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Somber Sunday

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I really wish I could report another Sensational Sunday but I’ve been really down in the dumps all day. I tried so hard to get motivated. I blasted happy music, I cooked with the toddler even experimented in the kitchen (I almost nailed the homemade whole wheat pizza dough) but I couldn’t fight off the blues.

Needles to say with my unhappy demeanor came some overeating. Or was it the overeating that caused my unhappiness?? Those two things seem to go hand in hand with me.

Actually now that I think of it my slip ups started Friday night and just got progressively worse throughout the weekend. Here’s a recap…

Friday – Started great, then pizza for lunch, pizza for dinner and candy at the movies with the girls.  
Saturday – Had a great workout in the morning, ate good food all day and then totally lost is with Swedish fish  Berger Cookies at night. I just couldn’t stop!
Sunday – Felt blue all day, ate horribly, sugar overload just couldn’t get happy.

I’m wondering if my bad mood steams from 3 days of increased bad carb and sugar intake? Or is it just guilt of eating badly?

I’m thinking it’s the diet. According the an article entitled Sugar rush,

Too much sugar can cause a condition she calls sugar shock, a "mood-damaging, personality-bending, health-destroying, confusion-creating constellation of symptoms." Those symptoms include depression, anxiety, forgetfulness, temper outbursts and blurred vision.

Isn’t this the cycle we get ourselves in. Eat bad, get depressed, eat more, get more depressed. Well maybe it’s not the guilt factor that causes the cycle maybe it’s the food itself.  Scary, right?

WOW Just writing this out and pondering a bit makes me feel a little better. I’m facing it and I’m moving on. Tomorrow is a new day! If ‘bad’ food makes me feel bad then let’s see how ‘good’ food effects me tomorrow!

Small updates: I posted a new video (yes the toddler is in this one!) and recipe on GreenLiteBites.




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    undergrad mind

    January 13, 2008

    Sorry to hear that you had a bad weekend. I don’t doubt that the carbs and sugar could be giving you the blues, but the whole article is a little over the top. It makes sugar sound like cyanide!

    anonymouse

    January 14, 2008

    I’m mildly bipolar and have post-prandial hypoglycemia, so I know about mood swings and getting very hungry, although they are from different causes. Eating a lot of sugar does affect me, but I still have problems even when I eat perfectly well. I hope your blues go away tomorrow.

    Swizzlepop

    January 14, 2008

    Thank you for posting that, it explains so much for me. I too have been on the funk fence for a few days and that quote says it all. I never eat candy on a daily basis yet I did it for over a week. And I too had a “somber Sunday.” Tomorrow is a new day and I’m going to remember your post when I start my day.

    PS
    I had 2 more tortilla pizzas today. I think I may be addicted LOL. Good thing they are WW friendly because I totally feel like I’m pigging out when I’m eating them.
    Hope you feel better tomorrow!

    Dani Spies

    January 14, 2008

    Fine line…food then mood or mood then food.
    Initially I think it is mood then food…in other words, what is taking place to initiate the cause of “giving the extra permission” or “losing sight of the bigger picture”…what ultimately makes you feel happy (not cookies, but good health and control over your decisions).
    BUT once the slip takes place, I think it is the imbalance that the foods create in your “normally” healthy system that creates the snow ball effect of continuing the bad eating over a few days.
    If I could share one tip it would be this, “Remember to study yourself! Use these experiences as an opportunity to better know and learn what is taking place for you without judgment!!”
    This will not only help you to understand what you need to do but it will allow you to continue to inspire and teach all the people that admire you and come to your blog on a regular basis.
    Don’t be too hard on yourself…just like the highs, the struggles are an equally important part of you journey.
    Keep on keepin’ on, Roni!
    xo

    Kendra

    January 14, 2008

    I’ve known for a long time that sugar is evil, in excess. I had a tad bit too much yesterday and I could almost feel it immediately. In fact, although your post was way more informative, I kind of felt like what I wrote, went with your post. :)

    Kathy

    January 14, 2008

    You need some more pressure? I have vowed not to have pizza again until Roni comes up with that whole wheat pizza dough recipe she keeps promising! I’m sick and tired of lousy pizza and am holding my breath…well, at least breathing in a shallow manner…until you come up with it! lol

    RunningNan

    January 14, 2008

    Omigod. I could’ve written this article, with the exception that I didn’t eat all that badly. I only over ate by a few hundred calories, but it was all healthy stuff. But the “down in the dumps” part, totally me. I threw myself a pity party on saturday and cleared out my DVR. The mood wasn’t better on Sunday, so I got some flowers, and went and saw dad. Cried it out for 1 minute, then met my mom for dinner. Still kinda blue, but feeling a little better.

    I hope you are feeling better today!

    Tanya

    January 14, 2008

    I am sorry that you are feel blue Roni. I am hopeful today is a better one for you. If not, don’t be too hard on yourself.

    I am very excited to hear that you may have nailed the whole wheat pizza dough. I can only find it in one grocery store around where I live. I would love to have the ingredients on hand to make it when I want it. That Stromboli of yours is addictive!

    Take it easy…

    Caroline

    January 14, 2008

    This post clarifies for me what effects sugar can indeed have. You’ve articulated it so well.

    Love your blog, btw, it’s such an inspiration.

    casmommy

    January 14, 2008

    Its funny how once you get the junk out of your system, you start to realize how bad it can make you feel. Most Americans are so tuned out when it comes to our bodies that we don’t even hear the signals. During weight loss, its usually all about taking off the pounds, but once you’ve been eating healthy for awhile, you realize how bad junky food can make you feel. This is compounded if you also eat organic and cut out processed food and start to remember how real food is supposed to taste. I think a turning pt. for me was once i had lost the weight and realized, hey I’m not *treating* myself when I eat junk, b/c it makes me feel like crap! We all have our slip-ups….tomorrow is another day!

    Jillian

    January 14, 2008

    it wouldn’t surprise me too much if it was the sugar. i have found, and my dr agrees, that when i eat sugar it totally aggravates my arthritis. I wake up the next day and am so stiff!! He says it’s amazing what you put into your body can do to it!

    GraciesMommy

    January 14, 2008

    It was my husband’s birthday Friday so basically the whole weekend was shot for me too! I’m glad I wasn’t the only one. But it’s the start of a new week, right? :) We can get back on track and start it over.

    Anonymous

    January 14, 2008

    I have a hard time with sugar myself. Once I start it is hard for me to stop. I don’t remember being like that prior to losing wt. but then again I didn’t pay attention I just ate.LOL. I have never been a candy person but ever since my kids brought home halloween candy I have been getting into it daily. I kept thinking that “one piece won’t hurt” well last week I made a vow to myself NO more candy. I know that all those kisses are adding up. I write at the top of my journal in the morning, I will not eat candy today. This has actually helped me. I still have my treat at night but I am allowing for it. Thanks as always for being so candid. You are not alone in your struggles.
    Rebecca

    kristina

    January 14, 2008

    WOW, i had the same Sunday night experience..I agree with you on how the sugar affects your mood! Ive had a headache (partly b/c its that time of the month) but also because of finishing off all of the chocolate in the house and feeling like i HAD to have one soft cheesy tortilla with Sharp cheese and one Crunchy one in the toaster oven to finish. ugh! New day!

    HappyBlogChick

    January 14, 2008

    Wow, that’s incredible info. Thanks for sharing.

    Based on that, there’s no doubt you’ll be feeling better again very soon.

    totegirl

    January 14, 2008

    It’s a vicious circle, isn’t it Roni? But yes, eating clean will lift up the blues! At least I hope so. I just had a handful of Jordan Almonds, and now I’m feeling sorta blue my own self. Time for some broccoli therapy!

    And yes, you read it correctly, I do NOT love cinnamon rolls. My vice is chips & salsa!

    Get back on that clean eating wagon, and make room for me!

    Ashley

    January 14, 2008

    I am so sorry for your schlump. I was just in one- the cycle of eating bad and feeling bad. Sometimes it’s hard, and added stress doesn’t help. Have you exercised? That helped me feel better almost suddenly. Either way, feel better soon!

    Calyn

    January 14, 2008

    I have missed you so much! Sorry u had such a bad weekend… I am with u on the bad weekend part but mine is for a very different reason! Keep ur head up ((hugs))

    Randy

    January 14, 2008

    Wow…congratulations on your success and for having a great tool for others. I would love to send you some info on AVO…I havent launched the product yet, but would love to get some feed back.
    thanks
    Randy

    Anonymous

    January 14, 2008

    Roni,,Sorry about your blues,,perhaps getting back to the routine,,after the holiday time off,,its getting to you a bit,,I think you in Maryland have some of the BEST goodies in the USA.(you poor thing).I told you I got my Smidgen order,and I have only had one a night,,but a few days before Christmas I OD’ed on Sugar cookies,,and felt HORRIBLE,,from the sugar rush,,it even affected my sleeping,,I did this for 3 days,,then got back in control.I think one of the hardest things is when you eat,,out or non “on plan” foods..its really hard to discipline yourself back to the plan,,I think for me its really better and easier just to remain on the program…Hang in there,,you have a lot of support!

    Suzan

    hec684

    January 14, 2008

    I absolutely love reading your blog. I check in every night to get updated on how your life is going. It’s so inspiring to see someone who has come so far but still falls of the wagon sometimes. I had a bad weekend too but I am back on track today!!! (And feeling much better about myself too.) We’ll see how weigh in goes though! Keep your fingers crossed.

    noelle

    January 15, 2008

    Overloading on carbs will totally do that to me too. And in the same way you described. A little too much one day leads to a little more the next day and the next day til I feel out of control and just awful about myself.

    BTW, I told Kathy I already have a great WW pizza crust from allrecipes!