“you definitely helped me on my journey to become ever more dissatisfied with myself. ”

I’m seriously hoping that was a typo and dissatisfied was suppose to be satisfied????

And I know what you mean. and I think you will! I’m finally just starting to not feel like “the fat girl” I still have moments but then I try to remember how far I’ve come and even if I was still “fat” it wouldn’t matter anyway… I have too many things I want to accomplish in this life… ya know? This is the body I have to do it in and I need to respect it no matter what size it is.

THAT is the place I’m finally getting to!

Heh! Actually, the funny thing is, AFTER I did the interview with MSNBC, I actually felt better and have been having a WAY more positive attitude recently. I think there’s something about being Vindicated… you know, my bad feelings and my disgust and leftover “yep, still fat” were not getting any sympathy from my friends, especially the ones still in the weight loss process… they were all “You’re a size 4, what the HECK are you complaining about!?” And without any sympathy, or understanding ear, the only conclusion I could come to was that I was somehow broken inside, and that I was never going to BE HAPPY with myself, and dang, that was depressing as all get out, don’t cha think?

But really, I’ve been following along with you since I started my weight loss, and you’ve been… there. For me, you know? Even though I don’t know you and probably never will, I could often (usually!) relate to you and what you said. (And just like you, I am a big time sap. I spend a lot of time reading people’s blogs and tearing up and just being a watering pot and I totally “yeah, been there, I understand” when you read your reader’s emails on your webcam… )

I’m glad you liked the article, I was happy to do it… and I have hope that while it may take me a while, eventually I will STOP feeling like that fat girl all the time and be able to recognize myself for the mostly thin, very fit girl that I have become!

And you know if you decide to do the complete unplug while at the shore, we’ll be here when you get back!! No worries….have a great vacation.