The Weight Watchers receptionist thought I was insane. Unfortunately, the women who weighed me in last week, the one I explained my whole neurotic "don’t show me the number" theory about staying motived, wasn’t there. So I had to explain to another person (who thought I was crazy) about the whole blind weigh-in approach.
I handed her the weight tracker, partially dying to know what was written inside and partially scared to death. WHY?!? It’s only a number on the scale. My clothes fit great. I feel strong. I’m running. Staying active. Eating good. WHY is that STUPID number so FREAKIN’ powerful?
Anyway, I handed it to her. Stepped on the scale. Took a deep breath and looked up.
She says…"I think you may want to see this."
I say, "Are you sure? cause for some reason, I’m totally freaked out right now."
"Take a look."
"Naaa maybe I should wait one more week."
"No, seriously, take a look."
Now I really have no idea what to expect.
The first thing I see is the posted note with last weeks weigh-in. 150.4 pounds. That’s 1.4 pounds over my goal weight. I haven’t see number that high since 1/4/2006! THREE YEARS AGO! HOLY CRAP! I have to admit… it stung. I’m glad I didn’t peak!
Then my eyes slowly shifted over to this weeks weigh-in. 145. 1.8 pounds LESS then what I weighed 2 weeks before Christmas. I was ecstatic! Not because I lost (although that feel REALLY good too) but because I knew it would be ok. I knew that if I disconnected from the scale but kept my accountability I’d be alright.
My three year anniversary of reaching goal is Sunday. I weighed WAY less then goal for a bit and my weight has fluctuated 10 pounds (all under goal except for last week) these passed three years. I’m ecstatic about that too.
Here’s what I learned (or.. well… proved to myself once again)…
- A few days of crap eating will show a much higher number then you "deserve". Your body holds onto a lot of crap, water and waste as it readjusts to you normal healthy eating again. There is no way you gain 5lbs of fat overnight, or even a week (well… at least that REALLY hard :).
- I am able to "recover" from a few days of overindulgence. I feel so much better when I return to "normal" healthy eating.
- I am not perfect, never will be and that is OK. It’s about eating MORE good THAN bad, not eating ALL good and NO bad. (does that make sense? and did I just use THAN correctly?!? Holy CRAP! I better sign off before the pigs fly by window. )
P.S. I updated my Weight Progress if you want to peak at my history a bit.