One Mom’s Journey from Fat to Skinny to Confident


Conscious Eating and a Sensational Sunday

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I am sitting here with that gross overstuffed feeling.  Why? Why? Why am I doing this to myself?  I’ve been totally out of control on the eating front since Thursday.  Whoever told me to throw away the Girl Scout cookies was TOTALLY right.

I made a commitment to stay true to the blog so here goes…

Last night I proceeded to eat an entire sleeve of thin mints.  That’s right, one half of the box! I wasn’t hungry and I wouldn’t called it mindless eating. It was conscious eating. I was totally aware of what I was doing. I just didn’t care. I wanted them.

As if that wasn’t enough tonight I ate an entire bag of baked chips. And I’m not talking the small 2 serving type bags.

These are only 2 examples of my overeating splurges. There were more.

What is wrong with me?

I seem to be in the bad pattern of starting each day off awesome and then totally falling apart by bedtime.

However, I am NOT letting this ruin my Sensation Sunday.  I still had an awesome day, got tons of things done, spent time with the family and got to the gym. 

Ryan with muffinsThe day started with a fresh double batch of Whole Wheat Banana Nut Muffins baked with the toddler.  I love the fact that he is showing interest in helping me cook again.  I give him a bowl with some flour and spices allowing him to mix along side me. SO MUCH FUN!

After breakfast, we, of course, danced around the house and cleaned up.  Then it was off to the gym for my date with the wall.  Even though I reached my goal, I know I need practice. And I was right, I couldn’t do it a second time.  I climbed my heart out but my muscles just gave.  I’m not worried, I’ll get it again.  It’s tough! But a workout I love to do.  Speaking of workouts, even though my eating is out of control I’ve been  hitting the gym hard.  I almost feel as though I’m trying to counteract all the bad eating with exercise. 

Getting back to my Sunday, after working out the toddler and I hit the grocery store for weekly supplies.  I bought the biggest Butternut squash EVER! There is enough squash for about 3-4 trays of Butternut Squash Fries plus I experimented today and made a Butternut Apple Pear soup.  I’ll post it later in the week when I have a bit more time.

Let’s see, other things on this Sensational Sunday worth mentioning….  The family went for a short walk after dinner.  We hit a local Barnes and Nobles for new books and now It’s about time to finish the laundry.  Ahhhh  good old Sundays. 

Back to the out of control eating thing, I know all I need is a good day on plan. I also know I haven’t been drinking enough water.  So tomorrow’s goals…

  • 20 points
  • More water, a lot more water
  • Meals planned (off to do that now)
  • More fruits and Veggies

I rambled, vented, confessed and chatted enough.  I’m off to plan.  Hope you had a great weekend! I’ll be back tomorrow to post my sucessful day on plan!

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    October 28, 2007

    Have you adjusted your points since you’ve been working out? If not, your ‘binge/conscious’ eating is probably telling you your body needs more food. Maybe not thin mints, but more carbs or something. I don’t think you can sustain 25-30pt days when you’re doing 4-600 cal workouts. Just my tow cents. I love your blog and find ittotally inspiring.


    October 29, 2007

    I get like that about a week before my menstrual cycle…just can’t get enough of sweets than salt.

    Just some “food” for thought.


    October 29, 2007

    “I am sitting here with that gross overstuffed feeling. Why? Why? Why am I doing this to myself? “
    Feel like that all the time.

    Last night I proceeded to eat an entire sleeve of thin mints.
    Been there dont that…

    Dont beat your self up about this. Today is a new day.


    October 29, 2007

    I just found your blog and also find it amazingly inspiring.

    I too find that I start off the mornings great! and then by dinnertime I’m guessing point values and eating second helpings. Of course this is a pattern I’ve seen many times before…maybe planning meals will help as you point out in your goals. Something to think about.

    Thanks for a great blog!


    October 29, 2007

    Roni…your weekend sounds like mine. I ate just like you, all weekend. At night my stomach was just aching from so much food! Tell you what… I challenge you! Lets both stay on plan this week!


    October 29, 2007

    girl scout cookies are the worst, and we’ve all definitely been there. i literally can’t stop when i’m eating thin mints. but don’t beat yourself up about. just move on and try to treat yourself better today.


    October 29, 2007

    Sorry about your eating drama – of course, I’ve been there. Something that works for me – I write down my daily menu in the morning – every morning. That way, there is no “what will I eat for dinner?” or “I’ll just have a bite of that.” I really try to stay true to the plan all day and it is working for me. I also agree with what kellyhal said in the first comment – you may just need to increase your overall point total. You’re working out hard and you appear to be at a weight that is perfectly appropriate for your height – at the low end, even. Is your goal to keep losing or to maintain? If you’re maintaining, then maybe you SHOULD eat more – but slow down on the thin mints. And just a word on the thin mints – has anyone had those outrageous chocolate mint cookies that come in the shiny colored tins at Costco? OMG – beware. BETTER than thin mints. Sorry – I couldn’t resist. Good luck, Roni – you’re doing great.


    October 29, 2007

    I had to laugh at your “binge eating issue” I go through that myself every month right before my period. I eat healthy & exercise regularly but for 1 week my mind & body is taken over by an unknown force & I consume everything in my path. I know it’s happening but it’s as if I have lost control. I do try to get to the gym for more cardio & that seems to help control any damage and then get right back on track once “the force” has finished. Hang in there!

    Crabby McSlacker

    October 29, 2007

    I think it’s so great that you post about the slip ups (which we ALL are guilty of) and not just the great days. Part of long term success is recovering from the inevitable out-of-control moments.

    And Girl Scout Cookies? Talk about provocation.

    I bet, with the large number of people who enjoy reading your blog, that you’ve helped a lot of people with this post. We need to realize that we’re all human, and there’s no point in a lot of guilt and self-loathing when we overindulge. You just get back on track the next day.

    Thanks for this!


    October 29, 2007

    Hey Roni,

    Thank you for posting your bad days too! Since you always post them, I thought it would make you feel better to see someone post them right back at ya. I had a bad week last week, and one day consisted of:
    Mcdonalds quarter pounder and fries
    followed by Cold Stone, and then a jar of peanut butter and a teaspoon .. *putting my head down in shame*.

    Hope anyone reading this can feel less alone when they’re over eating! I know it helps me feel better. I’m back on track starting today. I didn’t lose 40 pounds just to gain it back!



    October 29, 2007

    Your blog is very inspiring to me. I always think “See, even Roni has bad days where she eats out of control”. I look at you at your goal trying to live your life normally and maintain, which is where I’m at. Thanks for being so honest with us!


    October 29, 2007

    Hello. Just noticing a couple things .. =) You have been talking alot about working out at the gym much more than normal and working out hard, your body is trying to tell you it needs more sustenance. You are hungry. Your body is trying to build your muscles, make you stronger. It can’t do that if you don’t feed it enough. And another thing I kind of connected .. when you eat your egg omlett thingy you tend to eat less during the day. When you start your day with more carbs, at least it seems to me, that you eat more throughout the day. Just a thought. =)

    Move on, you can and you will.


    October 29, 2007

    First thanks also for posting good and bad days we all have them and need to realize no one is perfect. My opinion on the binging is this. How close is TOM? I get like this every month about 10 days before I am going to start. My weight always goes up even when I don’t give in to my hunger. I never paid attention until I started to weigh every day and then I realized it was the same week every month that the hunger went up and so did my weight. As soon as my period starts my weight and the cravings go down.


    October 29, 2007

    Wow, a friend just forwarded me your link and can I just say how inspirational? I plan to continue reading. I’ve just started Weight Watchers and have 30 pounds to go to reach my goal weight.


    October 29, 2007

    I just found your site while searching for points for WW. I also sent your site to a girlfriend of mine who’s also doing WW. I think we have added you to your Google Reader!

    Thanks for the inspiration and keep up the awesome work!


    October 29, 2007

    every since a co-worker recommended your blog site, i’ve found you truly inspirational and motivating. i do really good during the day, while I’m at work, even when I go out to lunch and pretty much stay on track, but towards the late evening, when I’m settling down for the day and watching t.v., I get these HHUUGGEE urges to just munch out. Sometimes I can get past it, but there are times, that I just can’t.


    October 29, 2007

    Would making a commitment to go to weigh-ins more regularly help? (I am not from WW :)!) I know you already have done so amazingly well with all your commitments (gym, journaling, stepping on the scale in the morning), but I just observed that you seem to have dropped off in sept and oct compared to earlier periods. You remain an inspiration to us all.


    October 29, 2007

    Thank you for being so honest. It does my heart good to know that you can be healthy and fit and slip up occasionally. I’ve just got to graduate from “all of the time” to “Occasionally.”