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Tough Mudder Madness Team St. Louis: Meet Kim

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Kim didn’t win the Tough Mudder Maddness giveaway but she has registered for the St. Louis event and we will be running together!

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Hi – I’m Kim – and that is ME in my tight-as-all-get-out Mudder Training T-shirt. First let me explain…. I was so excited and nauseous to register, I thought – I want a T-SHIRT to train in and one at the finish line… I wanted an extra large – but ordered a large because I thought it would make me slightly uncomfortable to wear a shirt that didn’t have a lot of bag-and-sag to it… well, imagine my surprise when I pulled out this –ahem – LARGE shirt that was more like an extra-small!!! At first I was disappointed – but then, I decided it was PERFECT for my before pictures.

Ok – back to me… I am 45 years old and currently weigh 208 pounds. My “goal” weight is 140ish pounds – which cracks me up because that’s what I weighed when I got married 24 years ago and I thought I was SO overweight then. I know most of you can relate to the battle we fight every day that exists between our ears – but as I gave some thought to this whole Tough Mudder journey and writing a guest post, I was struck by how I have let the numbers on the scale define my daily repetitive, caustic, insane thinking. I remember the first time I stepped on a digital scale when I was 13 years old… I had ripped through puberty – lost my baby fat and developed curves and hips. I went to a friend’s house and she showed me the fancy scale – I couldn’t wait to hop on!!! We were in our bathing suits so I knew my weight would be accurate – and it said 111 pounds. My friend weighed 93 pounds, had no boobs or hips and she gasped at my weight. From that point on – I was fat no matter what the scale said. It has been a mind game ever since – and I was losing the game.

I have spent my entire life since then believing I couldn’t do anything physically challenging because I was fat. I believe that had a direct result on my being afraid to do anything adventurous. My weight consumed my thinking… I let my fearful thinking dictate my every move. I didn’t go to college. I didn’t pursue any particular path that interested me – but I became one heck of a follower!!! I learned I was an excellent encourager, supporter and cheerleader for everyone else – but me.

Don’t get me wrong – I absolutely LOVE my life! I love my hubby and two amazing kids (23 y/o son and 18 y/o daughter). I love my job and the people I work with – and I wouldn’t change a SINGLE thing about my life!
This brings me to now – in a moment of sheer crazy – I entered this contest and am now on a path that is all about ME. If you care to follow along and see my crazy up close – I invite you to follow me @ zerotomudder.tumblr.com

Roni, rather than ask you any questions, I just want to say thank you for putting yourself out there for myself and others to be inspired by – and to relate to. I can’t wait to see you in St. Louis! ;O)

You are so welcome Kim! I can’t express how excited I am by all of this!

I haven’t had time to reach to everyone I’m running with this year, but if you want to also introduce yourself on the blog please send it to me. You are all so inspiring!!



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There are 6 comments so far.

    Dana

    March 11, 2013

    From one Midwesterner to another…..GO KIM! I just checked out your blog. Your food looks yummy. I’ve seen the cauliflower pizza crust recipe many times but didn’t realize it would be so many calories. Hopefully your heel will mend soon!

      Kim Fearn

      March 13, 2013

      Dana- I’ve been having fun with my food! By the way – the crust on that pizza is very low in calories…. The calories I stated were for an entire pizza including toppings…. I had a lot of chicken on there. It could have feed 3 people easily!

    Robin Nicole

    March 12, 2013

    I would love to know what you are doing to prepare. Are you doing the Saturday event? With family up there I may opt to do this Mudder rather than the KY one. Must decide soon so I can get in training mode.

      Kim Fearn

      March 13, 2013

      Nicole – considering I am starting from zero I am doing a couch to 5k to start and also strength training….. I use my fitness pal for my food. I am trying to avoid sugar and use whole foods… High protein, high fiber and healthy fats and carbs. So far I love what I’m eating!

    Ann

    March 13, 2013

    Hi Kim! I’m one of the ladies running the KY Mudder with Roni. So nice to put a face with a name finally! Thank you for sharing your story! It touched me and I know it will touch a lot of others too. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and I have booked marked your blog so I can follow along!

      Kim Fearn

      March 13, 2013

      You are too sweet! Thank you! I’m excited for all of us! I’m looking forward to seeing what I’m made of!!!