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A Very Detailed and Shocking Wednesday Weigh In

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That’s what the scale read this morning. Down 2.2 on my scale from last week.

However, yesterday I had my Body Composition analyzed at the gym. Once a quarter they offer a Bod Pod test. This is the first time I’ve done it. In a nutshell it told me I was fat.

NOT KIDDING.

Here’s the details:

  • %Fat: 31.7%
  • %Fat Free Mass: 68.3%
  • Fat Mass: 48.768 lbs
  • Fat Free Mass: 105.080 lbs
  • Body Mass: 153.848
  • Body Fat Rating: Excess Fat 30.1-40%

Honestly, I’m speechless. I mean I know I’m not skin and bones but still, I expected to be in the "Moderately Lean" category. I also expected this not to bother me, but it did. I swear I went through the 5 stages of grief.

  1. Denial — At first I thought it must be a mistake. There’s no way I have over 30% Body fat. I workout. I run. I lift weights. I workout 6 days a week for pete’s sake!
  2. Anger — F* you Bod Pod. F* YOU!
  3. Bargaining —I’ll skip all carbs for a few days. Maybe that will help? I know, I won’t eat after 7. I’ll give up ice cream. I’ll up my workouts. I just need to____.
  4. Depression — Why bother. It’s useless. Why do I keep trying? What’s the point?
  5. Acceptance — Whatever! It’s a feakin’ number. Like the scale. Like my size. It is what it is. I’m healthy. I’m strong. I’m happy. I just have to keep doing what I’m doing!

In all seriousness, the number stung. It really did. I know my diet isn’t perfect and frankly, I don’t want it to be. I can’t imagine not sharing ice cream with my boys or making smores after a BBQ or getting popcorn at the movies. I know if I cut these types of things out of my diet completely I could lower the number on the scale and my overall fat percentage, but I’m not willing to give them up right now.

I’ll say what I said to myself when I started this journey 7 years ago… If I’m going to lose weight I need to do it on MY terms. I’m living the lifestyle I want and that is WAY more than half the battle.



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Discussion

There are 44 comments so far.

    Jeanette

    April 25, 2012

    I’m usually a lurker, but wanted to empathize with the lousy results. I’m guessing that they aren’t that accurate, though. I’m pretty sure that most of those type of tests aren’t very accurate. I’m glad you are going to just keep doing what you are doing, because I think you are doing great!

    elaine

    April 25, 2012

    For what it is worth, I think that number is seriously wrong and I question its validity. You can check your body fat with a simple device from GNC. I’ve never seen you but I’ve seen lots of pictures and I seriously doubt you have that body fat percentage.

    Um honey, if YOU are fat…*I* want to be it!!!

    We have Bod Pod tests too and we’ve only had two but I was not pleased with the second one which basically said “you are still a tub o’ goo…please drive thru.” I think like all things in this journey, it’s one of many measures not THE measure. If you’re happy, that is all that matters. The Bod Pod can kiss off. Because YOU…are…GORGEOUS, FIT and STRONG!

    Kat

    April 25, 2012

    Google “bod pod accuracy”. It’s very interesting and highly likely you got an inaccurate reading. You do not look 31% at all.

    Amanda

    April 26, 2012

    Hi, Roni. I thought I’d de-lurk for a minute to share something with you:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAEVSgFZtfo

    This is Dr. Judith Beck (a giant of Cognitive-Behavioral Theory) speaking about “ideal weight” and maintenance. You’re doing a great job, and it might just be that you’re where you need to be. You look great, you have a ton of energy, and you are successfully battling an eating disorder. Don’t let a number take that away from you!

    Amilja

    April 26, 2012

    I would like to say that those measurements are not very reliable. I had 5 different ways to measure my body fat in one day while studing in the university, and they all gave very different numbers. It was confusing and I thought that I would’t care. Actually all the students thought so. It was so confusing and the numbers varied so much.

    ana Myre

    April 26, 2012

    I saw the video of the mudd training and if fat is looking like you do in that video, boy do I want to be like you!!!
    You look amazing!!! dont let the number bother you!!! A lot of women would love to be a mother of two and look like you do!!! Keep up the good work!!! by you doing that it keeps us going!!!

    karen F

    April 26, 2012

    We just have to stop letting numbers define us and start letting our lives define us.

    Its a constant battle, but I keep telling myself 10 years from now the love is all Ill remember, not my marathon time, pants size or waist circumfrence.

    Amilja

    April 26, 2012

    Sorry, I comment again. Did the machine told you what are normal or lean fat percentages ? According the reviews I have the normal fat% for women age 18-39 is 21.0.0-32.9 %. Under 21 % fat is low fat %. I don´t see why we should be in low category. So according to that your percentage is normal ! I think that is great. But still, I don´t trust a lot those machines.

    Georgia

    April 26, 2012

    Officially avoiding the bod pod.

    Edna

    April 26, 2012

    Roni!! Please don’t beat yourself up over the Bod Pod numbers. They are nothing but numbers. No big deal. They don’t control you, you are in control. You have so much else going on for you. You are in control of your destiny. You have a loving husband, two handsome young sons, training for the mudder, run in marathons, always doing things to improve yourself. Continue to do what you are doing and don’t give another thought to those numbers. Your hard work and sweat equity is your big payoff.

    Barb

    April 26, 2012

    Whoa, been there (except for the working out six days a week part) and done that (except I got the CT scan type measurement). I was depressed for 3 months and it still brings back feelings of hopelessness. I had mine done at my closest-to-goal-weight-as-an-adult and it was 36%!!! And I was doing spinning and 20-mile bike rides!!! Probably not going to do it again. And now I’m 20+ pounds heavier, it’s probably >75%…

    Brenda

    April 26, 2012

    You are doing an amazing job. You have truly turned your relationship with food and exercise around and in turn are an awesome example for your children! (which is why you began this process in first place)
    So you my dear have already won! Despite what some stupid number has to say. You are a beautiful, healthy and enough :)

    I know sometimes easier said than done, because we want some validation for all the work we put in, but don’t let that get to you. That would be the old you and revert to your old ways.
    Keep doing what you do, you are awesome

    Ashley

    April 26, 2012

    The test Barb is talking about it one of the most accurate (if we are thinking of the same thing). Its actually a bone density type scan. Goes into complete detail and color coded picture of your leanest parts in body and all of your body composition #s.. its about 5 pages long. I work at an imaging center and my fiance got it done there a couple years ago it was spot on. If you are interested you can maybe look it up a little and ask your doctor about it and he could order it for you.

    Tara

    April 26, 2012

    I think those things lie. For reals.

    AmandaRunz

    April 26, 2012

    I am the same way! I could EASILY be 120lbs with the way I work out, but I like to eat and I don’t want to feel like I HAVE to turn down a beer with friends or a piece of cake at a party for fear I’ll gain .6lbs. I want to ENJOY life. So I just keep doing what I’m doing because clearly, IT’S WORKING!

    You are amazing! And the fact that you DGAF, is freeing and will help you kick more ass! You’ve done this. You’ve got this!

    I never ever would have guessed those numbers. That is nuts! That makes me really curious to know where I would stand but now I am way too put off to do it! Ha! I think I am going to stick with the ignorance is bliss approach.

    So long as your are living a healthy lifestyle those stupid numbers don’t matter. Keep you’re head up. I think you’re doing great!

    Jaki (Slim Down U)

    April 26, 2012

    I love this post so much! I know the reason I have had so much success this time is because I am doing it my way. Keep on doing it your way and enjoying life! :)

    Jenn@slim-shoppin

    April 26, 2012

    Great attitude Roni!!!

    Shalawn

    April 26, 2012

    Losing weight on your terms; I love it. Keep up the great attitude and screw the Bod Pod.

    Molly

    April 26, 2012

    Wow, I am speechless as well. You are in no way shape or form fat, Roni. I definitely think BMI messes with people a lot and I really don’t think it’s accurate. If you are exercising and eating right and are healthy but you’re still considered fat, that’s not right. You are an inspiration to many of us trying to enjoy food and exercise while on the weight loss journey and I think you’re doing a hell of a job! Keep your head up, mama!

    tj

    April 26, 2012

    wow…remind me never to take that same test. lol you look great Roni…who needs numbers like that to bring us down. move on!! :)

    Noelle

    April 26, 2012

    21-33% body fat is considered normal for average women. You’re fine no matter what a machine says of course, but you happen to also fall in the range of healthy and normal.

    http://www.builtlean.com/2010/08/03/ideal-body-fat-percentage-chart/

    Jessica

    April 26, 2012

    Oh, Roni. I totally don’t think it is accurate. I frequent the message boards in the women section on bodybuilding.com Those ladies are able to look at a picture and tell someone’s body fat percentage. I lurk enough and have seen enough pictures to doubt highly that your reading was accurate. I know the Bod Pod is supposed to be accurate, but I have my serious doubts.
    Either way, I think you look rocking hot and you are my inspiration! My starting weight is close to yours was, and I am now at 169 pounds. Just yesterday I was looking through your progress pictures thinking “If I can look as good as Roni…” So keep doing what you do, because YOU ROCK!

    Agnes

    April 26, 2012

    You I think that test must be nuts! Or else the stupid guidelines of who’s fat and who’s not are off. You rock and look great too. One day I hope to be there too. Keep motivating us and tell Bod Pod to f* off!

    LisaT

    April 26, 2012

    I am a long time lurker -omgosh when you said 5 stages of grief I laughed so hard -you are wonderful- bless your soul.

    Kristi

    April 26, 2012

    I agree with everyone else’s comments. Once again, thank you for being real and sharing with us. I’ve never thought about the 5 stages of grief when it comes to this journey, yet so very very true! I will also add that, as you know, you are an inspiration to so many – and while everyone has their own journey – you have a host of followers who look up to you. Another thing that resonated with me today is the fact that it is “your” journey, you’ve made it a lifestyle – very much my goal! You eat well (feed your family well) and take REALLY good care of yourself… the “treats” make it life. You are happy and healthy – and gosh darn it – people like you!!! :0) Have a fabulous day!

    Andrea

    April 26, 2012

    at the risk of sounding totally all “I told ya so…” (I can’t help it, I’ve been a big sister almost my entire life!) Please go back and look at what you said you were going to do with those numbers before you did the test. You never once said that you were going to use them to show yourself and the world that you are fit and fantastic. You also didn’t say that you’d use them to beat yourself up. They are data points. Use them as such!

    Sandrelle

    April 26, 2012

    Coming out of lurking to say I did the EXACT same thing. I feel the same way too–you have to do it on your terms and how it all fits into your life. You go girl! Blogged about it here: http://www.maintainmyweight.blogspot.com/2009/11/sliding-scale-part-3-body-composition.html

    Thea @ It's Me Vs. Me

    April 26, 2012

    I’m glad you moved to acceptance so quickly. It’s all just numbers.

    Ari @ Ari's Menu

    April 26, 2012

    Those charts are ridiculous!! I had a trainer at the gym look at mine once and tell me I was morbidly obese when I wore I size 10. I seriously despise charts and numbers like that because a lot of times the calculators aren’t even accurate, and if you’re someone who has a naturally slightly bigger build, they always tell you you’re overweight, no matter how healthy you are! Sorry, those things make me so angry. You are clearly healthy, muscular and in great shape. Charts are dumb!

    Kathy

    April 26, 2012

    Wow, I have been berating myself for putting off getting my own testing done….now I’m glad I didn’t get the body fat tests done!

    I’ve read that you should have blood tests once a quarter and that gives a far more accurate assessment of your health. (I’m referring to someone who eats a healthy diet and works out regularly) I think maybe I will go that route.

    Mrs. @ Success Along the Weigh made me literally lol with her “you are still a big tub of goo, please drive thru” comment! Hysterical!

    Kathy

    Tina

    April 26, 2012

    I laughed out loud when I read “F* you Bod Pod. F* YOU!” I lash out at my jeans and tops that don’t fit all the time. You are right. If you cut out carbs and sugar (they’re the same things I guess)then you will lose weight faster and be more lean. However, you are absolutely right.. you need to LIVE and enjoy LIFE. An ice cream here and popcorn there is all part of the “event” with your family – keep having fun and continuing your healthy journey. You’ll get there. Hopefully we ALL get there!

    Alison

    April 26, 2012

    If done correctly the Bod Pod is very accurate… but so what? Having 30% body fat is not a big deal, and it doesn’t mean you’re unhealthy. Being lean is not the same as being healthy, just as being overweight is not the same as being unhealthy.

    Rae

    April 26, 2012

    I’m also a long-time lurker and a huge fan! My 14-year old daughter had her body fat measured a couple of weeks ago. It was 19.5%. She is 6 feet tall and wears size 4 jeans. I don’t know what she weighs, probably around 150. She swims 2.5 to 4 hours a day, 6 days a week. I guess my point is, even someone that young and active still measures at almost 20% body fat. So, 30% for a woman your age, height, weight and fitness level seems like not so unreasonable. What is unreasonable to me is that the test results categorized it as fat!! Ridiculous. And, I wonder what the margin of error is on those machines?

    RG

    April 26, 2012

    I’m sorry, that sucks. I looked into those bod pods a few years ago and I think it cost $100 for one reading. I’d rather use a cheaper method like calipers because what I care about is how that number changes with time and in comparison to my lowest/ leanest weights. I can’t place it, but I remember that bod pod readings seemed to give 5% higher than caliper readings because they included all the muscular fat between organs and stuff. Maybe you’re carrying more of that internal/ healthy fat as a new mother?

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    April 26, 2012

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    Lorri

    April 26, 2012

    Note to self – stay away from free Bod Pod test. Your true test should be the pictures you see of yourself – hard physical visual evidence. Take the picture that haunts you the most and put it next to one of you today – that will be your true test.

    Laura

    April 26, 2012

    It’s not the numbers but how the clothes fit & how you feel inside, right?

    With that said, I am of the philosophy that if I am going to lose weight, it will be on my terms too. I don’t think I can lose weight any other way.

    Lori

    April 27, 2012

    You. Are. BEAUTIFUL.

    Charlie Hills

    April 27, 2012

    Just remember, when life hands you pain, make paincakes.

    (Somebody told me that once, and it still cracks me up.)

    I’ve also been fascinated for years how the five stages of grief can apply to pretty much any and every situation.

    Emily

    April 27, 2012

    You are absolutely not fat, but instead fit and strong and wonderful and inspirational.

    Thanks for all the inspiration, Roni.

    Nicole

    April 30, 2012

    I wouldn’t worry about the number Roni!As long as you continue to add more weight when you lift and continue to challenge yourself with things like Tough Mudder, you will continue to get fitter and healthier!

    Gilberto Gaulding

    May 1, 2012

    I learned something here today. Never heard of body composition analysis before. Gym I go to is pretty low standard. I pay around $15/month. Should totally get myself assessed. Thanks!