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Sometimes You Cut Your Losses and Pop Some Popcorn

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Today is one of those days I could just eat for the sake of eating. I’m a bottomless pit. Nothing is satisfying my non-hunger. Nothing.

But I committed to food journal until Christmas and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. The good, the bad and the ugly.

The day started with a simple pear. It was the only thing I could grab while feeding a baby and shuffling a 1st grader off to school.

Once he was on the bus I took a minute to eat something more substantial. Leftover veggie eggs from yesterday.

After volunteering at School and before heading out to run errands I had a bowl of homemade turkey soup. It was too early for lunch but I didn’t want to be tempted to hit a fast food place while out.

When I got home I had a real lunch. The leftover Roasted Brussels Sprouts from Thanksgiving…

and the leftover turkey quesadilla from yesterday.

By late afternoon I was hunting for a snack and that’s when I saw them.

Darn truffles in my pantry. I had 2.

Then I sat and took too many pictures of the Baby. (Click here for a crawling photo journal)

Dinner was "Roni’s Turkey Surprise"

Basically the end of the leftover turkey with gravy, a can of corn, mixed with egg noodles. The boys loved it!

After dinner the snack attack was already starting. I decided to have a some hot chocolate and I couldn’t resist adding a splash of Irish Cream. My new obsession.

As I was sipping the hot cocoa an evil thought popped into my head. How much better would this be with a cookie or two? Then I remembered the Mother-in-Law brought these for Thanksgiving.

DO NOT BUY THEM.

I kid, but they are super good. Very reminiscent of a fudge stripe cookie and you know how I feel about them.

At this point the flood gates were open. I ate 6.

Then I returned to the pantry and knocked off the last 3 truffles. ugh.

EVEN with a chocolate overload tummy ache I STILL WANTED TO EAT!

Why? Why? WHY?

I don’t know and I don’t feel like psychoanalyzing myself. It is what it is. These things happen. Sometimes you cut your losses and pop some popcorn

And that’s exactly what I did.



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There are 31 comments so far.

    Adara

    November 29, 2011

    And that is sometimes just the way it goes!

    Amanda

    November 29, 2011

    Its glad to know we all have days like this. I’m just starting off again on my weight loss road…I was wanting to know how hard it was for you to start when u did start way back when????

    lisa

    November 29, 2011

    “I don’t know and I don’t feel like psychoanalyzing myself. It is what it is. These things happen. Sometimes you cut your losses and pop some popcorn”

    i love this. SO TRUE. whether we are trying to lose weight or not, sometimes this just HAPPENS. if you don’t let it affect your emotions, you won’t even remember that it happened a couple days after. and the chances of it actually affecting your weight are….basically none.
    i’m guilty of freaking out about days/nights like this and feeling like a failure. i think about how badly i want to lose these last 10 pounds and how that isn’t going to make it happen any faster. but in the grand scheme of things…who really cares?

    Joplin

    November 29, 2011

    I feelthe same a week before my periods, which is happening now. I crave for fatty, fried,carb loaded stuff. I give in a lot and like you said, do not analyze too much. Now let me go and grab that pizza!:)

    Teresa Langley

    November 29, 2011

    I hate the “out of control” feeling!!!

    Tina

    November 29, 2011

    Roni, I had the exact same day as you yesterday. I know how frustrating it can get.

    I’m wondering are you still counting points?

    There are those occasional days where it feels like every food is calling your name. Yesterday there was a symphony calling from the candy corn and sweet tart holiday gummies bags. Thankfully I put them in a plastic bag and ran them down to the basement. Weird how those times pop up but I bet it’s way better than it was in the past!

    Nicole

    November 29, 2011

    My day was just like your yesterday. And the truth is I think that if we manage to only fall off the wagon once in a awhile we are doing good.

    KarenJ

    November 29, 2011

    I used to have the same issue, but in time with patience and kindness toward myself, I was able to overcome the overeating completely. It is definitely possible to stop eating compulsively. You just have to get back to “normal” eating as soon as possible. We’re only human.

    mel

    November 29, 2011

    I follow a site called metabolic effect, and get sooo much useful information from them. As someone who felt like i already knew it all.. i get bits of great info. daily through likeing them on facebook. One of the biggest concepts is that you really can’t rely on willpower alone. You have to realize that hunger stems from hormonal inbalances, and foods that you consume that act like trigger food for hunger even if they might be a healthy, weight loss food for someone else. You need to be your own detective and take note on what you eat that actually satisfys you and what creates the urge for more food and binges. It’s really not just about calories, but how we each individually react to the foods we eat, and how they effect our energy levels and food cravings. I also found through the bits of info i get daily from them that i benefit from taking a supplement called L-Tyrosine. It’s an amino acid and really has been helping me stay focused, and have less sugar cravings. Anyway, just thought i would pass on this great site to you. It’s not a diet plan, it’s just useful information on a healthy lifestyle.

    Jenn@slim-shoppin

    November 29, 2011

    I didn’t even know those Ritz crackers even existed!!! I can’t buy those or else I would eat the whole thing!

    Just chalk it up to a more than what you anticipated eatingwise and move on – it’s a new day today!

    Great turkey dishes! I made turkey soup too!

    Lisa Jimas

    November 29, 2011

    Thank you. In the past I have always beaten myself up for an over indulgent day. I am working on that progress. Seeing your journal reminds me that sometimes its what we need and don’t beat yourself up. Thank you for all your positive re-inforcements. Its’ nice knowing that this battle is not one to fight alone. Other people feel the same way. Have a good day!

    Karen

    November 29, 2011

    But what helps is admitting it and writing it all out. We’ve all had those days and the best thing you can do is to just not beat yourself up and move on. Thanks for always sharing, Roni. It means a lot to know someone else goes through these things too.

    LG

    November 29, 2011

    Thanks for your honesty! I have those days too…

    Caron

    November 29, 2011

    You stopped at six of those wonderful sounding crackers! Well, I’m totally impressed because once I start there’s no end until the crackers are gone. No crackers in my house by the way.

    I’m well past the time of my life when I had periods but I still remember those times when I could eat twice as much as my husband ate and still want more. I remember going to a Mexican restaurant and loading up on cheese enchiladas and on the way home I asked my husband to stop at McDonald’s and get me a cheeseburger. To his credit, he never even asked why but just went through the drive thru and handed me the cheeseburger which I wolfed down. I still don’t understand it.

    Kris

    November 29, 2011

    I completely feel you. It’s like something pulls you in towards that pantry and you see whatever goody is in there…and bam! You just have to have one..two…or five.

    These once in a while splurges are completely fine (I think :). Over time, when I ate bad for one day…I actually craved eating healthy the next. :)

    I attribute it to the 80/20 principle. 80% of the time I’ll eat healthy, the other 20%, I’ll eat to my heart’s desire. :)

    Patty at A Day in My NYC

    November 29, 2011

    Loved looking at the food pics! Great way to stay on track :)

    paula allen

    November 29, 2011

    thanks for the honesty… i got too tired and too hungry yesterday which is a bad combination! potatoe chips and chicken for dinner… And my sons left over burrito to finish the day off! so happy we get a chance today to begin anew! we are all in this together!

    roni

    November 29, 2011

    Caron – THANKFULLY There was only 6 left! LOL

    Amber

    November 29, 2011

    The expression “the floodgates were open” is so appropriate. Exactly how it feels when I’m stuffing my face for no reason. Good to know we’re not alone and keep on truckin…

    Barbara

    November 29, 2011

    I think we all feel like that once in a while.
    My trouble is I can’t stop and it could go on for a few days.
    tell me how do I stop this endless eating?

    Lori

    November 29, 2011

    There’s always tomorrow…

    Julie

    November 29, 2011

    Don’t be hard on yourself! It’s OK to let go once in awhile and keep doing the best you can. I refuse to look back at life thinking that’s all I did was worry about what was going into my mouth every day.

    Cheryl

    November 29, 2011

    Roni, not to get personal, but is it getting close to you time of them month? I have that sweet & salty craving a day or two before my cycle every month and I swear it can take me over the edge. I have found drinking some green tea, increasing my water intake and a extra serving of dairy (usually a flavored Chobani yogurt) helps with controlling the cravings
    .

    Lori McHugh

    November 29, 2011

    As the song goes, “Mama said there’d be days like this, There’d be days like this, Mama said…”
    Here’s my haiku:

    Cookies are calling,
    On to ice cream and candy,
    Why, oh why, oh why?

    Instead of beating myself up about the “periods of temporary insanity,” I forgive myself, drink lots of water (binges make me thirsty), and just continue doing the RIGHT things for my body.

    ashley

    November 29, 2011

    your honesty is SO refreshing. love it

    julie

    November 29, 2011

    PMS? When I feel driven to eat, that’s usually what it is. I, too, turn to popcorn, and fruit, try to skip cheese, chocolate, bread. Maybe a chocolate almond, not more. Cut my losses, continue on.

    Kayla

    November 30, 2011

    Roni, you have motivated me to start my food journal up again. I want to be accountable so therefore until christmas, I will plan on commenting on what I ate everyday, the good, bad, and the ugly!

    Eileen

    November 30, 2011

    oh man…those chocolate covered Ritz look like a nightmare to me. I used to be able to finish off an entire tube of those things in one sitting. Now…they go stale in my pantry because I limit myself to one serving. It amazes me how much better my eating has gotten and yet…my weight, while going up and down is the exact same as it was 10 years ago. Oh well! It’s not higher!
    Btw…it sounds like yesterday would have been an excellent time to go work out!

    Jama

    December 5, 2011

    Thank you for this post! Its exactly what I needed after my hershey kiss/marshmallow/sour cream & onion chip binge from last night. I’m just getting over it and moving on! No regrets! Thanks Roni for your FANTASTIC blog :)

    Jessica

    January 4, 2012

    Yeah, I’m late to this party. Just getting caught up, post-baby, but I had to share…My Grandma used to make the chocolate covered Ritz crackers. Mint chocolate. I had NO idea that they were available “Over the Counter”! ( I always thought it was odd to use a CRACKER for a sweet, but since they tasted like Thin Mints, I was not one to question! lol)