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Am I crazy? A self-help attempt of dealing with lost work.

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Did you every have a moment were you truly thought you were going insane? Maybe you swear you had a conversation with someone and came to a decision only to find weeks later that the person doesn’t remember or thought a different conclusion was made. Or sometimes just knowing you put something somewhere but then not being to find it.

Well, I think I’m going insane. :~)

You guys know I’m working on the cookbook, right? Well a few weeks ago I made some great progress. I finished the first chapter had the entire outline complete and even wrote out introductions for at least 90% of the recipes. I was ecstatic and I really liked the way the book was coming together

So Wednesday I wanted to show my progress to "the designer", my friend who’s helping with the layout. I brought up the file and it was empty. Not empty per say but it had my last draft in it, the one before I made all the additions a few weeks back.

"Hmpf", I thought, and told him I’d email to him later. I figured I must have done a save as or at worst I’d just have to go through my backups and find the file the day I was working on it.

So that’s what I did last night. I was starting to feel motivated to work on it so I dug around on the computer. It had to be there right? I’m not crazy, RIGHT?

Well, it’s not. And really I mean it is NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!

I search through my backups, every document on my computer. It’s like I never did it.

Maybe I imagined it? Did I accidently trash it? Are the little time sucker trolls sabotage me?


I hate when things like this happen for the pure fact that I want, I NEED an explanation. That’s just the type of person I am.

So I cried myself to sleep on the husbands shoulder last night and woke up this morning a little upset but overall ready to face the fact that it’s gone.


I will rewrite. I’m just so MAD. Mostly because I LOVED what I did. Of course I can’t remember why or exactly what I wrote. I just remember being really happy with it.

Ok, enough. It’s gone.

It happened. I’ll deal.

Moving on.

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    October 24, 2008

    Been there. Done that. It sucks! I hope that everything comes to you as you are typing and it turns out even better than the first time!

    It IS going to be a GREAT day! Don’t stress too much :) You will be fine!

    Check out Robins last blog post..Robyn


    October 24, 2008

    If you have forty bucks that isn’t working too hard, and you can remember at least part of the filename, there’s a program called “Uneraser” that may be able to pull up the file if you deleted it. You can download the trial version and see if it finds the file, then pay for the full in order to retrieve it. (I myself ultimately decided to just redo the work, but I FEEL YOUR PAIN. Trust me.)


    October 24, 2008

    OMG to lose all that work…I am so sorry. Will keep my fingers crossed that it comes up in a random file somewhere.

    (PS I have had really vivid dreams like that…is it possible that you…no nevermind!)

    Check out MaryBs last blog post..Sigg Water Bottles?


    October 24, 2008

    Maybe your best work is yet to come?????? Otherwise get out the 40$ and hook up with sillycakes! :) I work the best under complete pressure and strain….it is possible that you could whip up a masterpiece!!! I am sorry for your loss and your feeling for insanity.


    October 24, 2008

    Did you maybe save it as a temp file? That happens to me ALL the time! My lifesaver? Flashdrive.


    October 24, 2008

    I’m an author, and like the poster above I’ve also been there, done that.

    If you end up having to rewrite, most of the time the recreated version is EVEN BETTER than the first version.


    October 24, 2008

    OMG Roni, I’ve been there as well and it makes you feel so horrible. Hopefully you will find the file…


    October 24, 2008

    Oh Roni you poor thing…have you checked in your recycle bin or trashcan? maybe you deleted it by accident. If not…just remember everything happens for a reason. I know its a cliche but it really does. And although you may be completely frustrated now there is a reason for this.



    October 24, 2008

    that does really suck. a friend of mine in college had a 10pg paper due and she had called me around 10pm the night before and was freaking out that 7pgs of work had disappeared. She called begging me for help even though I was states away. Somehow she managed to rewrite it and did well. So you’re not the only one where things disappear! Good luck on the rewrite! Perhaps you’ll think of even better things to add this time around and love it even more than the first draft. :)

    Check out EmmaElizabeths last blog post..Protected: you need a password.. because I feel like a bitch in this one.


    October 24, 2008


    That sucks!

    It can’t be! Why would you trash it? I assume you did tons of searches on your computer, not just looking around — maybe it’s buried in a folder? I do that all the time…


    October 24, 2008

    Oh, Roni, I know how you feel. In my senior year of college, I lost my honors thesis when my hard drive crashed. I had over half of it written, and because I hadn’t backed up my hard drive, it was gone, along with all my family photos and music. It sucks, but it’s something you can work from. And who knows, maybe in rewriting you’ll come up with something even better!!

    Check out Ashleys last blog post..Gratitude.


    October 24, 2008

    Man, its hard for me to ‘get over it’ when that kind of thing happens! I got no advice for you cause I know you know computers 100X better than I do. But I have confidence in you that you will be able to do the same or even better. Still… ooooh, this kind of thing REALLY gets to me.

    Check out debbys last blog post..After Travel Thoughts


    October 24, 2008

    Like all of the posters here, I can definitely relate. I’m so sorry you lost all of your hard work. :-( You are very talented, and extremely determined so I’m sure you’ll create your very best. You always do. :-)


    October 24, 2008

    If you were using Word, go to the pulldown under the File menu and see if you see it listed at the bottom where it lists recently worked on/saved files. If it’s not there, it might not have gotten saved. I’ve done similar things where I worked on something, got distracted, closed out and forgot to save (but thought I had…so annoying!). Like others said, check your trash folder!

    Also, from what we talked about at the audition, check out Createspace…I ran the numbers and I’m probably going to move my book from Lulu to Createspace because I can charge the same as before Lulu jacked up the prices.

    p.s. Don’t know if you noticed, but they posted your Food Network audition on the NFNS page on the site where people can post their auditions so I watched it – cute!


    October 24, 2008

    That sucks so much :( I hope you can find it!

    Check out maggies last blog post..Oats, stirfry, repeat


    October 24, 2008

    So sorry that happened Roni! But I’ve been there too!

    I was editing this huge book for a client as a side project. I wanted to impress him with how quickly I could turn things around for him.

    So I spent about 6 hours, on a Sunday mind you, and got the first round of edits complete in order to email them the next day.

    I shut down the computer, and then in the morning got set to email it and the ONLY THING THERE WAS HIS ORIGINAL DOCUMENT! OMG, I definitely cried over that one!

    Even my computer guru husband couldn’t find it! I was like WTF? Where could 6 hours of work gone!

    Hang in there though – its Friday – make some pizza, you’ll feel better!

    Check out Bizs last blog post..Happy Friday and Happy Birthday!


    October 24, 2008

    o my i would be so so mad too =(!!! use the frustration to get your creative juices rolling even more, and write even better than last time!! i bet you will =D!!

    Check out madisons last blog post..bite of pizza > slice of pizza

    Charlie Hills

    October 25, 2008

    I think what happened to you, Biz, is you opened up the attachment to the email and started editing that file. When you open an attachment, a temporary copy is created. When you edit that, it saves it to your windows temp folder, which is not good. It may have been buried there for a while, but certainly would not have shown up in the “original” document.

    Roni, have you checked temp folders? Even for something named completely different? If you do a full search for *.* (can’t count on the file name) during that time period, across the entire drive, with as much “don’t hide hidden files” stuff, you might come up with something.

    Check out Charlie Hillss last blog post..Dear Subway

    Emma B

    October 27, 2008

    Hi Roni,

    How frustrating!! One last place to check… If i save down a file that I’ve say, downloaded online, my pc has this default place it likes to sometimes hide stuff. You know if you absent minded just hit save without checking what folder it might be going to. Here’s the thing though – I’ve made a note of that place and tried to get there drilling down through the My Computer, and it’s impossible. The way I’ve found that hidden folder is to attempt a bogus saving of a file, and hey presto all sorts of attachments from emails and stuff I’ve viewed in the past have come up sitting there.

    Sorry this may not have made sense but give it a go and you may find some hidden treasures. Feel free to email me if you want me to explain it better. Good luck!