I mentioned in my Turkey Day post that I’ve been feeling a bit unmotivated. I’m not sure what it is but body conscious issues are creeping back into my brain. The good healthy decisions that seem so easy the past few years are getting harder and harder to make and I just feel…. well… blech. That’s about the only way I can describe it.
Trying hard to ward off these feelings AND come up with an idea for this weekend’s quote I remembered something I read on Mark Salinas’ blog last week. It was a quote by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross and although it’s not specifically about weight loss I believe it’s very poignant…
It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had.
When I first read that I nodded and thought, how true! I think we get so caught up in the daily grind that we forget that our time here is quite limited. Why do we want to waste it worrying about getting to a specific number on the scale and fitting into a certain size dress? How does that REALLY matter in the grand scheme of things. Are we really going to let things like that get in the way of enjoying the little bit of time we have here on earth?
I think that’s why having a child was such a life changing event for me. It really made me aware of my own mortality. I wasn’t a kid anymore. I now had a child of my own and I didn’t want to miss a thing! I especially didn’t want my poor body image to get in the way. I mean really, in the grand scheme of things does it matter if I’m a size 4 or 14? Either way that baby is going to grow up. He’s going to want me to play with him. He’s going to want to go into the ocean, jump in a pool, run in the backyard and I WANT to enjoy that time with him. I spent too many years not doing things I wanted to because I didn’t like my body and my child deserved more then that. I deserved more then that.
Having "The toddler" was the moment I came to "truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth". For me, living life to the fullest means doing all the things I wanted to do without fear that I’m going to "look fat". It means, learning how to have a good relationship with food and eating things that are good for my body. Finally it means using this healthy body I’m lucky enough to be blessed with. One day, I may not be so lucky. Actually, one day I KNOW I won’t be this lucky. That’s why this quote spoke volumes to me.
I hope I didn’t get too deep for ya this evening. :~) I’ve been in a pretty reflective mood recently. Sometimes I have to remind myself how far I’ve come and what’s really important to me.