Tonight I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I polished off a bag of chocolate chips. That’s right the WHOLE bag. In my defense it was about half empty but still. The point is I felt that out-of-control-need-to-comfort-myself-with-food feeling. This has been happening to me a lot lately. From shoving cheese slices in my face when making lunch to downing bags of Doritos while watching TV at night. I’m out of control.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not beating myself up about this. I don’t even feel guilty. It simply is what it is. I’m nursing a newborn, planning a conference, trying to get my taxes done, helping a kindergartner with his homework, all while attempting to keep a household running on little to no sleep. It’s no wonder I feel out of control.
The bottom line is I’m eating becuase it’s there. I’m eating becuase it helps me stay awake. I’m eating becuase it’s comforting.
I’m feeling out of control and It has to stop. I want it stop.
This is when the structure of a plan helps me. It helped me 6 years ago when I originally lost the 70 lbs. Going to Weight Watcher meetings and tracking my progress here on the site gave me an outlet. Something just for me during a time I felt like I was working for everyone else.
That may sound cheesy but it’s true. In a weird way it’s like a hobby. I don’t need the structure of the plan forever but in these first few months it helps me get back on track.
This is my long, roundabout way of telling you I’m returning to Weight Watchers. I’m not going to lie. I’m nervous. If you remember my initial response, I didn’t have the warm and fuzzies about the new plan but I’m ready to give it a shot. I found a meeting on Thursday’s that fits my schedule and I’ll be weighing in which in and of itself scared the CRAP out of me. I haven’t gotten on the scale since my last pregnancy appointment.
I’ll also be updating all my old progress pages, including my Weight Progress, Yearly Goals and new Progression Pics. I do well with the structure of the plan while using the blog to track my progress. Hey, it worked the first time, right? Why not give it another go.
This brings me to the question of the week. Do you need the structure of a plan like I do? Or are you better on your own? What works for you?