One Mom’s Journey from Fat to Skinny to Confident

NOTES TO SELF...

Note to self…

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Really… REALLY? Did its taste that good you had to down the whole pint of Ben and Jerry’s. You snuck away to eat it like you used to. What’s the matter with you? First you did awesome out at dinner, saving half your plate and brining it home. Then not even an hour later you devour 900 calories of ice cream?

YOU WEREN’T EVEN HUNGRY!

What ever this funk is that you are in get out of it. Get out of it now.

Tomorrow’s a new day. Get out and run. Clear your head. Prepare for the week. And get a good night sleep.





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    Barb

    February 14, 2009

    Oh, Roni!

    I went through the same thing when I moved late last year. I was overwhelmed by the whole process and turned to food as a comfort, snapped right back into old patterns. It’s one thing knowing the right things to do and another thing to put them into action. I’m just coming out on the other side now. The best thing you can do is acknowledge it and move forward. If I can do it, you certainly can!

    Rooting for you,

    Barbara

    Donna

    February 14, 2009

    Hang in there Roni! I have some extra stress right now and I’ve been using food to calm me down when I get overwhelmed. I know I’m doing it and trying so very hard to distract myself–sometimes I manage through and sometimes not. Third year of maintenance and I’m still fighting those demons. One day at a time–sometimes one hour at a time!

    Elaine

    February 14, 2009

    I love your brutal honesty with not only yourself but your readers. It means a lot to us. I will keep sending you “healthy eating” and “no-stress” vibes all the way from Oklahoma to you!

    kristisummer

    February 14, 2009

    I do it all the time and then say why did I do that. It takes awhile for my brain to catch up to stomach. Don’t beat yourself up. tomorrow is a new day like you said.

    Pubsgal

    February 14, 2009

    Oh, that’s a bummer! I don’t even have the excuse of being tempted by something yummy. I have a cold and lost my sense of taste today, and did that stop me from making some really dumb food choices? Noooooo. The only thing I can figure was that I kept eating in hopes that I would eventually taste something!

    Like many have said, tomorrow’s another day! Hope you hsve great weather and can go for a run.

    Hallie

    February 14, 2009

    As someone who’s also working to maintain weight loss, I really appreciate your honesty with your readers. I am so impressed with everything you do and your marathon training etc., so when you post these “note to self” posts I just think, “look even this person has trouble sometimes.” I know that probably doesn’t help you, but it helps me and for that I thank you. Have a great rest of your night and like you said, tomorrow is a new day.

    Nicole

    February 15, 2009

    Girl we have all found ourselves stirring into the bottom of an empty B&J container, but you recognized where you are at and blogged. You are incredibly brave!!! Hang in there, you have inspired so many to keep going when they fall off, you know you can do it!!!

    Natalia Burleson

    February 15, 2009

    I think it’s safe to say that we have all been there! It’s done, today is new day! :)

    MaryBe

    February 15, 2009

    What flavor was it?

    Nina

    February 15, 2009

    Hey sweetie!

    Been there, done that. Get up on the horse again as soon as you can and relax! Sleep will do the rest for you. You have had those habits for so long, no wonder they come back from time to time.And I really hope it was Phish Food, that’s my favorite! ;9

    Berni

    February 15, 2009

    Ahhh yeah I’m feelin it too…… the whole weekend was a blow out. I wonder “how did that happen? Did aliens take over my body? What was that? Huh?”

    roni

    February 15, 2009

    IT WAS CINNAMON BUN!

    The husband’s who bought it weeks ago and somehow let it sit i the freezer untouched. How does he do that?!? LOL

    I’m feeling better… suiting up for my run…

    I WILL get 5 miles in today!

    SeaShore

    February 15, 2009

    What is it about sneak-eating? Who do we think we’re fooling? We aren’t sneaking it past our own bodies, that’s for sure. I gained 2 lbs since yesterday, so you’re not alone!

    Suzyn

    February 15, 2009

    I read this last night, went to bed, and woke up thinking about it. When I do this kind of thing, it’s because I’m feeling a lot of emotions that I haven’t dealt with, most notable feeling unsafe.

    Maybe you should sit down, examine your feelings, and just BE with them. Live with them for a few days. What are you feeling? With all the house turmoil, I’m betting you’re not feeling safe. Think back to the emotions you felt in the past when you would sneak eat. Then, every time the urge comes up, have a mantra of some sort to tell yourself i.e. “I am safe, everything is fine, everything will be fine.” and breathe through it. And busy yourself (not at all hard for YOU to do lol). This technique has been working wonders for me the last while. Good luck!

    Marisa (trim the fat)

    February 15, 2009

    Roni, I had that same backslide into “the way I used to be” this week (check out my post on Wed. Feb.11). It was a scary feeling. But, I think you’ll realize like I did that the “old you” is never coming back. You have done this for too long and worked much too hard to ever let that happen. As scary as those fallback moments are; that is ALL they are. Just moments. You will come back out of the funk, no doubt, because the “old you” is dead and gone. Hang in there=)

    Mandi

    February 15, 2009

    Roni, I read this last night as well….and I can relate….so much that I could have written it myself. I have such a problem with “sneak” eating. I do so good all day long, I eat really healthy, exercise 7 days a week….but, at night, after everyone else is in bed…I eat…and eat…and eat! I get up out of bed to do this…..it is awful and makes me feel awful. Last night for instance, I got up around midnight…picked at one of those cookie-cakes that I got for my family for Valentines day…I was picking, so it was not like I was eating a whole piece, right!?! Well…it ended up that I probably ate a whole, large piece. then…I already felt bad…so I figured, oh, why not keep going. I got out my fat free double churn Breyers ice cream…granted, it was fat free…but that really does not matter when you are spooning it out of the carton, mindlessly eating. this happens almost nightly. Now, I am not overweight, currently…but i used to be as an early teenager and a child…and weight was up and down in my early 20’s, so when I look in the mirror, I still see that “fat girl” just waiting to take over again. I am currently very healthy, I am 5’5″ , weigh 138 lbs, wear a size 2-4 &my personal trainer measured my body fat percentage with calipers at 16.5%..so I am ok…right now…but it just seems like this is something I can not control and I know it WILL catch up with me…eventually, and that “fat girl” will be right there waiting. I am not hungry when I do it….it is definitely something emotional and psychological and it is a source of constant stress for me. I always feel terrible about it the next morning, and vow not to let it happen again…but then, the next night rolls around and I find myself back in the kitchen, at midnight…once again. It is like a drug…an addiction and I do not know how to stop it.
    Your blog is a constant source of support and inspiration for me. I have never posted a comment before, but this hit too close to home and felt that I needed to “out” myself as well…maybe this will help me…putting it out there for everyone else to know. we shall see….
    Thank you, Roni, for what you give to all of us….you open yourself up and share things, personal struggles….and make it easier for all of us to do the same.
    Let me know if you come up with a solution for “sneak eating”! I will be the first one in line to test it out!
    Thanks…again…!

    Mimi Wan

    February 15, 2009

    I did the same thing last night as well. Luckily it was only 1/2 a pint but nevertheless, I was cooking for friends who brought over 2 pints of ice cream along with a pie. I made them take 1/2 of pie home but they wouldn’t take the ice cream. After being super good and not having that much of an appetite, cooking and all, I sat down with the last bit of wine and chatting with my husband, ate the rest of the coffee oreo ice cream. The challenge was that Sunday is my WW weigh in day, ugh. Up 1.4llbs from the ice cream and some bad episodes with Reese’s peanut butter cups.

    Stacey

    February 15, 2009

    Thank you for being human and honest enough to share that with us…

    rebecca

    February 15, 2009

    it’s so hard to just turn the page, but sounds like you are doing just that. i’ve been down that road too many times, but i’ve learned a lot along the way. and as hard as it is to do, the best thing to do is to do the next. right. thing.

    Krista S.

    February 15, 2009

    I had 800 calories of Cheetos yesterday. =) Oy.

    Lauren

    February 15, 2009

    Oh, man. Cinnamon Bun is so hard to resist. I saw it at the grocery store last night and stared for a full minute before forcing myself away. One bite, and you are hooked. I CERTAINLY DO NOT BLAME YOU.

    Courtney

    February 15, 2009

    I’ve been having so much trouble with late-night snacking lately. I just devour everything in sight, going from crackers to chocolate to the randomest of things in the fridge! Including chocolate sauce. Yeah, the kind you drizzle over ice cream. I squeezed it onto a spoon. How freaking sad is that?!

    But I’m starting a new week. I’m going to try a “Crap Free Week”, which means NO CHOCOLATE WHATSOEVER for the week [among other crap worthy items], and no eating past 8 or 9.

    I know that you can do it. Look how far you’ve come, and what you’ve accomplished? Go back and watch your pull-up video!

    Christie

    February 15, 2009

    I feel the same way today. I ate at Zaxby’s today – which has literally NO healthy options. Even though a big group of us went and the decision to eat there wasn’t mine – I could have eaten better (gosh, a salad maybe?).

    Anyway, nothing I can do about it now. I am going to do some yoga to stretch my tense muscles out and probably do a run/walk on the treadmill. Heres hope that things will look up tomorrow!

    sassyaztec

    February 15, 2009

    I went through the same thing yesterday. We all fall a bit, and just need to get back on it. I wrote about it in my blog too. Mine was pancakes, that was the begining of the end for me on Saturday. But it’s over now and I’m back on track. And you ran 5 mi. today!! Yeah Roni!! (insert me doing backflips here-if I could!)

    sally

    February 16, 2009

    I usually hide if im eating something im “not supposed” to be eating.. I know im doing something i shouldnt be doing but if no one sees it doesnt count lol

    Jessica

    February 16, 2009

    Don’t feel bad! I ate cake mix straight from the box yesterday! Like 3 spoonfuls.

    Carole Hicks

    February 16, 2009

    hi Roni. I’m in a funk. Today I walked for 3 miles and kept track of points for most of day. But missed bootcamp tonight. Oh well, tomorrow is a new day. Thank you for the awesome blog and encouragement. You are so inspiring!

    Diana (Soap & Chocolate)

    February 17, 2009

    Oh man, I have done the same thing many a time, and in the open, too! With company! And it’s ok. I know that for my general health it can’t be a regular thing, but every so often when I’m relaxing with my boyfriend, there is nothing we want to do more than pick up a couple B&J pints and go to town. So we do, and we love it, feel sick afterward, and it takes a while til we would want to do it again. I’ve lost nearly 20 lbs in the past 8 months or so, and it still comes off despite indiscretions like that. Way to confess it! You should feel good knowing we all do the same.

    Colleen

    February 23, 2009

    Hey Roni,
    Just reading through some old posts (I LOVE YOUR SITE), and this really hit home for me. UGH, I have been having TROUBLES the past few days with mindless, crazy eating. This really helped me – thank you so much! I’m so glad to see I’m not the only one, especially with all these great comments too. Makes me feel so much better and more like I can BEAT this! *HUGS TO YOU*