Ok, I can’t keep it to my self anymore. I must write about all the craziness that is going on in my life. I never really realized how much I’ve come to depend on the blog for an outlet. It’s such a stress release for me to write about what’s swimming in this head of mine. I used to loathe writing now I actually look forward to it. Strange.
So here goes…
Let’s start with this crazy new job thing I have going on. If you haven’t been reading I recently accepted a position at a local University. It was a wonderful opportunity to do something I love (web/interaction design) in an environment I adore (higher education) and although I wasn’t activity looking for a job everything just felt… well… right. The work, the people, the opportunity. It all just seemed perfect.
So I accepted and have been working 2 days a week until I start full time July 6. I’m really thankful for this transition time as I get used to everything from the commute to leaving the toddler all day. Part of me wishes this opportunity presented itself next year when he would be off to kindergarden but besides that, timing couldn’t be more perfect. Especially with the our recent decision to buy a new house as we attempt to sell this one. Speaking of…
I’m breaking the silence. I can’t take it anymore! The husband may kill me and I hope I don’t jinx us or he’ll never forgive me but… WE GOT AN OFFER ON THE HOUSE!!
*sigh* you have NO idea how much better I feel getting that off my chest! We didn’t accept the initial offer. We countered and then THEY accepted. Contract has been signed. We had the home inspection this past weekend and the appraiser was here yesterday. They would like to close July 1 which puts us in the complete opposite position then I thought we would be in as our new house won’t be ready until September!
So we’ve been looking into short term leases. It looks as is we’ll be putting most of our stuff in storage as we live in a small 2 bedroom apartment this summer. I’m trying to look at it like an adventure but truth be told I’m a little freaked. There’s just so much going on…
We need to start packing. The toddler’s birthday is party is Saturday.Tons of family are coming in this weekend. They broke ground on the new house yesterday. We have to sign a lease for an apartment. Not too mention that new job I started. Oh! and the pesky little marathon I started training for.
And how do I deal with all this stress? Food.. food… food. Of course. I’m assuming you understand if you are reading my blog. :) I’ve been fighting off some crazy munchies. Not too mention the lack of time and desire to grocery shop, cook and eat healthy meals at home. It’s just SO much easier to go out to dinner but we don’t really have the cash and I REALLY don’t want the extra calories!
What’s my plan? Well… I’m committing to the food journal. I promised myself I will write down everything I eat. EVERYTHING. No more bailing out on it when things get shaky. I have a feeling the next three months will ALL be shaky and I don’t want to use it as an excuse to just go back to bad habits.
Nope. Not me. No excuses.
And you know what. This morning I had a revelation as I confessed on my food journal…
"confession.. last night I grabbed a box of frosted mini-wheats and went 2 town. Not sure how much I ate but it was a lot."
I realized at that moment there is no way in hell I will gain back all the weight I have lost. I just confessed about eating too many mini wheat?? Not pizza, not combos, ounces of cheese with crackers, 12 inch subs loaded with works, not even chocolate or the famous Thin Mint Cookies. No, I confessed to eating too many frosted mini wheats.
Don’t get me wrong, I know you can gain weight by eating too much of anything but I’ve changed. I no longer seek solace in a bag of regular old chips, pounds of cheese, or entire small pizzas. Right now I’m munching on baked tortillas and Really Quick Spicy Bean Dip. Again, I know I can go overboard with it but the point is, my fundamental choices have changed. I’m aware that the simple things make a big difference and I will continue to make them because I have found a lifestyle that works for me.
Will I gain some weight? sure. Can I lose it again? You bet. Maintenance is a balancing act and after 3 years I finally feel like I’m starting to get sturdy. Maybe that weekly yoga class is helping. ;~)