For those that missed the announcement I was offered a job! Not just any old job but an amazing opportunity at a state university to be an Online Interactive Media and Information Designer. The hours are flexible, the pay is good and the benefits are amazing. This is the type of job I always wanted. A small creative group, working with students and faculty on interesting, creative projects using my skills and experience as an Instructional Technologist and Web Developer. It will be challenging and (I hope) interesting.
But what about the blogs you say? Well not that long ago, about a year if you remember, I was teaching full time at the community college and blogging. At the time I was NOT (in the least bit) enjoying teaching the way I used to and I saw an opportunity to turn the blogs into a business. My logic at the time was simple, I’m making a little money doing it part time, let me try it full time. Full time effort may equal full time income? No??
It’s a year later and I’m still making a little money. I’ve been consulting here and there to supplement the blog income. So in essence I went from a women with a full-time job that blogged part-time to a women who is blogging full time and working part-time. And what did I get along with that shift? Less income, no benefits, more stress (albeit self inflicted) and a crazy schedule.
Don’t get me wrong it’s been fun and the money hasn’t been that big of an issue (luckily I have a husband with a full time job who survived many layoffs). But I miss working. Yikes, did I just say that? I did. I must really be nuts.
But it’s true. Blogging is fun but since doing it full time it feels different. I’m tired of worrying about increasing revenues, and finding new readers. I just don’t want to look at my stats and make business type decisions with the blog anymore. I want it to be the way it used to be… Me.
Me just reacting to life. Me sharing my day, my ideas on how to stay active and live healthier. Probably from your perspective that’s what I’ve been doing but behind the scenes I’m making decisions about ad networks and researching ways to make more money with the blog (so I could stop the part-time work.) I’m worrying about keeping up relationships with PR firms and constantly looking for opportunities to get more exposure. I just don’t want to worry about it anymore, I just want to blog.
When it comes down to it. I’m tired of selling myself and feeling like my livelihood is dependent on whether or not people want to continue reading what I have to say. I much rather the reward be the relationships I make online not the income I can generate from the sites.
What does all this mean? Nothing really. I’m just giving you a bit of what’s been swimming in my head the past few days. I don’t plan on shutting down the blogs. I have no intention to stop blogging. I may have to slow down a bit, of course, but really I think it’s about time. My initial goal with blogging was to journal my weight loss experience. I’ve reached that goal. The blog, in a way, served it purpose. Now my goal is to journal my experience with maintenance, NOT to generate an income. For me, that’s a good change and much more of an exciting prospect.
GreenLiteBites? It will NEVER die. :) It’s my place to share my food ideas. However, I have to admit I’ve been having fewer and fewer of them recently and the pressure to come up with new recipes has been getting to me. I actually hope my return to work will spark some creativity as I’ll have to react to cooking with less time, the way I used to. I’m relieving myself of the pressure of coming with ideas for the sake of coming up with a ideas. I actually had more fun reacting to my pantry, whipping something up and sharing it with you. That’s when I do my best work anyway. :)
The cookbook? It’s still full steam ahead. I now have even more motivation to finish it before I start the new job! So if anything this may be the push I need to get my butt in gear!
The conference? It is also still full steam ahead. It is the only thing I will be doing above and beyond my blogs from this point forward. I know I will not have any time for anything else anyway. (I made more announcements about this on twitter earlier and I’ll be giving more updates later.)
I won’t be starting the new job until June, so I’ll have some time to adjust. I plan on enjoying my last month of self employment and spending even more time with the toddler who will, consequently, be graduating to the kid (or is it the child? the boy??) before the new job official begins.
Writing this has me even more excited about the future. I’ve always been one to enjoy change. I like mixing it up, challenging myself and seeing where opportunities take me. In a weird way it makes me feel alive. If everything stayed the same I’d be bored out of my skull. ;~)
Off tonight to see Wolverine with the husband! Gotta run and get ready.