This post is going to try to be too many things but I don’t care. I’ve been getting so many emails and comments asking about slumps and binge eating it deserves a rant. Even if it’s an illogical one.
Jennifer commented the other day…
…my cycle right now is: gain back a few pounds, get depressed, eat more, drink more out of depression, gain more, feel more hopeless, eat more/drink more out of depression, etc.
Did you ever go through this?
Oh My GOD Ummm YES!! For years I was trapped in that cycle. I’m not even exaggerating when I say years. The cycle started before High School and I didn’t break it until I had my son at the age of 29.
I may have broke the cycle but I still struggle with eating issues. I’m not a doctor and I was never diagnosed with a binge eating disorder but it seems pretty clear to me. I was a binge eater. According to ahealth.com most people with serious binge eating problems have:
- Frequent episodes of eating what others would consider an abnormally large amount of food.
- Frequent feelings of being unable to control what or how much is being eaten.
- Several of these behaviors or feelings:
- Eating much more rapidly than usual.
- Eating until uncomfortably full.
- Eating large amounts of food, even when not physically hungry.
- Eating alone out of embarrassment at the quantity of food being eaten.
- Feelings of disgust, depression, or guilt after overeating.
I pass this test with flying colors… flying bright fluorescent saturated colors.
Why? Why do some of us do this? I’ve asked myself that a million times and I still don’t really know the answer. All I do know is I ate when I was sad, I ate when I was happy, I ate to celebrate and to sooth depression. Eating just seems to fill a void for me.
Some people call it emotional eating. I agree. The funny this is most of the time I was eating because I was depressed about eating too much the day before. I was eating because I didn’t like the body I was in. It’s so illogical.
In my opinion, and experience, people who have these tendencies never really get over it. I know I haven’t. I still have “relapses”. Even tonight, I “pigged out” on squash fries. That’s right, squash fries. Don’t chuckle, it true. I was feeling down. It was just the toddler and I after work, I was lonely, overwhelmed, trying to get too many things done at one time (like usual) and so I ate.
Notice what I ate, not pizza, not French fries, not overstuffed Italian subs, cheeseburgers, Stromboli, wings, fried chicken tender or anything else I used to binge on. I chose to indulge my emotional eating binge on a winter squash. Do you know how hard it is to overeat squash? 300 calories of the stuff and you are way past the point of fullness and entering the uncomfortable stomach feeling. Believe me I know.
Now I’m not condoning this type of overeating behavior, but sometimes if you can’t change something you need to make it work. I don’t think I’ll ever not be an emotional eater so I changed what I eat. It works for me. Sometimes food really does comfort.
|Morning Scale Reading: 142|
|Whole Grain Waffles||4|
|2 Halloween Brownie Bites||1|
|Large veggie chili from college cafeteria and a bad of baked chips (total estimate)||6|
|Pork loin, more Delicata Steak Fries and Butternut Squash Fries then I’d like to admit and a side of broccoli||10|
|blue corn chips and bean dip||4|
|Daily Activity Log|
|25 minutes on treadmill & lower body circuit|