanks for keeping it real – I do appreciate your honesty about trying to maintain a weight loss. You really are doing a great job …keep “your eye on the prize…”

    annie

    May 15, 2013

    Hw: 260 (pg)
    CW: 222.4 (+0.2)
    GW: I90
    H: 5’8″
    Age: 36

    ugh, the title of this post is: I guess it isn’t water weight.
    i was sure i was more in the 2I9 range but this week has shown me this is not true
    the in-laws were in town and i have a *very* hard time with them. we are polar opposites politically and they like to talk politics. i was stuffing my face instead of saying what i wanted to. i feel super emotionally hung over
    great breakfast today, great workout, trying to process
    thanks for your lead roni, as always great to hear from you
    i’ll end with a meh, hope you all had a great week

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    May 15, 2013

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    Lisa Hewlett

    May 15, 2013

    My problem time is when i get home from work, before I cook dinner. The last two days, I ate my kitchen. UGH. It’s hard enough to lose weight NORMALLY, much less with that nonsense. We’ll just keep at it!

    Lauren S

    May 15, 2013

    Great I’m in the 120s weight wise but trying to lose those last five (or 6) pounds (like everyone else). The less weight you have the harder it is because it takes so much longer and the changes are small. I’ve found taking pressure off myself helps too. No more beating myself up because I couldn’t squeeze in a workout or ate that cupcake. As long as I consciously try to make healthy choices I’ll be okay. I am ravenous in the AM and at night. snacking is really hard for me at night too.

    Svanhvit

    May 15, 2013

    I am still here. Am in Brussels for work right now so I can’t weigh in, but I am here. And I know what you mean with the evenings. That tends to be the time when everything breaks together for me.But you are doing so awesomely and I would not worry about it. I still would advise picking one night to go to bed at the same time as the kids…….. :)

    LisaM

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 180+
    CW: 155.0 (- 0.5)
    GW: 150
    H: 5’6″
    Age: 52
    Another smidge in the right direction. I’m back to eating well, but even after years of practice, mindful eating works OK for maintaining but not for when I’ve been un-mindfully eating long enough that I need to lose a bit. So, today I weighed in at WW, got the latest version of the materials, and hope to start counting points tomorrow. Hoping that will purge and cleanse me of bad habits I let slip back in. I don’t want it to take till the end of July to get back down to where I want to be!

    Trixie

    May 15, 2013

    HW: 215.5
    CW: 160.6 (-1)
    GW: 155
    H: 5’7″
    Age: 40

    Roni – I’m so with you – night time snacking is my tough time. I did indulge in some night time snacking this week, but tried to keep the choices a little healthier (rice chips instead of regular) – but sometimes you just have to enjoy in moderation. I’m still 5lbs above goal (which I reached, BRIEFLY, in March), but am with you in generally being okay with the fluctuations. Here’s to a good week!

    Sheri J

    May 15, 2013

    HW 305
    CW 249.2(-1.6)
    GW 150
    HT 5’3″
    Age 57
    Woo Hoo! I’m back under 250 which I actually accomplished on my birthday a couple of weeks ago. Then there was the dreaded gain and since I weigh daily (dr’s orders) saw the scale creep up more and more this last week. Well I had to nip that in the bud and was real careful about tracking the last couple of days. Thank goodness it worked. I’m hoping to never see the north side of 250 ever again! I struggle with night time eating too especially when I am waiting for the hubs to get home and he decides to work late so by the time he gets there I am famished! and ready to chew my arm off!

      annie

      May 15, 2013

      i’d like to echo your Woo Hoo! yay

    brenda

    May 15, 2013

    I’m up also and I agree when I put to much stress on myself it backfires. I don’t think that I could trust myself if I didn’t track my calories. I work out about 6 days a week, I’m smaller in size but I’m stuck on the scale, especially when it goes up a pound or two

    Karen P

    May 15, 2013

    HW 187.4
    GW range 113-117
    Current weight 116.8
    5’1
    Age 47
    Maintaining 15+ months.

    Rocking the Healthy Comedian Low Carb challenge this month. Great way to stop the night time snacking habit. Nuts and 85% chocolate are out this month. And, it is a pattern, habit. Feels good to give it up for a while. Good break, good evaluation time. I always learn a lot during challenges.

    Glad you are owning it. That’s the best thing you can do- own it and make a choice of what to do next that is in alignment of short term goals, long term goals and mind/body states.

    Jeri Lyn

    May 16, 2013

    HW: 200
    CW: 134.6 (up .08lbs from last week)
    GW: 125-130
    H: 5’4″
    AGE: 40
    I like you Roni, wasn’t going to weigh in this morning. The scale & I haven’t been friends now for several weeks!! It’s getting VERY frustrating because I feel like i’m doing “mostly” the right things. I’m not perfect, but I still think I should be showing small losses not small gains. The worst part is these small gains make me want to EAT, because I figure “what’s the point”. Overall i’m managing these thoughts, a few too many fries, etc here & there, but overall i’m trying to stay in control. Hopefully the scale will catch up.
    YOU ROCK!! I know how hard it is to not be hard on yourself for extra snacking/calories & starting fresh each morning is GREAT.
    As always, THANKS for all you do!!!

    kelly

    May 16, 2013

    Hey Roni! I love your blog – you have a great sense of humour and outlook on life and dieting. I struggled with weight for ten years until I came across – through trial and error and all different sources – 10 things that made weight and food a complete non issue and it has been that way for 15 years. One thing I found that helped me A LOT was not eating as low fat during the day (as we need fat in our diets anyways). For example, if you had a cookie for a snack along with your yogurt or had the cranberry cucumber snack on a couple of crackers it would keep you feeling full and not like you are depriving yourself. This falls under ‘Principle #3’: www.the10principles.com Congratulations on everything you’ve done including the marathons! That’s awesome!

    Pia

    May 17, 2013

    I get caught up in the same cycle but its the afternoon rather than night time for me. I lurk around the house (I work from home) and end up wanting something. I currently just finished a whole30 so I know I will be fine without that piece of chocolate. What I try to ask my self when the desire for a piece of chocolate or ice cream or whatever it may be is.. is that going to taste any different than the last time you had it? when was the last time you had it? Is it really necessary? is it an occassion such as going to eat gelato with my family or are we just gonna sit in front of the tv and eat it mindlessly? Most of the time I know its just my sugar dragon that wants to be fed so I dont do it. Cant say I always win over that piece of chocolate but it actually feels good to beat the craving when I do. Hope you get out of the funk, happens to all of us!