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I’m a Bad Weight Loss Blogger

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I can’t remember if I told you, but I registered for the Philadelphia Rock and Roll 1/2 Marathon. I need something to work towards and weight loss isn’t cutting it. Gosh that sounds bad as a weight loss blogger, but it’s true! The more I live my life the way I want to live it, the less I care about the number on the scale.

Right now I weigh exactly what I weighed in high school, and I hated everything about my body back then. Now, at almost 35, I think I look damn good. Maybe it’s my age or the fact that I had 2 kids. I really don’t know.

What I do know is I love the way I FEEL when I’m running. I like setting fitness goals and competing, not with others, but with myself.

I don’t know what all of this means, but I’m excited! 6 years ago tracking points and watching the scale kept me motivated. I’ve gradually moved on from that, adopting more and more healthy habits and becoming a bit of a fitness fanatic. Now training for events drives me. (click here for the half marathon I just posted)

Do I want the scale to go down? Sure. Part of me will always be tied to the number, but I refuse to let it define me or my mood. Instead, I do my best to love the body I’m in while treating it the best way I know how.

Not sure where all of this is coming from. I just feel like a bad weight loss blogger because I’m in such a different place now, then when I started.

Anyway, here’s the food journal today…

Food Notes
A ginormous bowl of Uncle Sam’s with Almonds and every berry in the house This was AWESOME! I added more strawberries, raspberries, blueberries than cereal and topped it with almond milk. pure joy! LOVE berry season!!
A bit of cheese and some nuts Set up a photo shoot for a project I’m working on. Cheese and nuts were the props. I couldn’t help myself.
Quick Turkey sand on a small whole grain bun with a ton of pepper strips on the side. Lunch with the husband
Some fresh berries while preparing dinner Was making a mango berry salsa and I had t nibble!
2 tilapia fillets with Mango Berry Salsa, quick fried rice and some peas Will post about this on GreenLiteBites tomorrow! It was so fun!
Banana soft serve with a few cocoa almonds I was craving this after my run!
Activity
3 mile run! Check off day 1 of my half marathon training! It was an awesome run too. Went after the kids were in bed and only stopped once 2.5 miles in. It’s getting easier and easier!
Water/Vitamins
better! Took my vitamins at lunch.


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Discussion

There are 32 comments so far.

    Sarah

    June 28, 2011

    I think the above makes you a GREAT weight-loss blogger. Points and watching the scale maybe motivating at first… but once we have ingrained healthy habits in ourselves… Living life is far more important imho than being slave to number on scale or watching/counting every last morsel.

    I think you are comparing yourself to the majority of weight-loss blogs that are written by those who are still trying to find their way or who haven’t solidified habits enough to trust that if they live they will lose. It’s far easier (for you & me) to see this from the other side of pregnancy weight gain/loss after years of maintenance. I do hope that after my baby is born, it will feel very been there done that. Sure, I’ll need to pay attention, but it won’t be about counting calories and weighing every day. I’m past it and it seems you are too.

    Tamara

    June 28, 2011

    You’re amazing! While training for my (first) half this past winter/spring, I felt the same way. I’m probably a bit more focused on the scale and weight loss than it sounds like you are, but I won’t deny that how I feel is more important to me. If I were 15 pounds lighter, but suddenly couldn’t run anymore, it wouldn’t make a difference to me that I was at my goal weight. Running makes me feel alive. Even during and after a bad run, I still feel like there isn’t anything in the world I can’t accomplish. Even if my scale doesn’t tell me exactly what I want to hear…

    Amanda

    June 28, 2011

    I think you are a great weight loss blogger – maybe a more well rounded one who is true to the intent behind the focus on the numbers/scale. I think all of us are seeking what you are pursuing (and achieving) – balance, contentment, and pursuit of other than a number on a scale (that no one else knows or judges you by)… you are an inspiration for living life and not waiting “until” to do something!

    Wifey

    June 28, 2011

    I agree with the previous comments – you’re such an inspiration! I also agree with not focusing on the number but how you feel and look! I’m on a running high right now, too! I LOVE training and running in races. It’s exhilarating! Keep on doing what your doing.

    Winks & Smiles,
    Wifey

    Ronni

    June 28, 2011

    Agreed! I think everyone on their journey to lose weight hopes to feel the way you do. I know my ultimate goal will not to be the scale going down, but to live the healthiest life I can(and pass that on to my kiddos)!

    Kristen

    June 28, 2011

    I live in Philadelphia, if you need any recommendations while here, just let me know! And good luck!

    Jen (@jeninRL)

    June 28, 2011

    OMG! I was nodding my head through everything you wrote and your commenters. I am in similar boat (I am heavier than high school but feel better about my body now than I did back then) and I am really focusing on my training. I figure it will all work out the way it is supposed to be!

    love ya girl!!
    xox

    Nancy

    June 28, 2011

    You know, it’s funny but I have been reading your blog for a long time and never once have I thought of you as a “weight loss blogger.” I have always thought your focus was more about healthy living and balanced eating. That was actually the appeal of your blog for me, that it didn’t seem so focused on the “must lose weight” mentality but more about living a healthy, active life as a woman, parent, and wife. So, no you are not a bad weight loss blogger. Cut yourself some slack! :-) You don’t need to define yourself so narrowly. You are a great healthy living blogger!

    Mehgann

    June 28, 2011

    Funny enough, I find this gives me hope. I am totally tied to the number on the scale, and I don’t WANT to be! I hope someday I can be as liberated from it as you are. Thank you for sharing this.

    I absolutely love this post!

    It’s great that you’ve moved on from caring so much about weight and food, and instead are motivated to keep going with activity!

    I’m the same way! I lost the majority of my weight through Weight Watchers, and I knew WW backwards and forwards, and was able to navigate it effortlessly at the beginning. However, I started picking up healthier habits and a healthier body image, and the number eventually didn’t matter so much. I knew I wanted to provide my body nutritious food and keep it active. I kept in my mind how I *wanted* to live, and how I *wanted* to eat, and whichever weight my body landed as a result didn’t matter as much. That’s why additional attempts I’ve made to go back to Weight Watchers or reduce calories to drop a few vanity pounds has not worked out. You’re not alone!

    Marisa E

    June 28, 2011

    Yay!! I also signed up for the RnR Philadelphia Half….this will be my first!! I just started running in January with a goal of completing the Philadelphia Broad St Run (10 miler) on May 1st. Once I finished that I also wanted something to keep me going throughout the summer- enter the RnR half. Just started training yesterday with a schedule similar to that of Hal Higdon’s. So far, so good!
    You are NOT a bad weight loss blogger…..I love that you’re being totally honest with where you are right now in life. I’m finding myself in the same boat. I’m a WWer and I’m pretty blah about the program right now. I’m just trying to focus on making the best choices I can, enjoying the summer with my hubs and my 2 boys and to keep on running! :-)

    BigTickles

    June 28, 2011

    Roni, I never considered you a weight loss blogger. I see you as a blogger who is on a journey to a healthier life…if that makes sense. You do not merely stick with the numbers and calories (as others do). You talk about how the journey makes you feel. So, to me, you are not a bad blogger…just a real one ;-)

    Lisa

    June 28, 2011

    It really does help to have a specific goal and a specific date! It’s worked wonders to get my butt in gear.

    Roz

    June 28, 2011

    I think you are a great “weight loss” blogger. Your story is motivational, your recipes are yummy, you live a balanced life and slip up like the rest of us on the healthy eating sometimes! Good luck training for the run Roni, I know you’ll have fun! Have a great day.

    Sara

    June 28, 2011

    NOOOOOOOOOOO you are not a “bad weight-loss blogger” at all!!! This is why: you tell the truth about what is really going on and don’t just post the perfect things, but your everyday struggles, thoughts and feelings. That helps all of us so much Roni!! No one is perfect and when we look at all these magazines and websites that post a “perfect” world it makes it hard for people to feel good about themselves. You do just the opposite…. you post about your struggles, bad days, hard things to cope with and everyone can relate in some way no matter who they are!! No one is perfect and when a magazine posts a perfect picture of a model or a website only posts the great pictures and days of someones life it is hard to relate to. I have been following your blog for a very long time and you always have the best insites, advice and fun kid pics along the side to make it so easy to relate to and lift people up. We all struggle in something and just because you are honest doesn’t make you bad it makes you that much more of “real”person who inspires so many every day!! You have helped me in so many ways with your blog and I won’t bore you with that, but thanks for all you do and pat yourself on the back sometimes… you deserve it!!!

    Melissa

    June 28, 2011

    I have to say I agree with you 100%. Running keeps me grounded in what’s really important. I weigh what I did in HS (I’m 42) and hated my body and weight then. Now I think it’s rockin’ and that’s because I have a lot of other things to care about and besides, I’ve had 3 kids and have rocked many marathons and half marathons. When I run, it makes me feel strong and healthy and that’s way better than any number on the scale.

    Melissa

    June 28, 2011

    Roni,

    I think you’re doing a great job! Even though your “goal” isn’t working toward weight loss, it’s still working toward a better and even healthier you. At the end of the day, I think that’s what’s most important. And I think that that’s what you want for your readers, at least that’s how you come across to me. You’ve helped me so much to realize that it’s not the number on the scale that defines me and my worth. It’s not my shape. It’s how I live and treat myself and others.

    I read a quote today that reminded me of you: “The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places.” I’ve seen (read about? ;) ) you go by parking place after parking place, and keep moving on. Maybe you stopped at a parking place for a moment, but you’ve realized, gotten yourself in check and then moved on. Your strength and positiveness has been so helpful to me. I still have 60 pounds to lose before I would be at my “ideal weight” and I know that I will meet that goal eventually. But I’ve realized by your saying over and over that that “ideal weight” won’t make me happy. I’ve started focusing on my body more and what its healthy cravings are. I’ve been getting up early for the last week, before anyone in my household is up, and gone out walking and even attempting running/jogging at intervals. My body loves it and it makes me feel so good for the rest of the day! Even though it’s only been a week, my body is craving the movement, and that makes me ecstatic! :)

    Okay, I’ve started rambling. Thanks for your blog and sharing your life!

    Tami@nutmegnotebook

    June 28, 2011

    I applaud your focus Roni! I tell my blog readers that we should focus on healthy habits and our lifestyle and once we do that, it relieves so much pressure and the weight loss will follow.

    It’s all about our over all lifestyle and the things we do day in and day out.

    Bravo to you!

    Megan

    June 28, 2011

    You inspire. For the first time in over 5 years i’ve worn shorts for 7 days straight. Thats huge for me. It’s because of your blog. It’s so liberating to just do it. Instead of spending years thinking” this summer i’ll wear shorts”. I used your quote you put on your blog ” who looks weirder the heavy woman in the swimsuit on th beach or the person in all the clothes”. I’ve adopted that into my life. No one else is noticing my imperfections. ( celulite, ect.) But me. Thank you for all you do.

    Jeri Lyn

    June 28, 2011

    Hi Roni,
    I of course must agree with everyone else, you are a GREAT blogger. If you no longer want to consider yourself a “weight-loss blogger” maybe you should change it to something like a “healthy lifestyle” blogger?? :)
    You are such an inspiration to me & your e-mails always hit me @ the right time. I was the one who said I’d post my weight loss along with yours & then I faltered. The weight is just coming off so slow or not @ all. :( I’m trying to be more like you & just be comfy in my skin & hope that it will all turn out in the end. Sometimes I think I look ok & am happy with myself, other times I feel like that giant bloated monkey you like to post sometimes. :) I’m doing my best “today” & will have to learn to live with it.
    I am also training for a marathon. This will be my 5th full marathon & it starts @ midnight in Las Vegas in August. Everyone pretty much thinks i’m crazy & I have to agree. :)
    While i’m being honest………..i’m 38 years old, 5″ 4 inches & weighed this morning 153.8, not horrible, but could be so much better.
    Sorry for the long message, please keep doing what your doing!!!!

    Tara

    June 28, 2011

    I compete with myself too! In fact last night I was running a 5k (around my neighborhood by myself) and I checked my time at mile 2 and realized i had walked 3 minutes longer than I had last week. I got discouraged, coudln’t shake it off and ended up walking the rest of the way… i know bad on my part… but… i am working on not giving up on myself! It is hard!

    Jill

    June 28, 2011

    I find it very exciting that you are changing. Life is exciting and you never know where your journey is going to take you. I find that following your journey gives me and others hope that we too will change in good ways. I am still tied to the scale, but working hard to change that. I too am tied to calorie counting. I would like to move more in the direction of intuitive eating. I am not there yet- but seeing how far you have come gives me hope! Thank you for that!!!

    Melanie

    June 28, 2011

    You are certainly not a bad blogger! It is so very encouraging to read the thoughts and feelings of someone who has not only lost weight, but kept it off. Your candid posts and honesty regarding slip-ups are so very appreciated, and your journey to maintain good health by exercising and eating healthy is inspirational to those of us who have struggled with their weight for a long time. Thanks!

    Brittany

    June 28, 2011

    Yay!!! You’re half-marathon is gonna be awesome and you’re gonna do great :)

    Tina

    June 29, 2011

    You’re a kick-ass blogger!!! I’ll admit, I miss the blogs about counting points and weigh-ins because it kinda felt to me like I had a *friend* along my own weight-loss journey. When I stop to think about it, your daily blogs is the biggest encouragement I get (not that my husband and family isn’t supportive, they’re just not the most consistent cheer leaders). Anyhoo, you’re an excellent blogger regardless if it’s about the journey to losing weight or teaching yourself, your boys, and friends about living a healthy life.

    Paula

    June 29, 2011

    Wow. I wish I evolve into the healthy person that you’ve become. At this point in my journey I am still counting tracking and weighing. I just can’t seem to get to the place where you are now. I really hope I can. Please leave road signs as it is a place I wish to arrive at some day.

    Patty

    July 3, 2011

    You are just awesome being you! :)

    Congrats on signing up for the half marathon!

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    Timmy

    August 27, 2012

    Just enjoy your life. Whether your bigger or smaller If you feel good then you’ll always be happy.