Sometimes the universe doesn’t seem so random.
Literally the last day of FitBloggin‘ this quote was in my inbox.
“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I’ve ended up where I needed to be.” -Douglas Adams
It immediately made me smirk. Here I am, 36 years old, raising 2 boys, running my own business, wrapping up my 3rd conference, maintaining a significant weight loss, contemplating running half marathon in a couple weeks on a whim and planning a trip to Florida to complete a second Tough Mudder. I now consciously take chances, try to travel as much as possible, and experience new things regularly.
Sometimes I really wonder who I am and how I got here.
There wasn’t a moment when I just decided to live the life I wanted to live. It happened so slowly, over time, and has been the result of making small decisions and putting myself out there.
That may be over simplifying things. I know many people who make decisions and try and try and try but never get to a point where they feel they are where they need to be.
I used to be like that too. I’d say things like…
When I lose this weight I’m gonna ______________.
Right after I get my degree, that’s when I’ll ______________.
As soon I find a new job I’ll be ______________.
After we buy a house we’ll ______________.
When the kids are older then I’ll start ______________.
Then one day I released realized, I was lying.
Lying to myself.
The things I wanted to do where scary.
They felt unrealistic.
I felt unworthy.
But I just started to do them anyway. No more waiting for the perfect moment, the perfect body, the perfect job, the perfect time.
Ten years ago I’m not sure where I intended to be, but I know, right now, at this very moment I’m exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I’m suppose to be doing.
And that’s the most satisfying feeling in the world.
Even though it scares the crap out of me to say it aloud.