Yesterday was a tough for me. The conference is really getting close and my stress level increasing. I’m having this mysterious agonizing lower back pain. The dishwasher is broken. The baby is going through a fussy period. My house is a mess, full of boxes and materials. I haven’t gone grocery shopping in over two weeks. The only fresh food I have is two overripe bananas and a grapefruit. I event exhausted all my frozen vegetable stashes.
The husband decides taking me out for lunch will help. Yea… it did for like the 20 minutes we were there when I shoved french fry after french fry down my throat.
Why do we do that to ourselves?
Of course I felt worse afterwards. So then I started sneaking handfuls of potato chips.
Why food makes me feel better while eating it, I don’t know but it sure makes me feel worse when I’m immediately done.
I tried to salvage the day by getting the family to go for a nice long walk. It helped a little but my back hurt the whole time making me anxious and worried because I simply don’t have time to deal with it this week. Not to mention I have a bazillion boxes to lug for the conference.
When we got home I made hot dogs and beans for dinner. You don’t even want to know how many I ate.
FOUR hot dogs?
Who needs 4 hot dogs? And see I’m the biggest bean lover in the house. So who do you think ate the majority of those?
“When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest if you must, but don’t you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about, When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don’t give up though the pace seems slow–You may succeed with another blow, Success is failure turned inside out–The silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far; So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit–It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.”
I found that at 5AM this morning after nursing the baby and getting him back to sleep. Me? I couldn’t sleep. Too many things swimming in my head.
Reading that helped. A lot.
I’m sticking it out today. My plan is simple. Get my house is order. Hit the grocery store for some supplies and get cracking on the last minute prep for the conference.
I am full steam ahead!