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Old Habits Return… bleh

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The move has gotten the best of me and my healthy habits. My eating has been out of control all week. I started off ok, making healthy choices, trying my best to prepare food with what I had on hand and then inevitably the husband would want to go out for fast food, or there’d be Combos on the counter or my favorite… the bag of chocolate chips I found when packing up the kitchen. I polished that off on by day 2. That’s right. The WHOLE bag. *sigh*

Right now I’m feeling quite overstuffed after a trip to Bertucci’s. Let’s leave it at the bread bowl because I probably consumed enough calories right there for the entire meal. Did that slow me down? nope. I also most of my entrée, 2 slices of the toddlers pepperoni pizza AND chocolate cake. MAN! I can consume some calories, can’t I?

I’m not beating myself up. Nope. Not going to do it. I moved.. I stressed.. I ate… enough said. Am I a little disappointed in myself for reverting to old habits? Sure. Could I have made some better choices? Yup. But you know what… It’s over. I can either start the yo-yo diet cycle of hell all over again OR I can swing the momentum the other way. I need to remember that one good choice leads to another the same way the "bad" ones have been building up.

All is not lost. I haven’t regained 65 pounds. I didn’t lose all the progress I’ve made running. I’m still fitter then I’ve every been in my life.

OK…. not devoting any more time to this. Let’s move on. We have officially closed on our house!! It’s gone. I can’t believe it. We lived in that house for 8 years. It was our first and I didn’t think I’d get chocked up about it until I signed the papers. But all is good. I love the new house we are building. Which, by the way, is REALLY shaping up…

I can’t believe how much progress they’ve made. It’s so much fun driving by with the toddler and checking it out. Oooops! Did I just say toddler? I keep forgetting my little boy is getting so big. He’s adjusting to the move pretty well. For a day or two he was a bit whiny but I think that was to be expected. Overall he was our little helper and very involved in the whole process. He’s in heaven here at the apartment as there are 2-3 4 year olds in our building, a playground in the back AND a pool down the street!

Right now the husband and I are about to relax as we finally have a living space not cluttered with boxes. We are going to throw in a movie, have a beer and just CHILL! Tomorrow I’m planning on going for a run. I need to get back on track with my marathon training or I’ll never be ready! I’m losing a little of the desire right now but I know once I start running again I’ll get that feeling back.

I hope to be blogging nighty again. I miss it. I am also committing to my food journal. First I used busyness as an excuse, then I used my lack on internet connection. Well I’m fesh out of excuses. Food journal.. run… getting my hair done! Tomorrow is totally going to be a ME day and I can’t wait! :) Talk to you then!



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There are 20 comments so far.

    Michele

    July 2, 2009

    I love your honesty. Thank God I’m not the only one who can polish off a whole bag of chocolate chips, lol! ;) Count it as a vegetable and move on. :)

    Congrats on selling your house, that was fast! Your new house looks awesome. Can’t help but notice the name “Ryan” all over it. How funny!

    I am so inspired by your ability to just accept your food decisions and move on. I really struggle with that. Have a run tomorrow :-)

    Jennifer G

    July 3, 2009

    The house is looking great!! I built a house 10 years ago (doesn’t seem like that long ago)…and it is the most exciting time. I loved to go check on it daily to see all the progess that was made. It is so much fun when you finally get to move in….nothing like a brand new home…enjoy it all.

    Jenna

    July 3, 2009

    lol I noticed the name ryan all over it too….it was the first thing I noticed when I looked at the picture lol. I can’t beleive how fast they are moving on your house! What is the estimated move in date on it?

    Krista S.

    July 3, 2009

    I thought of you so many times today. I’m glad you guys are settling in ok.

    regina jumah

    July 3, 2009

    hi roni. u mentioned eating fast food. someone sent this short youtube video to me. all of us should see it. it’s the “McDonald’s 4 Year Old Cheeseburger” video and how fast food does not break down… AT ALL!!!! gotta see it for yourself.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IGtDPG4UfI

    Nina

    July 3, 2009

    I love your honesty, too. But you DID beat yourself up a bit, I think. Which you shouldn’t do. To make healthy choices while working, taking care of a child, moving and building a house, you also have to prepare those healthy snacks and get rid of the unhealthy ones. That’s one more task in already stressful times, and we are all human and meet our limits sometimes. I hope you enjoyed at least half of that bag. If not, that should be a task for your next “attack” – enjoy what you are eating! I have found that I stop earlier if I concentrate on enjoying unhealthy food if I really have to eat it.

    Lots of love, your home looks great!
    Nina

    Nina

    July 3, 2009

    Oh, and something else. I am so relieved you all show us that we do not have to be 100% perfect to achieve our most important goals. :)))))

    Kerry

    July 3, 2009

    Hang in there, I know it’s hard when you’re out of that healthy “groove” and trying to get back into it. I can’t remember if I read this idea here or somewhere else, but it helps me to commit to 3 healthy things JUST for today. Today I will: take an hour walk, go to the produce market, and make one of my filling favorites for breakfast- oatmeal. Even in the midst of craziness, I can handle that for today. Have a great weekend!

    SeaShore

    July 3, 2009

    Having Ryan printed all over your house, knowing it will always be printed there, in the walls, that’s a good omen of things to come!

    Alison

    July 3, 2009

    hang in there. So many things throw me off program. But the good news is – we know what to do to be On program and we are on program way more than we are off :)

    Jodi

    July 3, 2009

    Roni –

    It’s good to know I’m not alone – anyone can have a bad day, weekend, or week (I waayyy over-indulged last weekend – but got right back to it Monday). Go to a WW meeting – accept the damage and deal with it. Hope you had a great run! You’re an inspiration, and as I said, it’s so nice to know I’m not alone.

    deana

    July 3, 2009

    I am so excited for you and your family the house looks like it will be beautiful keep us posted on the pics. I am so motivated by you daily because you are always sharing your ups and downs and how you deal with them. You seem to juggle alot .thanks for the pep talk!!

    Andrea@WellnessNotes

    July 3, 2009

    You have a great outlook. And yes, “one good choice leads to another.”

    Congratulations on closing on the old house. I know that selling your first house is a relief, sad, emotional, exciting – all at the same time! The progress on the new house is amazing!

    Have a great run and a great weekend! :)

    Lori L.

    July 3, 2009

    It is so tough when you are kitchen-less… I feel your pain. Whenever we renovate anything in our house it seems like our attempts at healthy eating go out the window. When our living environment spins out of control, the eating habits follow suit.

    Brianne

    July 3, 2009

    Thank you so much for your honesty. I really needed to read that today. I agree with Nina–it’s nice to see that you don’t have to be perfect to reach your goals. I might adopt that as my new motto!

    rollercoaster

    July 3, 2009

    Just think of it this way, you will stay full longer so you don’t need to eat again for a while! :) Waiting for that feeling of hunger before eating again always makes me feel a little better, more in control.

    Runeatrepeat

    July 3, 2009

    Way to change your attitude and get positive fast :) You are a great example for me and so many others…Thank you!

    cherrie

    July 4, 2009

    staying on track to keep healthy is toughest the first few days… our minds are still connected to our old habits and its easy to slip away… its when we are past two weeks that the diet or fitness regime seems more important and necessary in our lives…. its like our brain has started to include it in our pathways and has kicked out the old, junky ones

    pam

    July 4, 2009

    Wow, that house is on the FAST TRACK. It is so fun….but stressful at the same time. Something about us women…we seem to turn to food. It comforts us like a friend. Maybe you should try going to a meeting. That always boosts my outlook and challenges me at the same time. Thinking of you during these stressful moments. Pam