It’s 6:30AM and I had a minute to write the question of the week. I had no idea I’d go on such a tanget! I have tears steaming down my face after proof reading my own post. Do I even make sense? Boy, I hope so.
I quickly mentioned Oprah’s recent news about how’s she mad at her self for regaining some weight in last weeks Thursday Thoughts post.
"I can’t believe that after all these years, all the things I know how to do, I’m still talking about my weight. I look at my thinner self and think, `How did I let this happen again?’"
The articles states…
Winfrey, an admitted food addict, sounds almost apologetic in her article.
And she does doesn’t she? Oprah talks about being embarrassed. She can’t believe she did it to herself again and that she has fallen off the wagon.
Oprah is the perfect example of why I keep this blog going. I have said ALL of the things she has. I can FEEL her frustration. I know it well, so well it brings tears to my eyes.
"I was so frustrated I started eating whatever I wanted."
I’ve done exactly that too many times to count.
I can’t help myself, I feel like I want to shake her and say "Stop apologizing for your actions! You did it. So WHAT. Accept it. Move on." then slap her across the face, "Now SNAP OUT OF IT!".
I had literally starved myself for four months — not a morsel of food… Two hours after that show, I started eating to celebrate — of course, within two days those jeans no longer fit!
So what happen? First of all, why the HELL (sorry, it needs to be said) did she starve herself? Then she got mad at herself and turned to food instead of starting fresh in the morning with a new healthy choice. Oprah, Oprah, Oprah, you are KILLING ME!
OK that was a total side bar to this weeks question although very relevant. Oprah does sound apologetic doesn’t she? Like she’s saying she’s sorry for struggling with her weight. Why should she apologize? Who is she apologizing to? It doesn’t matter but She’s Oprah for gosh sake?!?
But you see, it’s an attitude. It doesn’t matter who you are, how successful you are in other aspects of life or how much money you make. If you feel sorry for yourself, feel sorry for your body and think you aren’t good enough you are going to do one of two things. Starve yourself or binge. I’m a binger, like Oprah.
I can stand here, on my soap box, and talk about it all day long but I’m guilty of it too. Even some of you guys pointed out in the past that I apologize for things I shouldn’t. I think it comes down to confidence. Many of us start to gain weight because we are insecure. We think are bodies aren’t good enough. We aren’t thin enough. Perfect enough. We don’t look like the women in the magazines. Maybe a family member points this out? Maybe kids at school call you fat? Whatever it is we start to feel ashamed and we start apologizing for who were are and we start medicating ourselves with food. That is EXACTLY what I did.
So I say, there are no more "sorrys". We are who we are! Sure, we can try to be healthier people by changing our diets. We can try to get fitter by getting some exercise in. But I’m here to tell ya, you’ll never get and stay thin if you don’t look in that mirror and love who you are, the way you are, right now. No apologies necessary.
So tell me… Do you apologize for your weight?