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What’s the Alternative?

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This question of the week is more reflective and rhetorical, but feel
free to answer in the comments.

Today was weigh-in day.

I gained.

A lot.

Up 2.4 pounds. Pretty much what I lost over the last 5 weeks.

Was I mad? Yes.

Disappointed? You bet.

I’ve been trying REAL hard not to focus on it. All I can do is to keep
moving forward. There is no turning back. I’m not giving up because
I’m mad at the scale. That would pretty much GUARANTEE I won’t reach
my goals.

Instead, I push on. This is what I like to call the "faith phase" of
weight loss. You have to trust that what you are doing will work. You
have to look past the scale, ignore the number, and just keep
trucking. Because really, what’s the alternative?

Here’s today’s food journal and I updated my weight progress page.

Food Notes
Uncle Sam with almonds, strawberries and almond milk It was a cereal type of morning. :)
Strawberries with yogurt I can’t get enough of berries!!
Field Greens salad with feta, blueberries and pecans. Had 2-3 bites of th bread that game with it as well. I had a lunch meeting at a resturant. LOVED this salad. Great combo!
Cherry Pie Lara Bar Got hungry. The salad didn’t stay with me.
Carrot Sticks and lots of them Pulled them out for the Little Guys lunch and just couldn’t stop munching them!
15 Minute Red Beans and Rice It was just Little Guy and I for dinnet so I whipped this up. He loved it again. :)
Banana Soft Serve with added blueberries FABULOUS after workout treat!
Activity
3 miles run and strength training! Met my trainig goals!!Click here to see the chart of my run.
Water/Vitamins
Did great today! Got my vatimins with the banan softserve.


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Discussion

There are 38 comments so far.

    Amanda

    July 7, 2011

    Boo! On the scale. As long as you feel good and know you gave it a solid effort, that scale doesn’t know any different! Good for you on your training goals too! You’re going to kick some serious arse this half!

    Katherine

    July 7, 2011

    I understand. I am at a point where I gain, I lose, I gain, I lose, I gain again… It’s hard to trust what you are doing is going to pay off, but I would rather spend the rest of my life saying I tried my hardest, than just giving up on myself. I wish you the best of luck! :)

    Deb - comfycozycrazy

    July 7, 2011

    I know where you are. I’m there. Been there for too long. But I also know exactly what you mean. There is no alternative. There is no giving up. There is no turning back. This is it. We deal with the ups and downs, all of them. And we keep on going. That’s why they call it a “lifestyle” right?
    On a side note, you know that all that extra activity could be causing a small gain. Happens to me every time I start upping my activity. Which pisses me off every. single. time. But, what’s the alternative?

    You’re doing great. Keep on, mama!

    Sabrina

    July 7, 2011

    Roni…I’m so where you are right now. With my first 5.5 years ago I lost from the moment he was conceived I swear. I got to my lowest breastfeeding him. I kept that off for quite awhile but it slowly (40 lbs of the initial 140 loss) crept back on. When I got prego with #2 it was totally different. With #1 I could have run marathons…with #2 I couldn’t get off the couch. With #1 I gained 25 lbs…#2 I gained 75 lbs…I’ve lost 30 so far but the scale isn’t moving!!! I’m moving and trying to eat right, but there that number sits looking at me…I try to stay focused and positive…because I only gained back half of my initial loss…but STILL!!! ugh…I wish you the best of luck and I’m hoping the exercise bug and healthier eating bug bites me again soon :(

    Nicole

    July 7, 2011

    Honestly, when I look at your food journals, I think to myself “Man, that girl doesn’t seem to eat very much.” I wonder how many calories you are getting in a day? Also, if you are nursing, I wonder if you aren’t eating enough calories? I did a weight loss challenge here at home recently and I gained 3 pounds after I did all that I could to keep track of everything I ate. My ‘coach’ told me to up my calories by 300 a day. I thought “Are you nuts!” I did it anyways. Low and behold, the next week, I had lost 4 pounds. I know you have been losing weight since 2005 and you know how to do this but sometimes our bodies change after having babies. Sometimes our bodies to weird things despite all our methods and tracking. Maybe you just need a revamp of your calories? Or, maybe the scale just sucks. Personally, that scale makes me feel bad about myself. The scale takes all my efforts for the week and can crush all my ‘good’ feeling in an instant. Sometimes I want to take all the scales in the world an throw them out the window. I HATE the scale on weeks when I gain and LOVE it when I lose. Why do we let this one little object rule how we feel about ourselves? I have no answer for that…but for me, I know it does. You eat healthy, you are active and you look great, focus on that…if only it were that easy right?

    shandy (@webgals)

    July 8, 2011

    I tend to agree with Nicole. I’m sure you know that you need to eat to lose, but considering the running/working out and nourishing Little Bean, you might just actually need MORE food. Regardless…you are awesome. I love your honesty and transparency on these posts. You show the real day-t0-day life.

    Sheri J

    July 8, 2011

    I know you will not let this get you down! Like Deb said, your increased activity is probably the culprit because of the water retention needed for muscle repair. Just watch… you will be down next week and I KNOW you will meet your goal!!!!

    Just FYI I have learned so much from reading your blogs and watching your videos. You are SUCH an inspiration to me Roni in that some of the challenges and obstacles you face with your DH are similar to mine and I love your no excuses attitude. I have a over 100 to lose but I think I can finally do it at age 55 because of the tools, resources, encouragement, and inspiration that I get from your sites.

    Lexy

    July 8, 2011

    i agree with eating more on the days you work out. i can’t remember if you are following any form of points right now… but on the days i don’t work out… i try to stick to my target points… and on the days i DO work out…. i eat those extra activity points earned. i usually don’t touch the extra 49 weekly allowance… maybe try something similar to that?

    Amanda

    July 8, 2011

    Katherine – I love this line…”but I would rather spend the rest of my life saying I tried my hardest, than just giving up on myself.”

    Such a great reminder and affirmation of Roni’s question “What is the alternative?” Great discussion here, thanks!

    Brandi

    July 8, 2011

    I agree with Nicole too. I know you don’t follow the new WW plan, but it doesn’t seem like you eat enough calories. Would it help to go back the last couple days and possibly track the calories and then the calories burned through your daily exercise and see if you are getting enough calories? Or do you like you are doing and have faith and give it another week. Maybe it isn’t necessary to do anything different!

    Nicole

    July 8, 2011

    I agreewith Nicole too – When I was in my 20’s I was successfully able to lose pounds by just eating lot less. But after kids my body changed and it took me a while to realise that I now tend to lose weight if I eat at my recomended calories(rather than below) – I have to admit I was not excercising or running up until 6 months post-partum .. yet I lost weight like crazy eating a LOT… breastfeeding burns calories – but then again it really depends on induvidual – with my first baby breastfeeding dint do much for my weight and I stuck on to the 10 pounds up until I weaned.

    Lsmith

    July 8, 2011

    While I agree you must eat to lose, sometimes our bodies retain water. I’m OCD when it comes to exercise (still follow the old Momentum plan) and earn 60+ APs weekly. I might eat half of those, along with my dailies/weeklies. Often when our muscle fibers are torn down and go into repair mode (as normal when working out), they retain water. I have been discouraged losing tiny bits, going up a pound, down a pound recently. I took 2 days off from working out and lost 2.3 lbs??!! Hmmm….water games are fun. Just stick with it and don’t obsess over the # on the scale. Try sparkpeople to do a food analysis of what you eat. It looks overwhelming at first, but it’s fairly good for breaking down what you eat. Keep up the efforts and it WILL pay off (you know this!). :)

    Jennifer

    July 8, 2011

    Oh Roni, that sucks. I started running in March of this year and I am now up about 7 pounds. I’d love to say it’s muscle, but it isn’t, it is eating crap food in the evenings. I know that you have been through this journey before, we all go up and down. Just know you aren’t alone.

    Dawn

    July 8, 2011

    Good for you with pushing through it. The scale canbe mean but the truth is it does not lie. All was can do is work to make the next week, day or meal better.

    Jen

    July 8, 2011

    You have to remember that you have started working out and running again. Whenever I do that, the scale goes up too. You are building muscle back up and muscle is heavier than fat! :)

    Patty

    July 8, 2011

    You helped me out the other day with your support, so much that I realized the only way I’ll truly fail is if I give up. You already have that attitude going for you and thankfully you share it with us. Thanks for keeping it real.

    mel

    July 8, 2011

    Personally, I am finding that at 41 what used to work for me to be very fit is not quite cutting it. I run 6-8 miles every morning and eat salads for both lunch/dinner(in the summer)… green smoothie shake for breakfast. I think when your not noticing change, you need to keep tweaking … if you are doing the same thing and not seeing the results you want i think you need to keep investigating what you can change. I burn a lot of calories daily, but i have found for me that my weight is most effected by my diet and how much i am eating. For me, i have to watch my intake of foods with even natural sugars in them, and keep them with in reason. I was eating a lara bar daily, since i like that they are all natural, but they are pretty dense and high in sugar, and i noticed a difference when i stopped eating them every day. Everyone is different, and i know for me, i need to tweak like that… I do agree with some of the comments above, that your increase in activity may be related to your weight gain.. i would concentrate on your fitness goals, and see what the scale does next week.

    Mehgann

    July 8, 2011

    I totally know how you feel. I hate when people who can’t possibly know how I feel say that, but as someone who last year lost 40 lbs, gained it all back, and now can’t seem to lose 5 without it immediately coming back, I can totally empathize with you. It’s certainly hard not to focus on it, but tomorrow really is a new day, and if there’s one thing your blog has taught me, it’s that you don’t need to be the weight you want to be to have fun and be happy. The number on the scale just doesn’t mean as much as we think it does. Stick with it. You’ll get there!

    Tara

    July 8, 2011

    This is such a great post for me to read! I have been gaining and losing the same 5 lbs ( the very first 5 out of my 35 lbs I want to lose) And to know that you just don’t do it perfectly, and that other people, successful in weightloss still battle this, is encouraging! And I just need to remember to just keep at it! :)

    Erin Reardon

    July 8, 2011

    First of all thank you for your Blog … i go to it for guidance daily … I was in a challenge on WW community page … we had 5 weeks to lose before the 4th … I did great the first 3 wks … lost 4.5 … then I started letting small thins slip in … still eating well but not awesome … then I gained it back and then some … I let it spiral … with our 5th Anniversary visit to Melting Pot and 4th of July drinks and food …

    The Alternative is to feel yukky out of control and bloated or … to keep going and feel in control, clean and slim … I really do feel better when I eat better …

    You can do it!

    Julie

    July 8, 2011

    Roni: I have to echo Erin Reardon’s comment. . .”First of all thank you for your Blog. . .I go to it for guidance daily. . .” I have been checking in for so many years and you are a daily inspiration. Mentally, I am exactly where you are today. . .What is the alternative? No matter what the scale tells me daily or weekly, the other alternative is, if we choose not to follow the WW program, is to gain which ultimately causes too much heartache; at least for me. Thank you for the inspiration you give to me each day!

    Tina

    July 8, 2011

    *HIGH FIVE* for going to weigh-in! It’s way too easy to skip all together which leads to more bad habits . I’m going in Saturday morning for my weigh-in and even though I’ve been counting points all week (but slacking on exercise) I know there will be a gain… thanks to a certain *visitor* (sorry people if that’s TMI). So I guess we just have to get excited about the NEXT weigh in and have faith that number will go down. I know you’ve stopped writing down the actual numbers for points on your daily meals, but maybe you should try it again for just one week? You were so good at it!

    Nicole S.

    July 8, 2011

    I totally agree, what’s the alternative? The one issue I have with Weight Watchers is the way they do their weigh-ins. Our bodies are so fickle and anything can cause our weight to change on a daily basis. I recently started weighing myself every morning to see where I’m at. I’ve had days where I’ve randomly jumped up 3 lbs, but I know that it’s impossible for your body to actually gain 3 lbs in a day. Because of this, when I do my weekly weigh-ins online with WW I use the lowest number I had that week becuase I feel that is the truest representation of my weight, not whatever my body is feeling that day. I’ve been using this philospy for 2 months now and have had great success with it. I feel this keeps me more on track then anything I’ve done in the past and I no longer feel married to the number on the scale.

    BigTickles

    July 8, 2011

    Congrats on weighing in! My nutritionist told me a while ago that our bodies need a minimum of 1200 calories to function properly. So, echoing Nicole, it looks like you need to eat a little more considering the all the activity and training you are doing. Just a thought! You know your body; I am sure you will find out what is going on ;-) Keep trucking girl..no alternative!

    mel

    July 8, 2011

    I commented above, but i am reading others point of view on that you need to eat more. I personally don’t agree. If you burn let’s say 500 calories a day (which is what I do, running 1 hour a day…according to my stats, on my garmin running watch) and you run let’s say 6 days a week…for me that not even one pound burned off. I have learned to keep my exersise level a non issue with my diet goals. I just read this morning in an article from jillian Michaels… that most people need to do 30 minutes of cardio a day to MAINTAIN a level of fitness… to lose weight it should be closer to an hour of cardio a day (6 days per week). Of course, everyone is different.. and some can get by with doing less to see results. I have found for myself, i can get away with very little in the eating department to be where i like to maintain. Wish it were different but that is my reality… good thing i like healthy food so much :)

    Roz

    July 8, 2011

    STUPID SCALE!!! Hang in there Roni!! (can so relate, been there, done that, and just have to keep moving forward) Take care!!!

    Jeri Lyn

    July 8, 2011

    Hi Roni,
    Well, i’m back & trying to keep my commitment to you. I was also up on the scale 1lb. Probably for both of us, it was probably what we ate the night before. I’ve noticed my body really holds onto water weight when I have not such a great meal, which I’d had the night before. Though even if it’s not i’m doing my best to hold my head up high & keep on trucking along. I try to remind myself I try to be healthy not only for myself, but for my husband, friends & family. We are a good influence on them & you are a GREAT influence on me.
    Keep on truckin’ Roni!!!!
    Talk to you next week with better results for us both!!
    Jeri
    *By the way i’m running 18 miles on Saturday morning for my full marathon coming up in August, that should blast off the darn pound!! ;)

    AlisonG

    July 8, 2011

    Jen, you took the words right out of my mouth. Roni remember the muscle change and weight from the muscle. Good going for pushing on, you go girl! And keep truckin.

    AlisonG

    July 8, 2011

    Oh, and your pictures at the top of this page are adorable.

    Amber

    July 8, 2011

    Maybe your boobs were full. The WW scale was all over the place when I was nursing. Just a thought…but you look great anyway!

    Paula

    July 8, 2011

    I think we can all relate to this one. I have read much about the body fluctuation. Not to use as an excuse, but to understand these “gains” that may not necessarily mean a gain if that makes sense. I would be so hurt when I would see the numbers creep up one week when I know I did what I could. Then the next week they would be gone with the addition of another 1/2 – pound less. Keeping it in perspective makes me continue forward. Knowing that there could be a fluctuation up to 3-5 pounds is not uncommon and if I stick to plan it works out in the long run. You just keep it going girlfriend. You are doing everything correctly and the scale will catch up!

    Amy

    July 9, 2011

    Roni,

    I think you are being really, really hard on yourself here. Not for nothing, but have you looked at your BMI at all? You’re solidly in the healthy/normal range. Your current BMI is lower than where I set my goal at age 41. I’m kind of unsure why you’d want to go much lower than where you currently are. You’re healthy, you are in great shape and are building back up to your previous level of fitness…is the number really that big a deal?

    roni

    July 9, 2011

    No.. and I’ve been over the last few years pulling away from it BUT I have a closet full of clothes that don’t fit and I know I’m still carrying about 10 extra pounds from the pregnancy. It’s not a HUGE deal but I’d like to lose the last few and fit back into my wardrobe. If I have to replace it all again the husband may have a cow. lol I kid… but seriously.. I hear you. This post wasn’t about beating myself up it was a little pep talk to remind myself not to return to old (binging) habits just because of a number on the scale.

    Christina

    July 9, 2011

    You are doing great, not only with the number on the scale but with all you juggle, your new fitness goals, building your life with your family. Forget the tough weigh in–you are doing great on all counts!

    Gen

    July 10, 2011

    I can relate. I am also trying to lose weight after I gave birth but its just too hard to loose that 10 lbs to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. There is another good blog on the same topic that I was reading a while ago.

    Amy

    July 10, 2011

    I understand, Roni. I hope I didn’t across as judgemental or bitchy…truly, your site and your ups and downs are inspirational to everyone who comes here. Your high goals are the reason why you are where you are…I just hope that you remember to cut yourself a little slack from time to time. :)

    roni

    July 10, 2011

    Amy – Not at all! No worries!

    Carla

    November 18, 2011

    Roni, have you ever heard about something called Roca Labs Formula?
    I am asking because I purchased this thing a month ago…lost 12 pounds, great….but I want find out more about the long -term loss with this product….has anyone heard about it?? Any info will be much appreciated.

    Thank you!