I have huge fibroids and there is a chance I will have to have a hysterectomy. I think if that occurs I will investigate the option of getting a two-fer. Anyway, I’m thinking. THINKING.

It took my years to decide, and more years than that to save the money. I am 2 weeks post-op and for the first time in my whole adult life, I have a woman’s chest. It was a huge decision for me. I spent many nights crying over the thought of having breast implants and being “one of those women”. After researching the procedure and speaking with the surgeon, my view on the process and having implants has taken a whole new light.

For me, it is not about showing them off or being perfect – it was about being normal. For the first time!

I am so proud of myself for overcoming my fears and reservations, and implant-prejudices, to obtain a new outlook on life and invest in myself. I can’t tell you how much I look forward to living with no breast discomfort. I am proud of you for taking your life and comfort into your own hands as well. Hurrah!

There are two sides to PS. Yes, the devil and angel. I’ve decided that I will listen to both (foolish not to), make my decision (as I did) then… get on w/life.

For me (may not be for others), what that means is to put a limit on obsessing over results, comparisons and ongoing quests for perfection. That limit is as different for each of us as we are from each other. Only we can access our own. As they say, everything in moderation. Perfection is a foolish quest.

We all want to be happy, comfortable and confident. However, there are much greater things to serve than ourselves. I find that pursuing those make me as happy if not more happy than focusing on me. It just takes a little more effort to turn away from my own issues. Like a camera refocusing as you site various targets.

I think of some great people I know, love and admire. They are not perfect, just human. Many could stand major PS. But, their personalities have transcended their physical flaws. And, their imperfections make them who they are.

Bottom line, self-focus in moderation is the key, I believe, to our searching.

God bless all here.

Also interestingly they did a follow up episode talking about it where they revealed that Kate had also had the side liposuction done at the time of the surgery to prevent the little pooches that you are having removed. They showed what her tummy looks like one year later and the results of having both procedures. Don’t know if you caught it but I thought hearing about your own experiences and seeing this woman’s actually on screen was a good litmus test/comparison of what a difference it can make.

“but I guess that’s the negative side of a public blog, huh :)”

That it is but I’m not sure it’s a negative. :~)

And as I said, I welcome opinions, if I didn’t I wouldn’t bother blogging. This post was just more of a me spilling my guts about the decision. Next week I think I post plastic surgery as the question of the week so we can have a discussion about it. What do you think?

Thanks for commenting!

I’m just really glad someone else said that, because I always think the same thing!

This is no way a bash to you Roni. I understand that topics like this are personal to you, so negative opinions can hurt, but I guess that’s the negative side of a public blog, huh :)

Good luck with everything!

That being said sometimes different opinions do sting as I am getting really personal. However, I do open myself up to them.

This blog is really a personal journal made public so sometimes I just vent or rationalize for myself while letting others in. That sometimes doesn’t make a good forum for healthy debate. KWIM?

Tessie – I do know! :~)