Last week I weighed in for the first time in weeks and I was happy that my weight was still within a very respectable maintainer range. I’m not quite sure why this surprised me, my clothes all fit great. I’m working out like a madwomen. I’m even training for the relay.
It’s so funny that I still grapple with the thought that somehow I’m going to gain 50lbs overnight. Like that the cheesecake I ate this weekend will translate into at least a 5 lb gain. It’s like I ignore the fact that I workout 4-5 days a week, HARD. That I can easily run 3-4 miles and that I’m consciously aware of everything I put in my mouth. I am not at all the same person I was 5 years ago. I can say confidently that I’m in the best shape of my life. I truly have changed my (sorry, I have to use it) lifestyle.
Why did all these feelings come to the surface tonight? Well, I weighed in again this morning and the scale showed a 1.2 loss. I was shocked. Then I had a long talk with myself which ended with a one statement….
Trust yourself. You are doing it and you will continue to.
OK, enough soul searching and back patting. I have a big decision to make. Well I guess it’s not "big" per say but definitely FUN. I just found out the Food Network is doing an open casting for the Next Food Network Star this friday! It’s only an hour from my house and I’m seriously considering going.
I’m not sure I have what it takes but I love working on GreenLiteBites, I’m fairly obsessed with food and I LOVE to cook, so why not, right? RIGHT? OK, I’m trying to convince myself.
The life lover in me is screaming "YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE! GO" The negative nilly is saying, "Why bother, you have so much work to do and you chances are pretty slim anyway."
I guess this is were I ask what you think. Although I have a feeling all comments will tell me to go as it’s the "nice" thing to say. Is anyone willing to be really truthful and tell me I’m crazy? If I decide to go I have a lot of work ahead of me to get ready! I better run!
I can’t focus anyway, the only thing swimming in my head right now is… "What’s my culinary point of view???" LMAO