I feel out-of-it. Spacey. Distracted. Overwhelmed.
All these feelings get mixed up and intertwined with. . .
You guessed it.
I’m catching myself having fat thoughts. Eating more because "I might as well." Thinking I’ll "start fresh tomorrow." Coming up with every excuse in the book not workout. Not to run. Not to do the things that I know make me feel good.
I thought by going to bed early last night it would help but it didn’t. Again I have a choice. I can feel sorry for myself and succumb to these ridiculous thoughts that do me no good or I can stop making excuses, stop feeling sorry for myself and simply snap out of it!
So here’s the deal. I’m going running tomorrow morning before work. I’m NOT waiting till Monday. I don’t know what’s up with me but I miss the way I feel when working out regularly and I plan on getting back to that place. It’s why I set my running goals for the year. How in the world am I going to reach those goals if I don’t work at them.
I’m also going to start counting points again. I feel like I’ve been letting my diet slip. I’m sneaking bites here and and adding extra cheese there. I’m not watching portions and I’m unconsciously eating.
I’m hoping this little bit of structure snaps me out of this funk.
Off to bed. Got to pull out the running clothes and charge up the ipod!