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Insane, Sick, Tired and the big "D"

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My husband said something to me this weekend that got me thinking.

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
-Albert Einstein.  

This was in reference to my trying to get him to eat healthier.  It is small bone of contention between us.  I’m at a point were I don’t want any junk food in the house especially with a toddler around.  I can’t handle the soda, chips, krimpits, Oreos, chocolate cupcakes, Starbursts, and Swedish fish.  Yes all of these things are in my house right now! He’s a bit of a junk food junky now that I think of it. He doesn’t have a weight problem but we all know body weight isn’t the only indication of health.

Now don’t get me wrong I’m not against the occasional splurge and treat (wait until you hear about my disastrous weekend) but why surround yourself with this unhealthy stuff all the time.  I buy tons of fruit and healthy snacks.  He’ll try them and say they aren’t bad.  He’ll even eat fruit with the family after dinner but that junky stuff has a hold on him.  I don’t think he’ll ever change and I guess I have to accept that I married a junk food junky!  ;~)

I’ve been pondering this insane quote for two days now and I have definitely conceited. There is no doubt I fall in the insane category. But don’t we all? I mean how many years did I make the same halfhearted attempts at dieting and then wonder why I couldn’t lose weight?

In addition to insane, you can add sick, tired and depressed to my list of adjectives for this week.  Man I have SO much to catch you up on I can’t believe how long it’s been since I posted a normal journal post.

Let’s start with sick.  Thursday and Friday, I was extremely sick.  I have no idea what hit me but it hit fast and it hit HARD. Fever, chills fatigue. Normally I mush right through my colds but this one knocked me out.  On Friday, I actually lined up three chairs in my office and laid down.  I went to the doctors and they were flabbergasted as well. I’m feeling TONS better but still a little “off”.

Tired’s easy.  I’m tired. I’m always tired. I try to squish too much in the day and now that I’m back at work it’s almost impossible to do everything I want to do.  I’m making an effort to get to bed early this week and get into a groove.  Now that I made it through the first week I have a good idea how my schedule will pan out. It’s really not that bad.  

Finally the big “D”. Depression is a big word and I don’t literally think I’m depressed.  I’d say I’m more “down”.  I really did overeat this weekend but that’s not even it. Actually I think the overeating might have been the result and not the cause.  I just feel a little out of sorts.  I’m sure it’s the combination of the insane, sick and tired that’s wearing on me.  I’ll snap out of it, I always do.

So TONS of updates because I’m tired (duh) and I’m going to bed.  Plus I wrote entirely too much tonight!

  • I updated the Banana Nut Muffins with new photos of the toddler.  I made a double batch and they came out even better!
  • I also updated my Weight Progress and Workout Progress pages.  Although I already feel like I gained back that pound I lost after my disastrous weekend.  I’m so close to my comfy range I can taste it!!  Hopefully this week!
  • I FINALLY added that book review I’ve been promising for like a week.
  • I posted a new recipe and have another one in the wings.  I’m just too tired to finish typing it up.  

I’ll be back tomorrow with my points journal.  I need the structure this week!




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Discussion

There are 6 comments so far.

    A

    September 4, 2007

    Wow Roni, I hope you are all better soon. Take care of yourself.

    A

    Living life to the fullest

    September 4, 2007

    A word of advice….SLOW DOWN GIRL! Think of things this way. You make a to-do list. You put the most important thing at the top then work your way down. Now when you look at your list at the end of the day…the things you didn’t finish ask yourself these questions:

    1. Is this going to cost me money?
    2. Someone else money?
    3. Is this going to destory my career? Homelife? Someone elses life?
    4. Will the world stop because I didn’t get this done?

    If you say no to these….then you are in god shape! :)

    – Loving Each Day!

    January

    September 4, 2007

    Roni – thanks for the webpage. I started reading it the day I started WW and I really feel like you’ve addded to the experience with all of your cooking ideas and (semi) daily posts. I have several of your links ready on my Favorite’s List.

    Hope things are looking up today – everyone has those days (the D days)!

    Off to eat my blue berry pancakes :)

    Christian Goodman

    September 4, 2007

    Isn’t it amazing how the three categories always go together: “Sick, Tired and Depressed”. And all that leads to a small slips or relapses in whatever “addictions” we’ve chosen.

    I actually think that big key to sobriety is to take care of our health (both emotional as well as physical).

    Warm regards,

    Christian Goodman
    http://ChristianGoodman.com

    Ames

    September 4, 2007

    we’re supporting you through every bit!!!

    Anonymous

    September 4, 2007

    Roni,
    I hope you get out of your funk soon…but remember, you have to feel icky every once and a while to help you appreciate how good feeling good feels!
    Also…on the husband thing…could YOU loose weight or get healthy because someone else wanted you to? If and when he is ready, he will change. In the meantime, you can only be an inspiration. (You already are to me!)You are only in control of you. Everything else is a waste of your energy! Kudos on creating a healthy environment for the toddler…but remember, he will also make his own choices one day. (In the meantime, train up a child in the way he should go and when he is older he will not depart from it.)