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Choosing to Work? What am I NUTZ?

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For those that missed the announcement I was offered a job! Not just any old job but an amazing opportunity at a state university to be an Online Interactive Media and Information Designer. The hours are flexible, the pay is good and the benefits are amazing. This is the type of job I always wanted. A small creative group, working with students and faculty on interesting, creative projects using my skills and experience as an Instructional Technologist and Web Developer. It will be challenging and (I hope) interesting.

But what about the blogs you say? Well not that long ago, about a year if you remember, I was teaching full time at the community college and blogging. At the time I was NOT (in the least bit) enjoying teaching the way I used to and I saw an opportunity to turn the blogs into a business. My logic at the time was simple, I’m making a little money doing it part time, let me try it full time. Full time effort may equal full time income? No??

It’s a year later and I’m still making a little money. I’ve been consulting here and there to supplement the blog income. So in essence I went from a women with a full-time job that blogged part-time to a women who is blogging full time and working part-time. And what did I get along with that shift? Less income, no benefits, more stress (albeit self inflicted) and a crazy schedule.

Don’t get me wrong it’s been fun and the money hasn’t been that big of an issue (luckily I have a husband with a full time job who survived many layoffs). But I miss working. Yikes, did I just say that? I did. I must really be nuts.

But it’s true. Blogging is fun but since doing it full time it feels different. I’m tired of worrying about increasing revenues, and finding new readers. I just don’t want to look at my stats and make business type decisions with the blog anymore. I want it to be the way it used to be… Me.

Me just reacting to life. Me sharing my day, my ideas on how to stay active and live healthier. Probably from your perspective that’s what I’ve been doing but behind the scenes I’m making decisions about ad networks and researching ways to make more money with the blog (so I could stop the part-time work.) I’m worrying about keeping up relationships with PR firms and constantly looking for opportunities to get more exposure. I just don’t want to worry about it anymore, I just want to blog.

When it comes down to it. I’m tired of selling myself and feeling like my livelihood is dependent on whether or not people want to continue reading what I have to say. I much rather the reward be the relationships I make online not the income I can generate from the sites.

What does all this mean? Nothing really. I’m just giving you a bit of what’s been swimming in my head the past few days. I don’t plan on shutting down the blogs. I have no intention to stop blogging. I may have to slow down a bit, of course, but really I think it’s about time. My initial goal with blogging was to journal my weight loss experience. I’ve reached that goal. The blog, in a way, served it purpose. Now my goal is to journal my experience with maintenance, NOT to generate an income. For me, that’s a good change and much more of an exciting prospect.

GreenLiteBites? It will NEVER die. :) It’s my place to share my food ideas. However, I have to admit I’ve been having fewer and fewer of them recently and the pressure to come up with new recipes has been getting to me. I actually hope my return to work will spark some creativity as I’ll have to react to cooking with less time, the way I used to. I’m relieving myself of the pressure of coming with ideas for the sake of coming up with a ideas. I actually had more fun reacting to my pantry, whipping something up and sharing it with you. That’s when I do my best work anyway. :)

The cookbook? It’s still full steam ahead. I now have even more motivation to finish it before I start the new job! So if anything this may be the push I need to get my butt in gear!

The conference? It is also still full steam ahead. It is the only thing I will be doing above and beyond my blogs from this point forward. I know I will not have any time for anything else anyway. (I made more announcements about this on twitter earlier and I’ll be giving more updates later.)

I won’t be starting the new job until June, so I’ll have some time to adjust. I plan on enjoying my last month of self employment and spending even more time with the toddler who will, consequently, be graduating to the kid (or is it the child? the boy??) before the new job official begins.

Writing this has me even more excited about the future. I’ve always been one to enjoy change. I like mixing it up, challenging myself and seeing where opportunities take me. In a weird way it makes me feel alive. If everything stayed the same I’d be bored out of my skull. ;~)

Off tonight to see Wolverine with the husband! Gotta run and get ready.




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Discussion

There are 42 comments so far.

    WannaBeSkinny

    May 1, 2009

    Good for you! I’m excited for you!

    deb

    May 1, 2009

    I went back to work, just for the Sanity!

    Dani

    May 1, 2009

    So cool… you sound super excited. I”m really happy for you:).

    Christine

    May 1, 2009

    Congratulations!! You will do amazing at your new job!! Though I’m glad you will still be around because I love your rants and recipes!! Greenlitebites was one of the first blogs I found that inspired me to learn to cook (I didn’t know healthy cooking could actually be easy!) and I want to thank you a thousand times for that!

    KUrunner

    May 1, 2009

    That’s so great Roni! As far as the blogging goes, I think a lot of people will be able to relate to your stories about trying to maintain your weight loss and get in workouts while working a “real” job and dealing with a family.

    FatFighterTV

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats on the new job, Roni! :)

    Kathy

    May 1, 2009

    I’m so happy for you, Roni! I understand perfectly what you’re saying about the difference between blogging because you want to and blogging because you feel you have to. Look forward to following you here and on Twitter. And, yeah, it’s probably time to find a new moniker for the Toddler. I cast a vote for The Boy or The Son!

    Alison

    May 1, 2009

    Sounds like you are doing a great thing for everyone, I am glad you will haev some stress relief. :-) Enjoy the movie!

    Holly

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats Roni! To be able to find a job, let alone a wonderful job, in this economy, is awesome! Good for you!

    Arlene

    May 1, 2009

    Congratulations on the new job … but I’m glad you’ll still be blogging. (I’m selfish that way. I don’t remember how I found your blog in the first place, but now I can’t imagine life without it.)

    Becca

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats on the job! And Wolverine Orgins is AWESOME!! :c)

    Ericka

    May 1, 2009

    Wow Roni! Congratulations.. and im happy u wont stop your blogs.. im on all of your sites.. love them and I think that you are pretty amazing. :-)

    Dani

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats Roni! I’m so happy for you and I’ll continue to read all the blogs you decide to post! Thank you so much for everything you put into them. My vote is for “the child”. :-)

    Alex

    May 1, 2009

    I totally get what you mean about the different between blogging for income and blogging for yourself…even though I am not a blogger. In dissimilar situations I have come across the very same conclusion- it seems to be a life lesson. Another one I’ve learned is that you really do have to have patience to get what you really want. I’m not sure if you are patient or not, but if I read you right you are a multitasker like me and like to get things done…so this isn’t a lesson that came easy (for me at least).

    I too like to work and really get that you miss it!! When I don’t work I get a little depressed :/ It is a great form of earned gratification and definitely good for a healthy self-esteem.

    Priyanka

    May 1, 2009

    Congratulations Roni, I am so excited for you! I think what you do should make you happy and give you satisfaction at the end of the day!

    Marisa (trim the fat)

    May 1, 2009

    congrats, roni!!! I understand your feelings about “blogging for dollars”. I have been toying with the idea myself as a way to supplement my family income, but I struggle with the thought that I may lose myself along the way. On one hand, I would like to use my blog as an avenue to earn a little money, but on the other hand, I want to be as authentic in my intentions with the blog as the day I started.

    Have a great evening with the husband! You have lots to celebrate!

    Lauren

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats on the new job! I totally understand where you are coming from….I will be going back to work full-time next week, after having worked part-time from home for the past year and a half! It was great to be home with my daughter for all her firsts, but we are both ready. She enjoys going to school and I miss all the adult interaction!

    Annette

    May 1, 2009

    congrats! I’m a little jealous :)

    allijag

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats Roni! That’s great news and it sounds like the perfect opportunity for you right now!!!!

    Laura Brandon

    May 1, 2009

    I’m so excited for you, Roni! And I love that you love change! There are so many people who hate change and avoid it with all their might, but not you, and I think that is so great. You just charge full steam ahead, and I so admire that. Be sure to keep us updated, I know you will!

    Adi (oatonomy.com)

    May 1, 2009

    This is exciting, Roni. Congratulations! Way to embrace the next chapter. I love your for-real-ness. It’s so refreshing in blog land!! :)

    Sherri

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats on the new job. When I first read your posts of going to work, I was like “Is she insane?” Having the chance to stay home with the toddler and work from home, she must have been breathing in too much gym air. But I have been in your situation before. I tried staying home with my two kidss and having a home based business, but it isn’t always in the best interest of the children/family. Something about us getting out there and having a career and doing what we love, really impacts the family. Being able to balance it all, and you do, is such an impression for the family. Im not sure impression is the right word. Ok, enough of my silly babling and spelling errors. Good for you. Go for it.

    By the way, I have referred to my son who is now 14, as The Boy, for as long as I can remember. I come home and say “Where is the boy?”

    Michelle in CA

    May 1, 2009

    Congrats! Sounds like an exciting future ahead! :-)

    workout mommy

    May 1, 2009

    congrats Roni, it sounds like the perfect job for you!
    and I totally get the blogging stress/issues. It’s sad how a hobby can quickly become like a chore.
    have a great weekend!

    Christine

    May 1, 2009

    Sounds like the best decisions are the most natural…CONGRATS! your integrity always shines through:)

    Debra Graybeal

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations! It sounds like a great opportunity! Glad you’re still going to be blogging, though!

    Sally

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations! =D

    Ellen

    May 2, 2009

    Roni, congratulations! Just speaking for myself — as long as you are blogging, I will be reading! No matter how frequently or infrequently you blog on any of your three sites, bloglines will tell me when something is new :) I’m looking forward to some GLB ideas for those “I’m too exhausted to cook, what’s in the fridge/pantry that can become edible and delicious quickly” recipes. Yay!

    Jan

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations!

    Nina

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations from me, too!

    I totally know what you mean! If making a business out of it kills your creativity and the spirit you put into it, make it a hobby again. You can’t stop blogging anyway ;), it’s so part of you!

    We live in times in which you normally don’t do the same job for 30 years, and if it’s time for a change, so it is. Don’t worry too much and go ahead with it!

    Love,
    Nina

    Wendy

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations on your new job! I just discovered your blog, so please do keep us posted from time to time. The good news for me is I have many archives to comb through. I’m loving the GLB site, too!

    Andrea

    May 2, 2009

    How about “the son”? “The Husband and the Son”

    Michele

    May 2, 2009

    Congrats Roni! It sounds like a great opportunity that you can’t pass up and it sounds like you are really going to enjoy it. In my opinion, if you really love what you are doing it doesn’t feel like work anyway. You know that feeling every morning of “ugh, do I really have to get up and do this today?”. Kind of like how I feel about my job, lol! :) I look forward to your blogging whenever you have time to do it and I wish you the best of luck in your new job.

    Susan

    May 2, 2009

    Roni, Congrats on the new gig! It sounds as if your decision to re-enter the (non blogging) workforce is one that is well thought out, and truly the right decision for you at this point in time.

    Kuddos, kuddos, kuddos to you for being open to new opportunities! It took and incredible amount of courage to leave your job to begin with and just as much to make the decision to take advantage of what seems like a perfect opportunity.

    Agnes

    May 2, 2009

    Congratulations! I totally understand where you’re coming from. It sounds like you’ve found a great mix…fantastic job and blogging for you (not just for an income). I work in higher ed myself (started at a state university and am now at a community college) and I love the atmosphere! Good luck and keep us posted!

    lunzy

    May 2, 2009

    Congrats Roni! I totally get the whole, HAVE to’s vs. the WANT to’s This sounds like such a wonderful opportunity and a perfect fit. Getting paid to do what you love still, but then still blogging cuz you love it, not cuz you are getting paid. Things always seem to fall into place. Now let’s work on some good House Selling Karma, shall we? ;)

    lisa

    Marília

    May 3, 2009

    Congratulations! I think you are right in every word you wrote. As for me, I used to enjoy your blog even more when you were not under pressure of making business. Also, It is always good to change things in life. Good Luck!

    Melissa

    May 4, 2009

    Congrats, Roni! Sounds like an amazing opportunity and a great experience for you.

    Amy

    May 4, 2009

    Congrats. It sounds perfect. I’m delurking just to echo everyone’s congratulations. I think a lot of small business owners realize something similar: that when you turn a hobby into a job, with the pressure and constrictions that go along with that, it can contaminate the experience. My husband says that even being a fly fishing guide on the Snake River–a fantasy job for him–would eventually become work if he had to do it forty hours a week and if the family depended on the income. I sometimes fantasize about staying home, but I actually love the social interaction and professional challenge of working outside the home now that my kids are older. Your new position sounds amazing. You deserve it, and don’t worry about us, we will keep reading no matter what.

    Congrats Roni!!

    Tania

    May 7, 2009

    OMG, Roni, I’m just catching up with everything. Should be reading Roni’s Weigh more. I’m good at keeping up on Facebook and your podcasts, though.
    Great news all along. I’m looking for a job (don’t have a kid) after studying for a crazy number of years (and I mean crazy!), and I am super excited for you!
    Good thing about GreenLiteBites. Love them.
    First time I heard about the conference. I might even attend; “might” being the operative word.
    About Ryan: my mother never stopped calling me “child” (I’m 41 in October), although I really wouldn’t mind “daughter”.
    Keep up the good work and good luck!

    Marie

    June 4, 2009

    I been reading your blog since you started with weight watchen and I loved it, but there was a point a couple of months ago that it didn’t feel like before. I agree with you when you said “Blogging is fun but since doing it full time it feels different”, I as a reader felt it different too. I am happy for your new job and I can wait to catch up with all your good news! Congratulations!